Tuesday, September 15, 2009
♥ s i x
i am the biggest tool LOL.
so today i finished my stats lab early and headed home on the bus. but sometimes the bus doesn't go all the way into the ct, it terminates at esplande.
and the bus i got on, did just that. so i got off at esplande and jumped on another bus (the 107), thinking it would go to the city, because usually, the end bus stop heads to the city...
instead, i got on the bus at the wrong stop. and even thought that bus number goes to the city, it was going outbound instead of inbound! hence. LEFT the city altogether. and i ended up on my way back to uni.
T_T" i of course, didn't realize this til 10 minutes later i look up from fb phone and see the water and am like whattheee?! and realized what i had done.
soo...... got off the stop at uni. walked the the OTHER bus stop across road and there was a bus there also terminating at esplande. but instead. i sat. and waited. until the next bus came, that was heading into the city..
yes i am a tool. ahaha.
but going back gave me a chance to take a picture of the ad i saw the uwa bus stops which made me puzzled... i dont know why they would stick that ad at another university's bus stop?!
anywayss.. found some awesome craft stuff at my favourite little shop in the city today. will post photos of my creations later ;)
anyways on the bus to uni today i spoke to a girl in my psyc lab. i dont even know her name, but i recognised her face, and she recognised me. and she told me something that i thought was so cool. but it's a secret :) for now anyways. i'll tell you once i've let a few people do it. but it made me extremely happy and excited that i had to check if it was true! and lo and behold it is x)
anyways. that is all.
oh we skyped before, so i could pray for his exam tomorrow. it was slightly awkward but funny. not long to go!
so today i finished my stats lab early and headed home on the bus. but sometimes the bus doesn't go all the way into the ct, it terminates at esplande.
and the bus i got on, did just that. so i got off at esplande and jumped on another bus (the 107), thinking it would go to the city, because usually, the end bus stop heads to the city...
instead, i got on the bus at the wrong stop. and even thought that bus number goes to the city, it was going outbound instead of inbound! hence. LEFT the city altogether. and i ended up on my way back to uni.
T_T" i of course, didn't realize this til 10 minutes later i look up from fb phone and see the water and am like whattheee?! and realized what i had done.
soo...... got off the stop at uni. walked the the OTHER bus stop across road and there was a bus there also terminating at esplande. but instead. i sat. and waited. until the next bus came, that was heading into the city..
yes i am a tool. ahaha.
but going back gave me a chance to take a picture of the ad i saw the uwa bus stops which made me puzzled... i dont know why they would stick that ad at another university's bus stop?!
anywayss.. found some awesome craft stuff at my favourite little shop in the city today. will post photos of my creations later ;)
anyways on the bus to uni today i spoke to a girl in my psyc lab. i dont even know her name, but i recognised her face, and she recognised me. and she told me something that i thought was so cool. but it's a secret :) for now anyways. i'll tell you once i've let a few people do it. but it made me extremely happy and excited that i had to check if it was true! and lo and behold it is x)
anyways. that is all.
oh we skyped before, so i could pray for his exam tomorrow. it was slightly awkward but funny. not long to go!
Labels: boyfriend, friends, prayer, psyc, public transport, uni
11:16 PM
Sunday, September 6, 2009
♥ random thoughts
- i don't like it when he wants me to look a certain way. i've accepted the way he dresses, and he should do the same for me. plus i dont even think i'm that bad =(
- i don't like it when he watches movies until late at night, and i end up staying up just waiting for him, then end up sleeping really late.
- it makes me cry when i hear the pastor telling the their fathers to use the oil to annoint their children tonight... knowing that my father won't be doing that for me.
- but i can pray that one day he will... and that my future husband will walk in the truth of God's love and grace... alongside me.
- i wish i was stronger.
- today i was challenged to pray for my sister, not just by myself, but actually pray over her, with her. the difficulty of that is very great. for those who know how much my sister and i get along. my faith will be tested.
- it feels good when he actually acknowledges how i look. it shows he takes notice.
- he messaged my dad happy fathers day via sms...... before i even woke up and had the chance to say it to him first.
- i am blessed to have a mother, who despite her circumstances, remains full of faith and love.
- mum annointed us with the oil after lunch.
- she's also told me she was going to do it again tonight for my sister and her ear infection. i think God knew i was scared/nervous >.<>
- today i also shook my bf's parents hands. when i think abt it, its kinda weird. i shake hands with official people at competitions and stuff. not really my friends parents, let alone my bf's parents. i like how i make him hug my mum when she gives him stuff. my mum's a kinda huggy person, or has become so over the past few yrs, it makes our family more closer i reckon. will have to say something when she gives him the chinese chess set, so that they hug again. hehe.
- i am still deciding if i should alter all my jeans. i think so far, definitely my flares, bootleg and those pair of wide pants (because u can't really wear them otherwise). but for the skinnys....... they're just going to remain inside my boots, and for my straights, i want to be able to wear them with both heels and flats... hence shortening them would still mean i would have to fold them in/up for flats.
- i washed the dishes. and am in the process of taking in my clothes. geez i am being a good daughter today, better appreciate it while it lasts mum/dad!
- gonna get into some chemistry today. had lots of fun the past two days. but its time to hit the books. chem midsem in a week!
- not having my dad going to church, really makes me want a husband who i know won't go down that path. but then again, i'm sure my mother didn't foresee it when she was getting married.
- i need to start praying for him more consistently.
Labels: boyfriend, church, exams, faith, father's day, future, God, grace, love, parents, prayer, uni
12:35 PM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
♥ never give up
there was a phrase that me and nathan used during year 12, and it was to never give up
it came from a hillsong kids song... that was sometimes used at kidsaflame.
unfortunately i don't think i kept to it.
well "technically" i did. because i didn't completely give up.
but a part of me still did, in more aspects of my life, than just year 12.
so yes, after my umat score came out, my heart sank! and i knew i had no chance. i didn't give up on tee, but sure, it did have it's toll in my motivation.
when a mate is going through a hard time, and i've continously pounded him with my worriedness, and nothing changes... and rather he pushes me away. i give up. not completely, but a part of me has.
i think in some aspects of my prayer life, i gave up after a while. i think with some issues i don't even pray about it...concluding that in some cases that it was impossible, or it would never happen. ahh, such lil faith huh? it is possible. i need to believe, have faith and know that God hears me.
i think i've become so content with how my life is, and i learn to deal with things that happen. maybe even make excuses when things don't go the way i planned. when rather i should be striving and yearning for better things... praying for change.
change in all aspects. change in every aspect. not just praying for myself, but for others too.
so i was flicking through some non standard entry information for medicine. and minimum of gpa is 5.5, but as my boyfriends mother said (as she and her husband grilled me in the car today) i must aim higher, and not for the "benchmark", umat score included.
i want to walk out of that umat exam, and know that i did the best that i could. i want to finish this year of science, with grades and marks that i am happy with - not just content, but happy.
i want my relationship to be covered in grace and filled with love. i want my friends to realize how much God loves them, and forgives them, and opens His arms wide open, waiting for them to start running after Him. i want my family to grow stronger together, to be a family that reflects the qualities of Christ, especially God's love.
I'm going to start setting more time aside for prayer. I'm going to change this mindset of giving up.
Great things are going to happen, because prayer is so powerful.
oh God, all of me. covered in You.
you better watch out guys! because i'll be praying for YOU~
Labels: church, faith, family, friends, God, grace, prayer, relationships
5:24 PM
Saturday, May 2, 2009
♥ b g r
yesterday was the bgr session at church.
it was good. got many questions answered. but i guess some of the answers were not what i wanted to hear, but it was what i needed to hear.
man i realized i am somewhat naive!
i think one of the things that struct me the most was that sexual purity does not only equal virginity. i began to understand this thing about this slide... and it scared me that i was already on that slide and going down it. hmmm... sexual immorality... it isnt just sex.
sexual gratification by ur husband in the context of marriage.
i dont know how many times grace repeated that. haha. but it stuck. and made me think.
so as we striveeee towards sexual purity. we need to set our boundaries higher. we've realized that the boundaries we did set, were too low.
i think an important thing i picked up was "dancing around our boundaries" its not so much setting the boundaries and sticking to them, but that we always find ways to "dance" around them. to find other ways to muck around. and i think that applied so directly to us. so rather than just setting boundaries, we both need to work on striving for sexual purity, rather than just "followin the rules"
One part of the session used the analogy of pieces of sticky paper. as you begin a relationship, your piece of paper begins to stick onto the other piece of paper. the more your together, the harder it is to pull away - and also you might leave tears, you might have a piece of that other piece of paper stuck on you, you might not be as sticky anymore. I like this analogy. I think if i truely understood it when i was so much younger... I would have avoided much heartbreak. I think also, that i understand how much someone's past can effect you. How important it is to keep yourself, for your husband. It is so hard for your partner to understand and let go of your past, when u've given a part of urself to someone else. Thats not to say that it wouldn't work out - but its much more unnecessary strain on ur relationship.
This brings me back to a post i wrote a while ago. about a friend who had this perception of having agesssssss until they wanted to get married, and they just wanted to date for fun. I remember telling him that the pain wasn't worth it. That there was simply no point. Even though you think you can handle it - and that it won't effect you, you don't know how much it'd effect someone else. I think if i talked to him again about this topic... i would bring up this analogy. I'd ask him to think about his future spouse. How she would handle it, and the strain it'd have on their relationship. And when it comes to the "tears" and the "unstickyness" and the "having a piece of the other paper stuck to you".... i dont think it just refers to the physically aspect "e.g. you lost your first kisss... or you lose your virginity"... but i guess there's just as much emotional aspects to it too. I wish i had learnt this at a younger age... but i think even if someone told me, I wouldn't have listened much, because i was young. i guess i still am, and i have lots to learn.
The wait. I think this was another thing that caught my mind. The wait.... how difficult it would be. how much we would struggle. The test of time. It never occured to me how difficult it would be. again, naive much? but you know, i believe it's going to be okay. that it will be hard, but we're going to get there. i guess im just saying that, i actually realize the difficultness that will present itself after a few years. but i dont believe that we can't get through it.
God, we want our relationship to be good in Your eyes... We want it to be pure. We want to honour You in and through our relationship. We want people to see us together, and see the love you have for us. To see the love that you gave us, that we may love each other. Teach us to discern what is from you, and what is from the world. God, you are the center of our relationship, and i pray that as we grow closer to one another, we also grow closer to you, like a triangle, a three way relationship, where the closer each edge gets to each other, the smaller the triangle gets, bringing all edges closer together. Help us be strong God...mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. God, continue to reveal to us your planss... show us that we're on the right track, and warn us when we're not. Teach us to be patient. to be wise. to be pure. In Jesus name, Amen.
it was good. got many questions answered. but i guess some of the answers were not what i wanted to hear, but it was what i needed to hear.
man i realized i am somewhat naive!
i think one of the things that struct me the most was that sexual purity does not only equal virginity. i began to understand this thing about this slide... and it scared me that i was already on that slide and going down it. hmmm... sexual immorality... it isnt just sex.
sexual gratification by ur husband in the context of marriage.
i dont know how many times grace repeated that. haha. but it stuck. and made me think.
so as we striveeee towards sexual purity. we need to set our boundaries higher. we've realized that the boundaries we did set, were too low.
i think an important thing i picked up was "dancing around our boundaries" its not so much setting the boundaries and sticking to them, but that we always find ways to "dance" around them. to find other ways to muck around. and i think that applied so directly to us. so rather than just setting boundaries, we both need to work on striving for sexual purity, rather than just "followin the rules"
One part of the session used the analogy of pieces of sticky paper. as you begin a relationship, your piece of paper begins to stick onto the other piece of paper. the more your together, the harder it is to pull away - and also you might leave tears, you might have a piece of that other piece of paper stuck on you, you might not be as sticky anymore. I like this analogy. I think if i truely understood it when i was so much younger... I would have avoided much heartbreak. I think also, that i understand how much someone's past can effect you. How important it is to keep yourself, for your husband. It is so hard for your partner to understand and let go of your past, when u've given a part of urself to someone else. Thats not to say that it wouldn't work out - but its much more unnecessary strain on ur relationship.
This brings me back to a post i wrote a while ago. about a friend who had this perception of having agesssssss until they wanted to get married, and they just wanted to date for fun. I remember telling him that the pain wasn't worth it. That there was simply no point. Even though you think you can handle it - and that it won't effect you, you don't know how much it'd effect someone else. I think if i talked to him again about this topic... i would bring up this analogy. I'd ask him to think about his future spouse. How she would handle it, and the strain it'd have on their relationship. And when it comes to the "tears" and the "unstickyness" and the "having a piece of the other paper stuck to you".... i dont think it just refers to the physically aspect "e.g. you lost your first kisss... or you lose your virginity"... but i guess there's just as much emotional aspects to it too. I wish i had learnt this at a younger age... but i think even if someone told me, I wouldn't have listened much, because i was young. i guess i still am, and i have lots to learn.
The wait. I think this was another thing that caught my mind. The wait.... how difficult it would be. how much we would struggle. The test of time. It never occured to me how difficult it would be. again, naive much? but you know, i believe it's going to be okay. that it will be hard, but we're going to get there. i guess im just saying that, i actually realize the difficultness that will present itself after a few years. but i dont believe that we can't get through it.
God, we want our relationship to be good in Your eyes... We want it to be pure. We want to honour You in and through our relationship. We want people to see us together, and see the love you have for us. To see the love that you gave us, that we may love each other. Teach us to discern what is from you, and what is from the world. God, you are the center of our relationship, and i pray that as we grow closer to one another, we also grow closer to you, like a triangle, a three way relationship, where the closer each edge gets to each other, the smaller the triangle gets, bringing all edges closer together. Help us be strong God...mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually. God, continue to reveal to us your planss... show us that we're on the right track, and warn us when we're not. Teach us to be patient. to be wise. to be pure. In Jesus name, Amen.
Labels: bgr, boyfriend, church, future, God, life, marriage, prayer, relationships, sex
10:44 AM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ confidence in Christ!
dear God.
I'm going to get through this. It's going to be okay.
and I am confident in this.
not because I am confident in myself. but because I'm confident in YOU.
and i know ur going to pull me through this. like you always do.
I know ur name is above alllllllllllllllllll things big and small...
and I know ur going to take care of me. and pick me up and carry me through what seems to be a hard time, but i know u want to teach me things, and im ready to learn God.
thankyou for loving me so unconditionally.
love, ditz
I'm going to get through this. It's going to be okay.
and I am confident in this.
not because I am confident in myself. but because I'm confident in YOU.
and i know ur going to pull me through this. like you always do.
I know ur name is above alllllllllllllllllll things big and small...
and I know ur going to take care of me. and pick me up and carry me through what seems to be a hard time, but i know u want to teach me things, and im ready to learn God.
thankyou for loving me so unconditionally.
love, ditz
6:13 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009
♥ dear God
dear God.
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
10:12 PM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
♥ a prayer
Father,
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
2:48 PM
