Sunday, September 6, 2009

• i don't like it when he wants me to look a certain way. i've accepted the way he dresses, and he should do the same for me. plus i dont even think i'm that bad =(
  
• i don't like it when he watches movies until late at night, and i end up staying up just waiting for him, then end up sleeping really late.
• it makes me cry when i hear the pastor telling the their fathers to use the oil to annoint their children tonight... knowing that my father won't be doing that for me.
• but i can pray that one day he will... and that my future husband will walk in the truth of God's love and grace... alongside me.
• i wish i was stronger.
• today i was challenged to pray for my sister, not just by myself, but actually pray over her, with her. the difficulty of that is very great. for those who know how much my sister and i get along. my faith will be tested.
• it feels good when he actually acknowledges how i look. it shows he takes notice.
• he messaged my dad happy fathers day via sms...... before i even woke up and had the chance to say it to him first.

• i am blessed to have a mother, who despite her circumstances, remains full of faith and love.
• mum annointed us with the oil after lunch.
• she's also told me she was going to do it again tonight for my sister and her ear infection. i think God knew i was scared/nervous >.<>
• today i also shook my bf's parents hands. when i think abt it, its kinda weird. i shake hands with official people at competitions and stuff. not really my friends parents, let alone my bf's parents. i like how i make him hug my mum when she gives him stuff. my mum's a kinda huggy person, or has become so over the past few yrs, it makes our family more closer i reckon. will have to say something when she gives him the chinese chess set, so that they hug again. hehe.
• i am still deciding if i should alter all my jeans. i think so far, definitely my flares, bootleg and those pair of wide pants (because u can't really wear them otherwise). but for the skinnys....... they're just going to remain inside my boots, and for my straights, i want to be able to wear them with both heels and flats... hence shortening them would still mean i would have to fold them in/up for flats.
• i washed the dishes. and am in the process of taking in my clothes. geez i am being a good daughter today, better appreciate it while it lasts mum/dad!
• gonna get into some chemistry today. had lots of fun the past two days. but its time to hit the books. chem midsem in a week!
• not having my dad going to church, really makes me want a husband who i know won't go down that path. but then again, i'm sure my mother didn't foresee it when she was getting married.
• i need to start praying for him more consistently.

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