i hate being sick.

feverish. cold/flu. whatever you want to call it.

it makes it difficult to concentrate. to study. to do things. to wake up in the morning.

oddly enough - i don't even know where i got it from.

my boyfriend got sick on the same day too! but we couldn't have caught it from each other because we hadn't seen each other the day before.

arghhh..

on other news. assignments and assessments are beginning to pile out. writing notes for each lecture is proving to be very time consuming - and i might just have to can that. according to most med students in upper years, it's pointless anyways.

i'm trying to exempted from chemistry - since i already did first year chem... will find out on monday if i can. not only will it save me money, but also TIME to do and focus on other things!

i've already told reddot i couldn't really work much anymore.. i think my next shift is just the saturday during study break...

still haven't really let go of tutoring - contemplating whether i can continue it or not still (even though i thought i already decided i wasn't)

anyways. took one of josh's stethoscopes today. he got it for free i think. but who cares. it's purple!

looking at it makes me kinda excited in the "I'M GOING TO BE A DOCTOR" kinda way :)

exams are over, but i'm so disappointed...

i totally had myself set up for a hd for stats... until that exam. 

i literally skipped like a quarter of the exam, time was just so tight, gah it was so rushed already, and i still couldn't finish it.

so devo.

i know that it's over. i know i can't do anything about it now.

but it's still disappointing. so disappointing.

pretty devo about my lab report mark...

i was really debating whether i was appeal for a remark..

i just sent an email to the unit coordinator... so yeah see how that goes

*sigh*

one last exam tomorrow...

three hours until possibly the worse exam i've had... although i haven't had it yet, i do know its going to be bad.

i've never felt this unprepared.

this unit is just insane. i think everyone is freaking out.

sigh.

it concerns me when i receive these kind of emails from UWA security...

thats really sickening =/...

speaking of toilets.......

today i walked into the science library bathroom and there was this girl on her phone. standing next to the sink on her phone. and i thought she was leaving soon.. so i walked into the cubical.. and closed the door and sorta just waited for her to leave (because it's just so awkward!!!!) 

and she DIDN'T!!! she just kept talking on her phone.. GRRR. even after i flushed the toilet (to make it seem like i did use it) and went to wash my hands, she STILL stood there talking on her phone (even though she could barely hear them because of the flush)

so i unhappily walked out of the bathroom.. walked to the other side of the library... and walked into another bathroom... one that was empty. and didn't have a girl talking really loudly on her mobile phone, making it awkward...

it was fun getting all glammed up for med ball.

kudos to my sister for the hair and make up

well after sticking in my fb status that i was looking for a red tie, the girl at work stole her brother's for me. and it matched perfectly.

i think we were the only ones who went to the effort of matching... oops.

but my boyfriend turned out pretty good too. on friday i had dropped by karrinyup with chris and did a bit of shopping spree in myer. i was really happy with the vest i got him. totally finished up his outfit very nicely i rekon. *proud face*. unfortunately he was still quite unorganinsed, frantically hunting for a shirt at 6pm... just before we had to leave...

however, althought i had somewhat control over what he wore, i couldn't control his very unique facial expressions in many of the photos taken that night.

the place was pretty... convention centre. but i found it was very dark most of the night.. which was a pain when you were trying to eat... but the med videos they had were quite good! very creative and funny.

the food was good hey. well at least the beef main was. i was so glad josh didn't like it... then i could eat it all to myself! MWUAHHAA

yup and that was pretty much it... the rest of the food was pretty average... the music was pretty average too (they get changing genre with each song, which is a bit annoying... i would think having like chunks or phases of a certain genre is better)... was barely on the dancefloor. spent most of my night sitting at the table actually. taking funny photos and just talking or sitting there.

this assignment is slightly killing me.. 

number of papers read: 6

number of papers that are useless: 2

number of papers still need to read: 2

number of papers i have written notes about: 4

number of papers i still need to write notes about: 2

number of words i need to write for literature review: 2200

number of words written so far: 0

progress stats:

research: 90%

reading: 66%

note taking: 66%

writing: 0%

time left to go:

1 day, 19 hours, 47 minutes, 5 seconds


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1 day, 9 hours, 56 minutes, 15 seconds

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2am, Sunday the 12th September 2010


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0 day, 14 hours, 47 minutes, 2 seconds

x. about half way down on my back... on the left side... it hurts. it's quite uncomfortable

x. been having a locked jaw the past few days too... uber annoying

x. lips are becoming dry... and i haven't been drinking enough water

x. finally got stat assignment done and completed... only to recieve another one today due in two weeks

x. really need to get started on that psyc lit review..... like very soon

x. can't blog as often anymore because i'm not bussing haha and driving nowadays

x. beginning to really hate peak hour traffic... i should really try to avoid driving in those hours - especially when i don't need to.. i could just stay back at uni, or come late to uni..

x. i'm quite exhausted. this week's been pretty full on for me. hopefully this week will lighten up slightly... but i've got a lot of catch up work to do.. and that lit review.. arghh

x. my boyfriend and i have two separate lives, but it's was pretty intertwined at the start of our relationship... but now it's sorta becoming more separate. which isn't necessarily a bad thing i guess, i'm just not use to the whole barely seeing each other / barely doing anything together anymore thing

x. had an interesting convo with rob today about religion. generally most people i talk to respect what i believe and wouldn't mmm... attack me haha. my last convo about religion with rob ended up pretty heated so this time i didn't try to justify anything, but rather tried to see what kind of perspective he had and why he thought those things... and i tried to challenge some of his thoughts. but yeah they were pretty negative but at least i kinda understand why he thinks that way now

x. continuing on with that.. we also had this convo about kids with developmental disorders. and i was surprised with he view on it, considering he's studying psychology too... like he was saying that kids with developmental disorders just shouldn't be born and if his kid ended up developing autism or something he'd give the child up to an orphanage... or if his wife was pregnant with a baby where they knew something was wrong already and she wanted to keep it.. then he'd probably leave her and stuff. so in my opinion i thought that was pretty crazy! because my heart pours out to these kids - it's not like it's their fault or that they did anything wrong. but i'm glad that he's at least gearing towards more the industrial psychology aspect of things rather than anything to do with clinical because i'm not sure how his attitudes would fit in very well. but yeah. isn't that crazy. it took me by surprise that some people thought like that....

x. so yeah i guess my eyes have been kinda opened to how people see the world so differently from how i do...

well caught up on some sleep this morning.

i've decided not to go to uni's on thursdays anymore. just no point spending hours in transport just to go for two lectures then having to rush to work afterwards.

especially when i can well, ilecture them at home.

a stat assignment due next week, a debate and literature review due the week after. 5 more weeks until my research article annotated bibliography is due. and 6 weeks until my essay is due. and 8 weeks until my lab report is due. oh yeah and the stat assignments we'll be getting every 3 weeks or something.

this year, the assignments have been quite varied. it's not just the "two lab reports" and a few stats assignments inbetween. it's been like essays, literature reviews... and an annotated bibliography O__O. i've never written a lit review or bibliography so lets hope it turns out okay. i feel more prepared for my lab reports though, having done quite a few over the past year and a half. ahh psyc *hearts*

it's going to be quite a busy weekend with some events (including the birthing kit workshop) and yeah should really get started on that literature review or at least the research part of it

i am amazed at how quickly ilectures get put up! (it's like almost instant rght after the lecture's over!)

time to ilecture :)

p.s. 445th post! insane much? :)

x. i'm still trying to get my head around the fact that people are wired differently when it comes to mission. something i picked up when speaking to timmie about it. i guess because i'm just so "passionate" about it that i've never really seen why you wouldn't be. it's something that's starting to open my eyes to the many different perspectives of missions.

x. i think it's sad that very close friends can be that one day, and distant the next. i understand some people are scared of becoming too close... but then if you become so cautious about it, you end up distancing yourself so much that you kinda let go - and you end up losing on something that you once use to value so very much. i know it's not easy to find that happy medium, but i think its possible and i think you should have at least tried or maybe even not let go that easily.

x. the first kairos course session was pretty intro-ish. tbh i wasn't too sure about this course at first. but i guess this year is more about learning and growing for me, so it was really perfect timing. i'm hoping the book / content is really good, because so far the old school videos and odd humar are slightly off putting (just slightly)

x. i'm still behind in a lot of note taking and uni work. but i guess it's worked  out really well because my hours at work have been superly cut down due to the new manager (i am pretty sure he doesn't like me) and i have more time to study / do uni work... it's not like i need the money anyways so it does bother me much

x. what kind of person do you want people to know you as? i ask you that because my mate is becoming increasingly known for his 'party-ish' behaviour. and i think that makes me slightly sad because i see him in a totally different way and i know (at least i think i do) the real him, not just that superficial party-goer. and to know that people are beginning to percieve him in this other way... i guess it just makes me think like, by giving him more attention and even 'fame' almost, it's almost like encouraging it? because i mean, who doesn't want attention? but to me, it just feels like attention for the wrong reasons :( but it's really hard to show that i care, without him pushing me away.

x. chris has been my study buddy for practically the whole year. which i guess is odd almost because we don't even do the same course. but i guess we kinda have the same work ethic, with the whole trying to get into medicine thing. most of my friends who do my course either don't rock up to lectures half the time, or don't really feel the need to study as hard? i don't know. but it's been good knowing i have someone that i can study with like everyday, and by that i mean like reallyyyy study and not get distracted easily and end up talking etc lol.

x. speaking of study, this year i seem a lot more focused and less cruisey about uni, assignments, exams etc. i think last year i was still kinda in the flukey stage of things, where i would rely on my natural ability or logic or even last minute cramming, where as this year i really am trying to be better and hopefully do the best that i can.

x. i'm finding it slightly difficult to get out of bed in the mornings lately. i think i'm overdoing it, physically. uni during the day, stuff on at night. i haven't been resting my body much. and i just can't seem to pull myself out of bed in the mornings despite 8 hours sleep. will need to make a valid point to rest a bit more. gonna be slightly difficult with the full on week i have upcoming though and not to mention upcoming assignments!

x. to finish, i guess what i'm starting to really notice is that what some people think as cool, i think is actually not cool. and vice versa. maybe it's because i never really gotten into the whole clubbing or partying thing. like for me, i just don't think getting trashed and hooking up etc is fun... and i just don't really get the point / benefit out of it... idk, kinda reminds me of back in year 8 and we use to think northbridge was kinda cool, go there and play some pool, drink some bubble tea and get photos at timezone and stuff like that..... and at the time that was pretty cool for us.. and after, we look at kids who do that and think to ourself "TB ALERT" etc. i guess as we get older our perspective on things change. and everyone's views on things, or ideas of having fun, or things that they care about... it's all different for each person.

so here i leave you with a pretty picture of some tulips. i was having a conversation to nathan about tulips the other day, because he was asking me what kind of flowers to get his gf and i was like TULIPS! bahaha. lovelove.