Monday, September 5, 2011
♥ on the bus
i sat on the bus time morning
been driving lately, so its been a while since i took the bus to uni
i sat there looking out the window as time passed on
at the city bus stop, the bus started to fill up
and i noticed a couple get on the bus together and because the bus was full they had to stand
the girl was standing on the upper step, the guy on the lower.
half way through the bus ride, he put one of his arms around her waist
and then is saw her kiss him on the forehead
corney much? but this little bit inside of me went aww and just a tad bit jealous.
been driving lately, so its been a while since i took the bus to uni
i sat there looking out the window as time passed on
at the city bus stop, the bus started to fill up
and i noticed a couple get on the bus together and because the bus was full they had to stand
the girl was standing on the upper step, the guy on the lower.
half way through the bus ride, he put one of his arms around her waist
and then is saw her kiss him on the forehead
corney much? but this little bit inside of me went aww and just a tad bit jealous.
josh and i use to be like that when we started dating... then two years went by.
and... he just punched me in the arm....... -_____-"
4:06 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2011
♥ speaking love
there are times where i speak out of anger.
speak out of frustration.
speak out of impatience.
speak out of hurt.
speak out of annoyedness.
speak out of coldness.
speak out of disappointment.
speak out of expectations.
speak out of resentment.
i often speak out of all these things.
and it's bad. i know. i let my emotions get the better of it way too often. and i say things i don't really mean.
i want to speak out of love. joy. happiness. patience. calmness. gentleness. kindness. goodness. faithfulness. self control.
i want my words that come out of my mouth, to always be words of love.
speak out of frustration.
speak out of impatience.
speak out of hurt.
speak out of annoyedness.
speak out of coldness.
speak out of disappointment.
speak out of expectations.
speak out of resentment.
i often speak out of all these things.
and it's bad. i know. i let my emotions get the better of it way too often. and i say things i don't really mean.
i want to speak out of love. joy. happiness. patience. calmness. gentleness. kindness. goodness. faithfulness. self control.
i want my words that come out of my mouth, to always be words of love.
5:32 PM
Friday, September 10, 2010
♥ what?
what what what?
you love me?!
NAWWWWWWWS.
i love you too :)
thanks for putting in the effort to write, i know it's not something that's easy for you and i don't take it for granted.
you love me?!
NAWWWWWWWS.
i love you too :)
thanks for putting in the effort to write, i know it's not something that's easy for you and i don't take it for granted.
10:38 AM
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
♥ love
you were my first love.
ahh i was so young and naive.
i remember i had liked you for a really long time. it was just a crush at first. all those years i had my eye on you.
and then you disappeared from my life for a year or two.. and the crush disappeared along with it. there were other boys while you weren't there. ones that were really nice to me... one's that made me feel special. and i fell for it, ever so stupidly.
and one day we somehow started talking again... and we became quite good friends... we would talk everyday... and then one day you told me that you liked me. and i told you that i liked you to. and the next day while walking to the bus, your friend grabbed our hands and put them hand in hand. it was the first time we held hands...
i thought we would last forever... i thought we were perfect for each other.
and then came the day you broke my heart.
breaking up with me was one thing... but not even talking to me tore me to pieces.
it took years to recover from that. and i must admit i was pretty stupid to try to move on, not long after.. when i knew i was still heartbroken from you.
i look back at that now, and i'm so glad we went through all of that while we were young and stupid. because i look at us now and i know that we are so different, that we would have never worked out. i'm so glad that it's over, that we have moved past it, and ended up being better friends than we ever were.
i like how we can look back and laugh at how stupid we were. laugh at the mistakes we made. and laugh at the hurt that once existed... and it's no where near awkward. i like how we look out for each other, got each other's backs... and have such a unique friendship that doesn't require constant maintenance.
i've been missing you lately. there are times where i need someone to talk to, and i know you're just a phone call away... but i can't bring myself to dial your number. normally it's second nature. i don't need even need to question whether or not your free to talk, free to pick me up, free to binge on icecream. but lately i have. and i know it's my fault. i know it's because of that fight we had. and i know that fight happened because i was angry at you. and i know you apologised already... but i guess... honestly... things never really went back to normal. and i wonder if they will...
i decided to let you live your life with the choices that you choose to make... and that means no more pestering or nagging or check ups... that's what you wanted, after all.
i just hope you don't forget me in the process.
in the end i know you're always there for me if i really need you. but i miss having that second nature of dialing your number whenever i wanted to.
i didn't turn on my computer to blog about that actually...
in fact i turned on my computer and started to blog at 1am about the word 'love'.
because i remember after you i told myself that i would stop using that word.... it's a special word really. it's not something that should be thrown around lightly, which unfortunately is the reality in today's world.
i didn't use that word again for years. sometimes i'd use variations - luv... lurve... <3... s2..... but to me.. the word 'love' was different. it was more powerful, it had meaning, it was special... and i didn't want to throw it around so lightly like i use to.
haha i remember dating a boy and he told me that he loved me and i just couldn't bring myself to say it back.
As i begun to get older i started to realize that i was dating for the wrong reasons. that i was young. that all this heartache wasn't worth it... so i gave up on dating.
ahh that was until i met you... you were perfect. everything that i wanted. every tick for every box.. and for the ones that you didn't tick, you compensated with something else even more awesome.
you were amazing. not just your talent, skills, intelligence.. but your heart... your relationship with God... your passion... your personality... and you were pretty sweet too.
i wasn't sure at first. so i made us wait a couple of months. i wanted make sure everything was right for once. so i made sure we both crossed it by our parents first.
one day i was eating chicken terriyaki udon noodles from takas or mr samurai or something... we were in supreme court gardens. that was the day you first told me that you loved me. and no, i didn't say it back.
and i look back now at some of your emails and you would tell yourself that you could wait..
"the times when I tell myself, "one day she'll be able to say 'i love you too' ". I've been cautious about that, and that's why i don't bring it up, and I keep telling myself, "it doesn't matter, true love waits .." (metaphorically and literally) "
oh but i didn't let you pressure me into saying it. nah uh. i waited until i was sure. and that day eventually came.
*sigh* the memories are so sweet. so were your emails, back then. oh and your letters. and the flowers.
it's been nearly *counts* nineteen months now, and i guess you could say things have changed. things didn't turn out as perfectly as i hoped it would. but relationships take work... effort... time.
some days i feel like giving up. today was one of them. and then i go back and read those emails... and i go back and read those blog entries where i was so completely head over heels for you.
and it reminds me of when i first fell in love with you... of why i first fell in love with you...
so much has changed hey?
2:33 AM
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
♥ three words
there is such a precious three words, that i taught myself not to say so much. until i found this boy.
this morning i woke up, and felt like blogging about how i feel. about how we might be falling apart. about how what happened to her this time last year... could happen to me this time this year. is it him? or is it me? could i be better?
my heart is hurt, and by habit i want to push that pain away. but it is because of those three words that carry much meaning, that causes me to put up with it. that book i'm reading (but stopped temporarily), tells me to change... to be better... to chase... to love... to win. but i am not in a marriage. and i don't know if i can do that. even if those three words are true.
i went to my blog home page earlier and on my blog updates was this verse that someone had put on their blog...
“Don’t worry about anything, instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” – Phillipines 4:6-7 (NLT)
i need that peace right now.
9:51 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
♥ push.
i'm doing what i do best.
pushing away the ones i love
when i'm hurting.
the quickest way to learn to be independent, is when you have no one to depend on.
Labels: boyfriend, hurt, independent, love, me
12:03 AM
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
♥ i miss it.
he won my heart over...
with his long letters, sweet emails, thoughtful words.
with his funny (but oh so corny) jokes and child like happiness / excitement.
the first few months, we wanted to spend as much time as we could together, which wasn't much, circumstances permit.
he'd write me emails about how he was going to plan all these outings for us while i was on tour.
we went to the beach, on my stopover at perth during tour. we went to hillaries on vallies day. we went to freo during out long break, in the first few weeks of uni. we went ice skating before he went to america (quite last minute).
the picnic at the park never happened. nor did the mandurah trip.
but it's okay. our relationship isn't about outings. it's more than that.
but it doesn't mean i'm not disappointed.
that he no longer plans anything, and i find myself doing most of it.
that he's no longer as romantic as he was when he was winning me my heart over.
that he's content, just seeing me at the everyday things. like uni. church. and not really anywhere else.
ugh, long term relationships. because this is my longest, i will struggle with these things i think.
but i'm guessing their normal.
the novelty wears off huh? the newness. the butterfly feelings. the melting heart. the excessive bursts of joy and happiness. the heartfelt smss. the surprises. the fun teasing thats not the mean type. the focus on the how wonderful u are (and not how much u need to change). the innocent kind of fun.
i don't demand things. i don't like to. i am content. i love him.
but it doesn't mean i don't miss how it use to be. all those little things. the ones that make me feel special and loved. it's not really important huh, but i miss it anyways.
P.S. that second person on my use-to-hate list, started talking to me today. pretty cool because i wasn't sure how i was going to strike a conversation with her. but i did leave some fb comments to break the ice. and she started the convo asking help abt some uni stuff. pretty cool. thats two down so far, and i can't really think of anyone else at the moment, so thats pretttyy goood.
with his long letters, sweet emails, thoughtful words.
with his funny (but oh so corny) jokes and child like happiness / excitement.
the first few months, we wanted to spend as much time as we could together, which wasn't much, circumstances permit.
he'd write me emails about how he was going to plan all these outings for us while i was on tour.
we went to the beach, on my stopover at perth during tour. we went to hillaries on vallies day. we went to freo during out long break, in the first few weeks of uni. we went ice skating before he went to america (quite last minute).
the picnic at the park never happened. nor did the mandurah trip.
but it's okay. our relationship isn't about outings. it's more than that.
but it doesn't mean i'm not disappointed.
that he no longer plans anything, and i find myself doing most of it.
that he's no longer as romantic as he was when he was winning me my heart over.
that he's content, just seeing me at the everyday things. like uni. church. and not really anywhere else.
ugh, long term relationships. because this is my longest, i will struggle with these things i think.
but i'm guessing their normal.
the novelty wears off huh? the newness. the butterfly feelings. the melting heart. the excessive bursts of joy and happiness. the heartfelt smss. the surprises. the fun teasing thats not the mean type. the focus on the how wonderful u are (and not how much u need to change). the innocent kind of fun.
i don't demand things. i don't like to. i am content. i love him.
but it doesn't mean i don't miss how it use to be. all those little things. the ones that make me feel special and loved. it's not really important huh, but i miss it anyways.
P.S. that second person on my use-to-hate list, started talking to me today. pretty cool because i wasn't sure how i was going to strike a conversation with her. but i did leave some fb comments to break the ice. and she started the convo asking help abt some uni stuff. pretty cool. thats two down so far, and i can't really think of anyone else at the moment, so thats pretttyy goood.
Labels: boyfriend, emotions, friends, hate, love, novelty, outing, relationships
12:31 AM
Sunday, September 6, 2009
♥ random thoughts
- i don't like it when he wants me to look a certain way. i've accepted the way he dresses, and he should do the same for me. plus i dont even think i'm that bad =(
- i don't like it when he watches movies until late at night, and i end up staying up just waiting for him, then end up sleeping really late.
- it makes me cry when i hear the pastor telling the their fathers to use the oil to annoint their children tonight... knowing that my father won't be doing that for me.
- but i can pray that one day he will... and that my future husband will walk in the truth of God's love and grace... alongside me.
- i wish i was stronger.
- today i was challenged to pray for my sister, not just by myself, but actually pray over her, with her. the difficulty of that is very great. for those who know how much my sister and i get along. my faith will be tested.
- it feels good when he actually acknowledges how i look. it shows he takes notice.
- he messaged my dad happy fathers day via sms...... before i even woke up and had the chance to say it to him first.
- i am blessed to have a mother, who despite her circumstances, remains full of faith and love.
- mum annointed us with the oil after lunch.
- she's also told me she was going to do it again tonight for my sister and her ear infection. i think God knew i was scared/nervous >.<>
- today i also shook my bf's parents hands. when i think abt it, its kinda weird. i shake hands with official people at competitions and stuff. not really my friends parents, let alone my bf's parents. i like how i make him hug my mum when she gives him stuff. my mum's a kinda huggy person, or has become so over the past few yrs, it makes our family more closer i reckon. will have to say something when she gives him the chinese chess set, so that they hug again. hehe.
- i am still deciding if i should alter all my jeans. i think so far, definitely my flares, bootleg and those pair of wide pants (because u can't really wear them otherwise). but for the skinnys....... they're just going to remain inside my boots, and for my straights, i want to be able to wear them with both heels and flats... hence shortening them would still mean i would have to fold them in/up for flats.
- i washed the dishes. and am in the process of taking in my clothes. geez i am being a good daughter today, better appreciate it while it lasts mum/dad!
- gonna get into some chemistry today. had lots of fun the past two days. but its time to hit the books. chem midsem in a week!
- not having my dad going to church, really makes me want a husband who i know won't go down that path. but then again, i'm sure my mother didn't foresee it when she was getting married.
- i need to start praying for him more consistently.
Labels: boyfriend, church, exams, faith, father's day, future, God, grace, love, parents, prayer, uni
12:35 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
♥ kelvin & evelyn's wedding
i heart weddings. they're so pretty. and sweet. and full of love.
it also makes me think of what kinda wedding i want xD.
venue: wesley church.
located in the heart of the city, parking was a pain.
a traditional looking church, and much smaller than i was expecting!
slightly echo-ish. and yes, not a fan of the stainglass windows =/...
but it's different.
the order of service.
ahaha, she's so small xD its cute. i like the black and white ness of it. and the design.
simple and sweet. i like.
oh the actual service was pretty short too! like 1hr.
oh i forgot to take a picture of the invite. it was kinda like a postcard. haha, my siser liked it, but im a big fan of those fold out invites with the pretty layered paper.
the couple.
i don't really have a good picture of ev's dress. but it was pretty. nice and boofy. ahaha. with a train too!
i wonder how she's going to get around when taking photos xD.
it was a very detailed dress though, a lot of beading, and quite delicate. it looked heavy too.
kelvin was in a grey suit, im not a fan of grey suits, but he looked good. i found it slightly weird that him and his best man wore different coloured/styled suits.
the decorations.
i think the girls did a great job, if u look carefully in the picture above this one, you can see little lights in the background, yeah they're actually candles. they actually had like stands for candles to surround the room xD quite romantic. but G kept going to relit them haha. i liked the flowers (above) it was used for the isle decor. the bridal party actually had like roses, very light pinkish/cream/white ones, yeah the flowers for the isles must have been pricey =/ but i like orchids. im surprised they didnt go for purple ones though? since that was the bridesmaid dress colour.
me.
this was what i wore. i must admit, i didn't put that much effort in =( i was kinda in a rush in the morning. got ready in like half an hour, including shower xD. yeah, forgot necklace, earrings, foundation and eyeliner (it disappeared!)
anyways, next wedding is tracys =) and im excited for it!
meantime, im exhausted. so off i go.
it also makes me think of what kinda wedding i want xD.
venue: wesley church.located in the heart of the city, parking was a pain.
a traditional looking church, and much smaller than i was expecting!
slightly echo-ish. and yes, not a fan of the stainglass windows =/...
but it's different.
the order of service.ahaha, she's so small xD its cute. i like the black and white ness of it. and the design.
simple and sweet. i like.
oh the actual service was pretty short too! like 1hr.
oh i forgot to take a picture of the invite. it was kinda like a postcard. haha, my siser liked it, but im a big fan of those fold out invites with the pretty layered paper.
the couple.i don't really have a good picture of ev's dress. but it was pretty. nice and boofy. ahaha. with a train too!
i wonder how she's going to get around when taking photos xD.
it was a very detailed dress though, a lot of beading, and quite delicate. it looked heavy too.
kelvin was in a grey suit, im not a fan of grey suits, but he looked good. i found it slightly weird that him and his best man wore different coloured/styled suits.
the decorations.i think the girls did a great job, if u look carefully in the picture above this one, you can see little lights in the background, yeah they're actually candles. they actually had like stands for candles to surround the room xD quite romantic. but G kept going to relit them haha. i liked the flowers (above) it was used for the isle decor. the bridal party actually had like roses, very light pinkish/cream/white ones, yeah the flowers for the isles must have been pricey =/ but i like orchids. im surprised they didnt go for purple ones though? since that was the bridesmaid dress colour.
me.this was what i wore. i must admit, i didn't put that much effort in =( i was kinda in a rush in the morning. got ready in like half an hour, including shower xD. yeah, forgot necklace, earrings, foundation and eyeliner (it disappeared!)
anyways, next wedding is tracys =) and im excited for it!
meantime, im exhausted. so off i go.
2:58 PM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
♥ my heart will go on
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Labels: love, music, relationships, youtube
11:57 PM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
♥ my boyfriend
this is my boyfriend.
he is tall.
he is smart.
he doesn't like to lose.
he doesn't like not being good at things.
he has pretty bad table etiquette.
he plays the piano.
he speaks chinese.
he can swim.
he can do cpr.
he wears bright coloured clothing, and even bright coloured (or glittery) shoes.
he doesn't like being slapped in the face.
he liked to play minesweeper flags on msn.
he wears skinny jeans.
he's still on his Ls, waiting for his six months to be up.
he has a pretty dodgy phone, his LG that is.
he farts unshamelessly around his family and even me.
he bullies his little brother.
he plays basketball.
he plays baddy.
he can be pretty sweet sometimes.
he writes really nice emails and letters.
he use to always has his eyes closed when taking pictures (*blinkblink*) but he's getting better and keeping them open.
he has pretty good handwriting, probably more legible than mine.
he has his msn nickname in pink.
he likes orange and purple and pink.
he was born in perth and he's lived in malaysia and america too.
he makes me smile.
he makes me laugh.
he sometimes makes me upset.
he sometimes makes me cry.
he makes me happy, most of the time, haha.
he doesn't like my flares.
he likes my nails painted. esp black, for some reason.
he likes tshirts.
he likes dimsum.
he likes that zinzukeh stuff, excuse my pronunciation/spelling.
he randomly speaks phrases in other languages.
he randomly says peoples names (well not people, more just like pbvn)
he doesn't really like sandwiches, but he gets them for lunch anyways.
he doesn't like to waste food.
he doesn't like to be late.
he use to be pretty inflexible, but he's changed.
he use to be pretty arrogant too.
he has a past, but don't we all?
he tries to change, even when he doesn't have to.
he use to throw some pretty corny lines at me, but for some reason i thought it was kinda cute in a funny way.
he likes chicken.
he tutors.
he has a blue pencil case, that i bought him, thats why its blue, hehe.
he shares great close bonds with his friends.
he loves God.
he has amazing testimonies of God working in his life.
he loves me.
he is my boyfriend.
and i love him.
he is tall.
he is smart.
he doesn't like to lose.
he doesn't like not being good at things.
he has pretty bad table etiquette.
he plays the piano.
he speaks chinese.
he can swim.
he can do cpr.
he wears bright coloured clothing, and even bright coloured (or glittery) shoes.
he doesn't like being slapped in the face.
he liked to play minesweeper flags on msn.
he wears skinny jeans.
he's still on his Ls, waiting for his six months to be up.
he has a pretty dodgy phone, his LG that is.
he farts unshamelessly around his family and even me.
he bullies his little brother.
he plays basketball.
he plays baddy.
he can be pretty sweet sometimes.
he writes really nice emails and letters.
he use to always has his eyes closed when taking pictures (*blinkblink*) but he's getting better and keeping them open.
he has pretty good handwriting, probably more legible than mine.
he has his msn nickname in pink.
he likes orange and purple and pink.
he was born in perth and he's lived in malaysia and america too.
he makes me smile.
he makes me laugh.
he sometimes makes me upset.
he sometimes makes me cry.
he makes me happy, most of the time, haha.
he doesn't like my flares.
he likes my nails painted. esp black, for some reason.
he likes tshirts.
he likes dimsum.
he likes that zinzukeh stuff, excuse my pronunciation/spelling.
he randomly speaks phrases in other languages.
he randomly says peoples names (well not people, more just like pbvn)
he doesn't really like sandwiches, but he gets them for lunch anyways.
he doesn't like to waste food.
he doesn't like to be late.
he use to be pretty inflexible, but he's changed.
he use to be pretty arrogant too.
he has a past, but don't we all?
he tries to change, even when he doesn't have to.
he use to throw some pretty corny lines at me, but for some reason i thought it was kinda cute in a funny way.
he likes chicken.
he tutors.
he has a blue pencil case, that i bought him, thats why its blue, hehe.
he shares great close bonds with his friends.
he loves God.
he has amazing testimonies of God working in his life.
he loves me.
he is my boyfriend.
and i love him.
Labels: boyfriend, God, love, relationships
12:56 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
♥ imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i stand a sinner. imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
2:17 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
♥ *BREATHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
i was in a pretty bad mood, about 3 hours ago.
it's the nagging thing i think.
my mother nags me.
even my boyfriend nags me.
and even my boyfriend's MOTHER nags me. well not always directly, but through him too.
i mean, seriously.. and in all honesty... doing all those practice exams (which i WILL do, just haven't finished yet T__T) will not get me into medicine.
yes its good practice, and yes it will help me prepare myself. and yes i will eventually get it all done. but really, the nagging doesn't help. i mean yes i might do it that night if u nag me today, but would i do it with the motivation and focus that i should. or would i just be doing it so you'd just leave me alone.
anyways, i think no one trusts my sense of timing or organisation anymore. when they see i've only done 5 / 10 of the practice exams, they see lack of motivation, lack of hard work and lack of focus. rather than the other possibilities. such as PACING MYSELF =.="
anyways, i stand by what i said, i don't believe doing these practice exams will be what get me into med. i think that sorta approach is by believing in just human effort. it takes more than mere human effort. its takes the supernatural.
but, before u freak out. i will do those stupid exams okay.. SO PLEASE JUST STOP NAGGIN ME =.=
gah!
*wooshhaaa*
anyways. on a lighter note. josh came over before. he cooked... omelet. with coffee milk (because we ran outta white milk) and diced bacon and cheese and egg. haha, in his own one he added olives and sun dried tomatoes and all this other yucky stuff i dont like.
but yeah, mine surprisingly turned out pretty tasty! and yes i wasn't very happy he added coffee milk into mine (because i dont like coffee) but i could hardly taste it. thank goodness my boyfriend can somewhat cook.
we watched fireproof. naww, its a good movie. except my boyfriend has watched it like twice already and he kept saying the lines before the actors said it -__-" which kinda got annoying after a while... especially because sometimes he was WRONG! haha.
i think as we begin to approach 6 months into our relationship, we're beginning to reach that next level. not physically. but emotionally and spiritually. we've grown so much the past few months. we've had our ups and downs. our highs and lows. and relationships take work. we've both learnt so much, about ourselves, about each other, about relationships.
yesterday i wondered if i was naive because i thought that we would last forever. like it's that simple. it isnt that simple. we don't know what things will be like. what may come in the way of our relationship. where God may lead us.
essentially, God will always come first. despite how much i may love my boyfriend, family and friends... It is out of my love for God, that i am able to give to them, and love them unconditionally.
yesterday louis was telling me about what this pastor said at a camp he went to.... how anyone who is christian, is technically eligible. within that bracket, there will some that you will get along with more so than others. but God lets you choose.
I'm reminded of something Naomi said at lifegroup, that technically any christian marriage should work. At first i was like 'hmm', but i think i'm truely beginning to understand it. God's love is so supernatural. It's out of that love, that we can love others more than we ever thought possible.
1.5 hours later..
zmgsh i totally forgot i had driving lessons.. i stalled twice. at the lights. i kept looking at my back mirror because i was scared of breaking too quickly or something T____T arghghghgh.
*wooshaaa*
it's the nagging thing i think.
my mother nags me.
even my boyfriend nags me.
and even my boyfriend's MOTHER nags me. well not always directly, but through him too.
i mean, seriously.. and in all honesty... doing all those practice exams (which i WILL do, just haven't finished yet T__T) will not get me into medicine.
yes its good practice, and yes it will help me prepare myself. and yes i will eventually get it all done. but really, the nagging doesn't help. i mean yes i might do it that night if u nag me today, but would i do it with the motivation and focus that i should. or would i just be doing it so you'd just leave me alone.
anyways, i think no one trusts my sense of timing or organisation anymore. when they see i've only done 5 / 10 of the practice exams, they see lack of motivation, lack of hard work and lack of focus. rather than the other possibilities. such as PACING MYSELF =.="
anyways, i stand by what i said, i don't believe doing these practice exams will be what get me into med. i think that sorta approach is by believing in just human effort. it takes more than mere human effort. its takes the supernatural.
but, before u freak out. i will do those stupid exams okay.. SO PLEASE JUST STOP NAGGIN ME =.=
gah!
*wooshhaaa*
anyways. on a lighter note. josh came over before. he cooked... omelet. with coffee milk (because we ran outta white milk) and diced bacon and cheese and egg. haha, in his own one he added olives and sun dried tomatoes and all this other yucky stuff i dont like.
but yeah, mine surprisingly turned out pretty tasty! and yes i wasn't very happy he added coffee milk into mine (because i dont like coffee) but i could hardly taste it. thank goodness my boyfriend can somewhat cook.
we watched fireproof. naww, its a good movie. except my boyfriend has watched it like twice already and he kept saying the lines before the actors said it -__-" which kinda got annoying after a while... especially because sometimes he was WRONG! haha.
i think as we begin to approach 6 months into our relationship, we're beginning to reach that next level. not physically. but emotionally and spiritually. we've grown so much the past few months. we've had our ups and downs. our highs and lows. and relationships take work. we've both learnt so much, about ourselves, about each other, about relationships.
yesterday i wondered if i was naive because i thought that we would last forever. like it's that simple. it isnt that simple. we don't know what things will be like. what may come in the way of our relationship. where God may lead us.
essentially, God will always come first. despite how much i may love my boyfriend, family and friends... It is out of my love for God, that i am able to give to them, and love them unconditionally.
yesterday louis was telling me about what this pastor said at a camp he went to.... how anyone who is christian, is technically eligible. within that bracket, there will some that you will get along with more so than others. but God lets you choose.
I'm reminded of something Naomi said at lifegroup, that technically any christian marriage should work. At first i was like 'hmm', but i think i'm truely beginning to understand it. God's love is so supernatural. It's out of that love, that we can love others more than we ever thought possible.
1.5 hours later..
zmgsh i totally forgot i had driving lessons.. i stalled twice. at the lights. i kept looking at my back mirror because i was scared of breaking too quickly or something T____T arghghghgh.
*wooshaaa*
Labels: boyfriend, driving, love, medentry, relationships, umat
3:34 PM
Monday, July 13, 2009
♥ trying to contain my happiness
haha so this morning i began my trek to his house.
first of all, dropped by the city to return a few things and then train and bus it was.
seriously, that hill to his house from the bus stop, is a pain in the butt... i get so tiredd walking up it.
his mum just pulled up into his drive way just as i was walking past their neighbours house (argh if only she was two minutes earlier she could have saved me from that painful hill~! (note to self: need to get more fit. and now that the weathers lightened up i can actually go on those walks i've been meaning to go on!)
it was good though, that we arrived at the same time because then i didnt have to press the doorbell, because josh was tutoring and i didnt want to distract him, i was just going to sneak into his house by calling his brother to open the door.
but yeah he didn't even realize i had came in xD because i told him i was coming at 1030 and he messaged me at like 1037 asking me what time i was getting there..
ahaha. and we sorta exchanged messages for a bit, even though i was like 10m from where he was. i was like "i'm already here" and he was like "where" and i was like "in ur room" haha. it was funny because his mum and brother didn't mention that i was here already. so he was like o.O
anyways he just popped in not long ago. and it was sooooooo goooooooooooooood to hug and kiss him. i mean skype is cool and all, but nothing compared to actually physically being next to someone. oh and let me point out that even though he was the one who went away, he never had a webcam and where he stayed. so the times we did skype. he could see me, but i couldnt see him. how unfair is that!
anyways. he finishes tutoring in half an hour. so i better do a umat drill to make him happy xD
ahh i sound like a lovestruck teenager. but i am sooo happy right now =]
first of all, dropped by the city to return a few things and then train and bus it was.
seriously, that hill to his house from the bus stop, is a pain in the butt... i get so tiredd walking up it.
his mum just pulled up into his drive way just as i was walking past their neighbours house (argh if only she was two minutes earlier she could have saved me from that painful hill~! (note to self: need to get more fit. and now that the weathers lightened up i can actually go on those walks i've been meaning to go on!)
it was good though, that we arrived at the same time because then i didnt have to press the doorbell, because josh was tutoring and i didnt want to distract him, i was just going to sneak into his house by calling his brother to open the door.
but yeah he didn't even realize i had came in xD because i told him i was coming at 1030 and he messaged me at like 1037 asking me what time i was getting there..
ahaha. and we sorta exchanged messages for a bit, even though i was like 10m from where he was. i was like "i'm already here" and he was like "where" and i was like "in ur room" haha. it was funny because his mum and brother didn't mention that i was here already. so he was like o.O
anyways he just popped in not long ago. and it was sooooooo goooooooooooooood to hug and kiss him. i mean skype is cool and all, but nothing compared to actually physically being next to someone. oh and let me point out that even though he was the one who went away, he never had a webcam and where he stayed. so the times we did skype. he could see me, but i couldnt see him. how unfair is that!
anyways. he finishes tutoring in half an hour. so i better do a umat drill to make him happy xD
ahh i sound like a lovestruck teenager. but i am sooo happy right now =]
Labels: boyfriend, love, mobile, public transport, umat, walks
10:48 AM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
♥ from Him to You.
Dear Child,
You may not know me, but I know everything about you (Psalm 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered (Matthew 10:29-31)
For you were made in my image (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being (Acts 17:28)
For you are my offspring (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived (Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation (Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book (Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me (John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love (1 John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you (1 Josh 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father (1 John 3:1)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs (Matthew 6:31-33)
Because I love you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore (Psalm 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul (Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things (Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me (Deuteronomy 4:29)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are broken hearted, I am close to you (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes (Revelation 21:3-4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth (Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus (John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed (John 17:26)
He is the exact representation of my being (Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you (Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you (1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again (Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen (Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father (Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is, Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you (Luke 15:11-32)
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
You may not know me, but I know everything about you (Psalm 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered (Matthew 10:29-31)
For you were made in my image (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being (Acts 17:28)
For you are my offspring (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived (Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation (Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book (Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me (John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love (1 John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you (1 Josh 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father (1 John 3:1)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs (Matthew 6:31-33)
Because I love you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore (Psalm 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul (Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things (Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me (Deuteronomy 4:29)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are broken hearted, I am close to you (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes (Revelation 21:3-4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth (Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus (John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed (John 17:26)
He is the exact representation of my being (Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you (Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you (1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again (Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen (Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father (Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is, Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you (Luke 15:11-32)
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
1:30 AM
Thursday, May 14, 2009
♥ hate.
hate is such a strong word. really =/...
but sometimes i say it without realizing it.. e.g. "eww i hatee thattt"
today my mum brought up the topic of this fall out, i had with an old friend years ago... we're talking like year 4 or 5 or something...
she was telling me how i had told this girl 'not to listen to her parents'... and she told her mum. and then her mum told the school and they called my mum.. etc etc (zzzz.. long story man)
but i was surprised with the new info she gave - that mother of that old friend had called the school to ask that i not be placed in the same year 7 class as her.
like woah =/ was i really that bad of an influence?
anyways. the way I remember it though, is that... i dont remember telling that girl not to listen to her parents. but i do remember telling her that i hated mine.
i remember something along the lines of having a fight with my parents, and i was really angry at them. i went to her house. and i remember sitting on her bed (im pretty sure it was a bunk bed) and i remember telling her how i hated my parents.
and when this whole thing blew up (school got contacted etc and my mother got called up) i remember my mum telling me off because she was told by the school that i told that girl not to listen to her parents. and i remember telling her that i didn't say that. but not being able to explain or say what i really did say... i couldn't bring myself to say to her, that i actually had said that i hated her.
so today i explained to my mother the real story (or what i percieved as the real story). and it was really hard. how do you tell your mother that you once said that you hated her... oh how i was such a silly kid.
but i think i've realized that... when we are young. when we are kids. we don't understand sometimes. we think we do. but really we don't.
you know. it was really hard telling my mum the real story. like really hard. to tell her that i once verbally stated that i hated her.
not long ago, i think it was mother's day. i blogged about how my child would hurt me one day. but i would still love them unconditionally. i wonder how i will feel... when my child tells me they hate me. i know they wouldn't mean it. i know that they're too young to understand. but it would still hurt.
hate. it's such a harsh word.
but sometimes i say it without realizing it.. e.g. "eww i hatee thattt"
today my mum brought up the topic of this fall out, i had with an old friend years ago... we're talking like year 4 or 5 or something...
she was telling me how i had told this girl 'not to listen to her parents'... and she told her mum. and then her mum told the school and they called my mum.. etc etc (zzzz.. long story man)
but i was surprised with the new info she gave - that mother of that old friend had called the school to ask that i not be placed in the same year 7 class as her.
like woah =/ was i really that bad of an influence?
anyways. the way I remember it though, is that... i dont remember telling that girl not to listen to her parents. but i do remember telling her that i hated mine.
i remember something along the lines of having a fight with my parents, and i was really angry at them. i went to her house. and i remember sitting on her bed (im pretty sure it was a bunk bed) and i remember telling her how i hated my parents.
and when this whole thing blew up (school got contacted etc and my mother got called up) i remember my mum telling me off because she was told by the school that i told that girl not to listen to her parents. and i remember telling her that i didn't say that. but not being able to explain or say what i really did say... i couldn't bring myself to say to her, that i actually had said that i hated her.
so today i explained to my mother the real story (or what i percieved as the real story). and it was really hard. how do you tell your mother that you once said that you hated her... oh how i was such a silly kid.
but i think i've realized that... when we are young. when we are kids. we don't understand sometimes. we think we do. but really we don't.
you know. it was really hard telling my mum the real story. like really hard. to tell her that i once verbally stated that i hated her.
not long ago, i think it was mother's day. i blogged about how my child would hurt me one day. but i would still love them unconditionally. i wonder how i will feel... when my child tells me they hate me. i know they wouldn't mean it. i know that they're too young to understand. but it would still hurt.
hate. it's such a harsh word.
Labels: children, family, friends, future, hate, love, pain, parents, relationships
6:33 PM
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
♥ pms is not an excuse!
pms is not an excuse to be moody, grumpy and stubborn.
okay. maybe it is. sometimes.
but it shouldn't be an excuse, when it comes to admitting i am wrong sometimes. and that i am sorry. and that it is my fault.
i am such a strong minded person. and i am also very stubborn. i always think i'm right, and if you think i'm not - then i love a good debate.
but i've come to realize, that when it comes to relationships - its not a debate. well, it shouldn't be. it shouldn't be about proving that your right. or making sure your point is valid... and making sure that you ALWAYS win. actually, it's not about winning at all.
it's about understanding. accepting. loving.
there are times where you won't agree on the same things, where you won't like the same things, and where you will view things differently. discussion in those times are good. arguing and debating is not.
pms is not an excuse. there will be times where i will be wrong. where i will be sorry. and i will find it VERY difficult to admit it... because i am soo... stubborn and i dont like admitting i'm wrong.
so honey, i'm sorry. i know u've already told me that you've forgiven me, but i know i must be pretty difficult to stick by me... especially when im super stubborn and moody and pms-y. so thankyou for being so understanding and loving... <3>
okay. maybe it is. sometimes.
but it shouldn't be an excuse, when it comes to admitting i am wrong sometimes. and that i am sorry. and that it is my fault.
i am such a strong minded person. and i am also very stubborn. i always think i'm right, and if you think i'm not - then i love a good debate.
but i've come to realize, that when it comes to relationships - its not a debate. well, it shouldn't be. it shouldn't be about proving that your right. or making sure your point is valid... and making sure that you ALWAYS win. actually, it's not about winning at all.
it's about understanding. accepting. loving.
there are times where you won't agree on the same things, where you won't like the same things, and where you will view things differently. discussion in those times are good. arguing and debating is not.
pms is not an excuse. there will be times where i will be wrong. where i will be sorry. and i will find it VERY difficult to admit it... because i am soo... stubborn and i dont like admitting i'm wrong.
so honey, i'm sorry. i know u've already told me that you've forgiven me, but i know i must be pretty difficult to stick by me... especially when im super stubborn and moody and pms-y. so thankyou for being so understanding and loving... <3>
Labels: boyfriend, life, love, pms, problems, relationships, stubborn
10:21 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
♥ a mother's love
today is mother's day.
despite having lots of uni work and assignments to do, we did have family lunch together. excluding my sister of course, who's in europe.
i think i will never be able to express how fortunate i am to have my mother... as much as i may try through my cards or costly gifts... it will never sum up the love she has given me all these years.
as i enter adulthood. yes. im 18 now. it doesn't mean that i leave my parents. yes, i have more responsibility as legally i am no longer a child... but my parents are still a big part of my life.
and they will continue to be. until i get married. and become a mother myself.
i will struggle as all mothers do. i will love my child unconditionally, as my mother loves me. i will sacrifice things for my child... teach my child... pray for my child... sing to my child (oh i hope he/she doesnt cry when i do).... hug my child... protect my child.
but there will be times where i will see my child get hurt. where i have to correct my child. where i may even shout or yell at my child. times where i will fight with my child. times where he/she will break my heart... times where they will disappoint me. hurt me. hate me.
but i will love them unconditionally.
because thats a mother's love.
despite having lots of uni work and assignments to do, we did have family lunch together. excluding my sister of course, who's in europe.
i think i will never be able to express how fortunate i am to have my mother... as much as i may try through my cards or costly gifts... it will never sum up the love she has given me all these years.
as i enter adulthood. yes. im 18 now. it doesn't mean that i leave my parents. yes, i have more responsibility as legally i am no longer a child... but my parents are still a big part of my life.
and they will continue to be. until i get married. and become a mother myself.
i will struggle as all mothers do. i will love my child unconditionally, as my mother loves me. i will sacrifice things for my child... teach my child... pray for my child... sing to my child (oh i hope he/she doesnt cry when i do).... hug my child... protect my child.
but there will be times where i will see my child get hurt. where i have to correct my child. where i may even shout or yell at my child. times where i will fight with my child. times where he/she will break my heart... times where they will disappoint me. hurt me. hate me.
but i will love them unconditionally.
because thats a mother's love.
Labels: assignments, children, family, future, love, mother's day, parents, uni
10:39 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
♥ 傷つきやす
vul⋅ner⋅a⋅ble
[vuhl-ner-uh-buh
l] –adjective
| 1. | capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt, as by a weapon: a vulnerable part of the body. |
| 2. | open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: an argument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery. |
| 3. | (of a place) open to assault; difficult to defend: a vulnerable bridge. |
| 4. | Bridge. having won one of the games of a rubber. |
Origin:
1595–1605; < class="ital-inline">vulnerābilis, equiv. to L vulnerā(re) to wound + -bilis -ble; see vulnerary
1595–1605; < class="ital-inline">vulnerābilis, equiv. to L vulnerā(re) to wound + -bilis -ble; see vulnerary
Related forms:
vul⋅ner⋅a⋅bil⋅i⋅ty, vul⋅ner⋅a⋅ble⋅ness, noun
vul⋅ner⋅a⋅bly, adverb
vul·ner·a·ble
Main Entry: vul·ner·a·ble
Pronunciation: 'v&ln-(&-)r&-b&l, 'v&l-n&r-b&l
Function: adjective
: capable ofbeing hurt : susceptible to injury or disease vulnerable to nutritional impairment —Journal of the American Medical Association> —vul·ner·a·bil·i·ty /"v&ln-(&-)r&-'bil-&t-E/ noun plural -ties
vul·ner·a·ble
| (vŭl'nər-ə-bəl) adj.
[Late Latin vulnerābilis, wounding, from Latin vulnerāre, to wound, from vulnus, vulner-, wound; see welə- in Indo-European roots.] vul'ner·a·bil'i·ty, vul'ner·a·ble·ness n., vul'ner·a·bly adv. |
Vulnerable
Vul"ner*a*ble\, a. [L. vulnerabilis wounding, injurious, from vulnerare to wound, vulnus a wound; akin to Skr. vra?a: cf. F. vuln['e]rable.]1. Capable of being wounded; susceptible of wounds or external injuries; as, a vulnerable body. Achilles was vulnerable in his heel; and there will be wanting a Paris to infix the dart. --Dr. T. Dwight. 2. Liable to injury; subject to be affected injuriously; assailable; as, a vulnerable reputation. His skill in finding out the vulnerable parts of strong minds was consummate. --Macaulay. Language Translation for : vulnerable
| Spanish: | vulnerable, | German: | verwundbar, |
| Japanese: | 傷つきやすい |
| vulnerable | |
adjective | |
| 1. | susceptible to attack; "a vulnerable bridge" [ant: invulnerable] |
| 2. | susceptible to criticism or persuasion or temptation; "vulnerable to bribery"; "an argument vulnerable to refutation" |
| 3. | capable of being wounded or hurt; "vulnerable parts of the body" |
Main Entry: vul·ner·a·ble
Pronunciation: 'v&ln-(&-)r&-b&l, 'v&l-n&r-b&l
Function: adjective
: capable ofbeing hurt : susceptible to injury or disease vulnerable to nutritional impairment —Journal of the American Medical Association> —vul·ner·a·bil·i·ty /"v&ln-(&-)r&-'bil-&t-E/ noun plural -ties
Labels: boyfriend, love, relationships, vulnerable
11:46 PM
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
♥ Show me how to love like you have loved me
Hosanna
- Hillsong
I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing
[Chorus]
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]
I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees
[Chorus]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity
[Chorus x2]
- Hillsong
I see the king of glory
Coming on the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes
The whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing
The people sing
[Chorus]
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the highest [x2]
I see a generation
Rising up to take their place
With selfless faith
With selfless faith
I see a near revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees
We're on our knees
[Chorus]
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity
[Chorus x2]
3:54 PM
