Friday, December 17, 2010
♥ admission & reflection
The Admission
Well, my sister got admitted to the court today.
Yes, she is not just a law graduate, but actually a 'real' lawyer.
It was a really hectic day. Oh and the night before she literally went through my mum and grandmother's wardrobe dictating what they could and could not wear...
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| family photo on dilys' admission day [17.12.2010] |
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| dilys & i in front of the supreme court |
I was meant to work in the afternoon but I ended up calling and taking it off because it was just way too rushed.
The Reflection
At night, we had lifegroup, last one for the year! And it was really awesome.
We all reflected on the past year and shared with each other. And we opened up these question sheets we had filled in at the beginning of the year. At first I was quite hesitant to read mind, because from what I had remembered writing, I had failed to pull through on...
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| self-reflection snapshot from feb 2010 |
But in the end it was actually pretty cool. I read through mine and some things were still the same.. others had changed. It was really cool. Because it got me thinking about a lot of things.
On that question sheet, I wrote about how lost I felt, how confused and how hurt I was about the whole medicine thing. But I think over the past year I've started to catch glimpses of that bigger picture. Being able to look back and see a blessing in disguise.
I'll post my testimoney another day. And more reflection stuff as the new year comes into play.
In the meantime, I think I have a letter to write.
Labels: family, life, lifegroup, medicine, reflections, sister, spiritual life
11:45 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
♥ imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i stand a sinner. imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
2:17 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
♥ hope in the midst of darkness
when it gets to the point where i actually have to write a note (and stick it on my standby screen) that says "cut nails"...
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
7:42 PM
Monday, February 23, 2009
♥ 25 random things
25 completely random thoughts, facts and opinions... just because i feel like writing them.
1. yellow nectarines taste so good <3>
2. upon getting out of the shower. i often sit (wrapped in a towel) on my chair (using my laptop) for a few minutes before actually changing in clothes. this is so... the towel absorbs the water and my clothes don't get wet (well actually.. its just because sometimes im lazy haha)
3. i practically always wrap my hair in a separate towel... and i rarely brush it after i shower (hence why my hair is crazy in the morning!)
4. louis never lets me forget that time i walked out of the shower with just a towel on... and i had guests over =/ yet didnt realize until i already walked into the living room. it's kinda T_T because louis doesn't usually remember a lot of things. but he does rmb me telling him abt this (and never fails to remind me abt it)
5. i have a horrific singlet tan.. and i mean horrific. as in WOAH BLACK TO WHITE...
6. i always wear a singlet and shorts when swimming! (thats why my tan is so bad O_O) haha. idk why.. i guess im body conscious.
7. thongs are so comfy... and convenient. except for those GB ones i bought -.-" i heard they're really good.. but the ones i got have this ANNOYING flower thing that digs into my skin.
8. i have become a fan of the boyleg underwear *thumbs up* comfyyyyyyyy~
9. my room needs a paint make over. badly. i've got cracks near the roof.
10. carmex is a good lipbalm. much better than blistex i rekon.
11. parker pens are super awesome to write with (i usually prefer gel, but the ink runs out like crazY) also im sad because i scratched my yoty parker pen that i got from tassie =(
12. today i ate a chocolate rose that my bf gave me for valentines day. it tasted really good. much better than his cookies. (hehe)
13. my bf is actually quite a thoughtful one. and i thought it was super (or as he says "hecka") cute that he made me cookies for vallies day... despite the taste of them x)
14. i actually see myself in 10 years still with my bf (hopefully husband by then). this is actually very rare - in past relationships i didnt usually "see" it work out. i usually just "hope" it would. but this time i "see". like its possible~! and i hope it does work out. because i dont envision any future problems that we couldn't work out...
15. i should really bring a jacket with me to uni for 9am classes. it's actually pretty cool in the mornings. and not to mention in the airconditioned theatres. today i wore shorts and a singlet = not smart.
16. whyyyy did my phone have to go on such a cheap plan.. and why does everyone have to get it T__T sigh! everyone's got it now.
17. i stuck my shoes in the washing machine today. i always thought of it as a very "white" thing to do. i remember going like O_____O when a white friend told me they did it. but i tried it! and it worked (just gotta make sure the machine doesnt spin or else it'll ruin ur shoes) and yes. i think i will do it more often now. because they turn out so whiteeee and cleannn xD
18. the fact that everyone's turning 18 this year makes me very broke. VERY broke. haha. my mum always says "U HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS". i guess its the very reason im broke xD.
19. i had this cool idea of hiring out a whole rec center. and having a bball/baddy day for my 18th. but when i told my parents and bf of this idea.. they gave me funny looks =(
20. so i was thinking of hiring out a whole restaurant. this would mean i would need to get people to pay for coming to eat. but thats okay right? i'll just say no presents. and they can pay for their food. i was thinking hana bbq. all u can eat buffet korean? most people would like that. mMmm i should check it out, and maybe talk to the manager. they would have to open just for me ;) cauz i have that many friends. hehe.
21. it hurts sometimes. when u have to let a friend learn for themselves. when u have to let them make their own decisions. when things screw up. and u have to support them. but i wish u could have pulled them out before they got hurt.
22. when u see a friend that's just changed so much. u feel like u don't know them like u use to... u want to help them... but how can u? when u dont know them anymore...
23. I'm sorry God, for neglecting you all those times...
24. Thank you for your saving grace.
25. Thank you for your open arms... every. single. time.
1. yellow nectarines taste so good <3>
2. upon getting out of the shower. i often sit (wrapped in a towel) on my chair (using my laptop) for a few minutes before actually changing in clothes. this is so... the towel absorbs the water and my clothes don't get wet (well actually.. its just because sometimes im lazy haha)
3. i practically always wrap my hair in a separate towel... and i rarely brush it after i shower (hence why my hair is crazy in the morning!)
4. louis never lets me forget that time i walked out of the shower with just a towel on... and i had guests over =/ yet didnt realize until i already walked into the living room. it's kinda T_T because louis doesn't usually remember a lot of things. but he does rmb me telling him abt this (and never fails to remind me abt it)
5. i have a horrific singlet tan.. and i mean horrific. as in WOAH BLACK TO WHITE...
6. i always wear a singlet and shorts when swimming! (thats why my tan is so bad O_O) haha. idk why.. i guess im body conscious.
7. thongs are so comfy... and convenient. except for those GB ones i bought -.-" i heard they're really good.. but the ones i got have this ANNOYING flower thing that digs into my skin.
8. i have become a fan of the boyleg underwear *thumbs up* comfyyyyyyyy~
9. my room needs a paint make over. badly. i've got cracks near the roof.
10. carmex is a good lipbalm. much better than blistex i rekon.
11. parker pens are super awesome to write with (i usually prefer gel, but the ink runs out like crazY) also im sad because i scratched my yoty parker pen that i got from tassie =(
12. today i ate a chocolate rose that my bf gave me for valentines day. it tasted really good. much better than his cookies. (hehe)
13. my bf is actually quite a thoughtful one. and i thought it was super (or as he says "hecka") cute that he made me cookies for vallies day... despite the taste of them x)
14. i actually see myself in 10 years still with my bf (hopefully husband by then). this is actually very rare - in past relationships i didnt usually "see" it work out. i usually just "hope" it would. but this time i "see". like its possible~! and i hope it does work out. because i dont envision any future problems that we couldn't work out...
15. i should really bring a jacket with me to uni for 9am classes. it's actually pretty cool in the mornings. and not to mention in the airconditioned theatres. today i wore shorts and a singlet = not smart.
16. whyyyy did my phone have to go on such a cheap plan.. and why does everyone have to get it T__T sigh! everyone's got it now.
17. i stuck my shoes in the washing machine today. i always thought of it as a very "white" thing to do. i remember going like O_____O when a white friend told me they did it. but i tried it! and it worked (just gotta make sure the machine doesnt spin or else it'll ruin ur shoes) and yes. i think i will do it more often now. because they turn out so whiteeee and cleannn xD
18. the fact that everyone's turning 18 this year makes me very broke. VERY broke. haha. my mum always says "U HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS". i guess its the very reason im broke xD.
19. i had this cool idea of hiring out a whole rec center. and having a bball/baddy day for my 18th. but when i told my parents and bf of this idea.. they gave me funny looks =(
20. so i was thinking of hiring out a whole restaurant. this would mean i would need to get people to pay for coming to eat. but thats okay right? i'll just say no presents. and they can pay for their food. i was thinking hana bbq. all u can eat buffet korean? most people would like that. mMmm i should check it out, and maybe talk to the manager. they would have to open just for me ;) cauz i have that many friends. hehe.
21. it hurts sometimes. when u have to let a friend learn for themselves. when u have to let them make their own decisions. when things screw up. and u have to support them. but i wish u could have pulled them out before they got hurt.
22. when u see a friend that's just changed so much. u feel like u don't know them like u use to... u want to help them... but how can u? when u dont know them anymore...
23. I'm sorry God, for neglecting you all those times...
24. Thank you for your saving grace.
25. Thank you for your open arms... every. single. time.
Labels: friends, God, grace, problems, random, spiritual life, uni
9:47 PM
