Wednesday, July 15, 2009
♥ *BREATHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*
i was in a pretty bad mood, about 3 hours ago.
it's the nagging thing i think.
my mother nags me.
even my boyfriend nags me.
and even my boyfriend's MOTHER nags me. well not always directly, but through him too.
i mean, seriously.. and in all honesty... doing all those practice exams (which i WILL do, just haven't finished yet T__T) will not get me into medicine.
yes its good practice, and yes it will help me prepare myself. and yes i will eventually get it all done. but really, the nagging doesn't help. i mean yes i might do it that night if u nag me today, but would i do it with the motivation and focus that i should. or would i just be doing it so you'd just leave me alone.
anyways, i think no one trusts my sense of timing or organisation anymore. when they see i've only done 5 / 10 of the practice exams, they see lack of motivation, lack of hard work and lack of focus. rather than the other possibilities. such as PACING MYSELF =.="
anyways, i stand by what i said, i don't believe doing these practice exams will be what get me into med. i think that sorta approach is by believing in just human effort. it takes more than mere human effort. its takes the supernatural.
but, before u freak out. i will do those stupid exams okay.. SO PLEASE JUST STOP NAGGIN ME =.=
gah!
*wooshhaaa*
anyways. on a lighter note. josh came over before. he cooked... omelet. with coffee milk (because we ran outta white milk) and diced bacon and cheese and egg. haha, in his own one he added olives and sun dried tomatoes and all this other yucky stuff i dont like.
but yeah, mine surprisingly turned out pretty tasty! and yes i wasn't very happy he added coffee milk into mine (because i dont like coffee) but i could hardly taste it. thank goodness my boyfriend can somewhat cook.
we watched fireproof. naww, its a good movie. except my boyfriend has watched it like twice already and he kept saying the lines before the actors said it -__-" which kinda got annoying after a while... especially because sometimes he was WRONG! haha.
i think as we begin to approach 6 months into our relationship, we're beginning to reach that next level. not physically. but emotionally and spiritually. we've grown so much the past few months. we've had our ups and downs. our highs and lows. and relationships take work. we've both learnt so much, about ourselves, about each other, about relationships.
yesterday i wondered if i was naive because i thought that we would last forever. like it's that simple. it isnt that simple. we don't know what things will be like. what may come in the way of our relationship. where God may lead us.
essentially, God will always come first. despite how much i may love my boyfriend, family and friends... It is out of my love for God, that i am able to give to them, and love them unconditionally.
yesterday louis was telling me about what this pastor said at a camp he went to.... how anyone who is christian, is technically eligible. within that bracket, there will some that you will get along with more so than others. but God lets you choose.
I'm reminded of something Naomi said at lifegroup, that technically any christian marriage should work. At first i was like 'hmm', but i think i'm truely beginning to understand it. God's love is so supernatural. It's out of that love, that we can love others more than we ever thought possible.
1.5 hours later..
zmgsh i totally forgot i had driving lessons.. i stalled twice. at the lights. i kept looking at my back mirror because i was scared of breaking too quickly or something T____T arghghghgh.
*wooshaaa*
it's the nagging thing i think.
my mother nags me.
even my boyfriend nags me.
and even my boyfriend's MOTHER nags me. well not always directly, but through him too.
i mean, seriously.. and in all honesty... doing all those practice exams (which i WILL do, just haven't finished yet T__T) will not get me into medicine.
yes its good practice, and yes it will help me prepare myself. and yes i will eventually get it all done. but really, the nagging doesn't help. i mean yes i might do it that night if u nag me today, but would i do it with the motivation and focus that i should. or would i just be doing it so you'd just leave me alone.
anyways, i think no one trusts my sense of timing or organisation anymore. when they see i've only done 5 / 10 of the practice exams, they see lack of motivation, lack of hard work and lack of focus. rather than the other possibilities. such as PACING MYSELF =.="
anyways, i stand by what i said, i don't believe doing these practice exams will be what get me into med. i think that sorta approach is by believing in just human effort. it takes more than mere human effort. its takes the supernatural.
but, before u freak out. i will do those stupid exams okay.. SO PLEASE JUST STOP NAGGIN ME =.=
gah!
*wooshhaaa*
anyways. on a lighter note. josh came over before. he cooked... omelet. with coffee milk (because we ran outta white milk) and diced bacon and cheese and egg. haha, in his own one he added olives and sun dried tomatoes and all this other yucky stuff i dont like.
but yeah, mine surprisingly turned out pretty tasty! and yes i wasn't very happy he added coffee milk into mine (because i dont like coffee) but i could hardly taste it. thank goodness my boyfriend can somewhat cook.
we watched fireproof. naww, its a good movie. except my boyfriend has watched it like twice already and he kept saying the lines before the actors said it -__-" which kinda got annoying after a while... especially because sometimes he was WRONG! haha.
i think as we begin to approach 6 months into our relationship, we're beginning to reach that next level. not physically. but emotionally and spiritually. we've grown so much the past few months. we've had our ups and downs. our highs and lows. and relationships take work. we've both learnt so much, about ourselves, about each other, about relationships.
yesterday i wondered if i was naive because i thought that we would last forever. like it's that simple. it isnt that simple. we don't know what things will be like. what may come in the way of our relationship. where God may lead us.
essentially, God will always come first. despite how much i may love my boyfriend, family and friends... It is out of my love for God, that i am able to give to them, and love them unconditionally.
yesterday louis was telling me about what this pastor said at a camp he went to.... how anyone who is christian, is technically eligible. within that bracket, there will some that you will get along with more so than others. but God lets you choose.
I'm reminded of something Naomi said at lifegroup, that technically any christian marriage should work. At first i was like 'hmm', but i think i'm truely beginning to understand it. God's love is so supernatural. It's out of that love, that we can love others more than we ever thought possible.
1.5 hours later..
zmgsh i totally forgot i had driving lessons.. i stalled twice. at the lights. i kept looking at my back mirror because i was scared of breaking too quickly or something T____T arghghghgh.
*wooshaaa*
Labels: boyfriend, driving, love, medentry, relationships, umat
3:34 PM
Monday, July 6, 2009
♥ iHATEit.
im tired. grumpy. moody
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
Labels: anthropology, chemistry, fb, God, maths, medentry, pms, psyc, results, umat, uni
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