Sunday, June 5, 2011
♥ life is good
it's funny, because when i blog i am usually stressed. annoyed. angry. frustrated.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
1:55 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2011
♥ / undo ragequit
i was debating whether i should delete my crazy raged filled post from a fill days ago.
but i decided not to. because i was angry. i was reallyyyy annoyed and pissed off. and i really did feel like my life absolutely sucked!
and you know, i guess this blog isn't here to only talk about memories and the good times, it's here for me to write about the bad times too!
i guess for now all i want to say is that... it's easy to go out and surround yourself with alcohol and partying... but it doesn't solve you're problems, even though that's what a lot of people do nowadays. it's just running away from your problems...
ahh, but when you worship God and you have someone reminds you about grace and righteousness... things begin to change, starting from the inside out...
so why run away from your problems, when you can solve them?
but i decided not to. because i was angry. i was reallyyyy annoyed and pissed off. and i really did feel like my life absolutely sucked!
and you know, i guess this blog isn't here to only talk about memories and the good times, it's here for me to write about the bad times too!
i guess for now all i want to say is that... it's easy to go out and surround yourself with alcohol and partying... but it doesn't solve you're problems, even though that's what a lot of people do nowadays. it's just running away from your problems...
ahh, but when you worship God and you have someone reminds you about grace and righteousness... things begin to change, starting from the inside out...
so why run away from your problems, when you can solve them?
9:32 AM
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
♥ Life Without Limbs
josh held his own lil bible study group today at uni. just with a few friends. starting off with God's grace.
i admire his heart for his friends and wish i had the same courage in a way. especially when it comes down to my own family...
you know that saying, quality over quanitity... okay, so it doesnt make sense since he has OVER A THOUSAND FACEBOOK FRIENDS. but of the actual friends he talks to on a constant basis... he has a really close bond to them.
it's weird in a way. because i would look at his relationships with his friends, and then i'd look at the relationships i have with my friends... and they are totally different. like different types of friendships. each with their own advantages i guess.
anyways, here's a vid about a guy born with no limbs.
i really like the part where he says that we always blame God for the things we don't have... and not thank God for the things we do. it makes you think...
happy watching :)
Labels: bible, boyfriend, fb, friends, God, grace, relationships, uni, youtube
10:58 PM
Sunday, September 6, 2009
♥ random thoughts
- i don't like it when he wants me to look a certain way. i've accepted the way he dresses, and he should do the same for me. plus i dont even think i'm that bad =(
- i don't like it when he watches movies until late at night, and i end up staying up just waiting for him, then end up sleeping really late.
- it makes me cry when i hear the pastor telling the their fathers to use the oil to annoint their children tonight... knowing that my father won't be doing that for me.
- but i can pray that one day he will... and that my future husband will walk in the truth of God's love and grace... alongside me.
- i wish i was stronger.
- today i was challenged to pray for my sister, not just by myself, but actually pray over her, with her. the difficulty of that is very great. for those who know how much my sister and i get along. my faith will be tested.
- it feels good when he actually acknowledges how i look. it shows he takes notice.
- he messaged my dad happy fathers day via sms...... before i even woke up and had the chance to say it to him first.
- i am blessed to have a mother, who despite her circumstances, remains full of faith and love.
- mum annointed us with the oil after lunch.
- she's also told me she was going to do it again tonight for my sister and her ear infection. i think God knew i was scared/nervous >.<>
- today i also shook my bf's parents hands. when i think abt it, its kinda weird. i shake hands with official people at competitions and stuff. not really my friends parents, let alone my bf's parents. i like how i make him hug my mum when she gives him stuff. my mum's a kinda huggy person, or has become so over the past few yrs, it makes our family more closer i reckon. will have to say something when she gives him the chinese chess set, so that they hug again. hehe.
- i am still deciding if i should alter all my jeans. i think so far, definitely my flares, bootleg and those pair of wide pants (because u can't really wear them otherwise). but for the skinnys....... they're just going to remain inside my boots, and for my straights, i want to be able to wear them with both heels and flats... hence shortening them would still mean i would have to fold them in/up for flats.
- i washed the dishes. and am in the process of taking in my clothes. geez i am being a good daughter today, better appreciate it while it lasts mum/dad!
- gonna get into some chemistry today. had lots of fun the past two days. but its time to hit the books. chem midsem in a week!
- not having my dad going to church, really makes me want a husband who i know won't go down that path. but then again, i'm sure my mother didn't foresee it when she was getting married.
- i need to start praying for him more consistently.
Labels: boyfriend, church, exams, faith, father's day, future, God, grace, love, parents, prayer, uni
12:35 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009
♥ imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i stand a sinner. imperfect. flawed. broken.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
today i fight against one of the biggest struggles in my life. a struggle i will overcome.
today i feel overwhelmed with guilt. with a conscience that won't let me forget.
today i feel unworthy and undeserving of God's grace and mercy.
today, i remind myself, that i am human.
today, i remind myself, that i am unconditionally loved.
today, i remind myself, that i am saved. despite how unworthy i feel.
today, i remind myself, that i am forgiven. no matter what.
today, i remind myself, that i am covered in God's grace. that mercy and goodness follow me whereever i go.
today, i remind myself, that i am given a second chance. despite how undeserving i am.
today, i remind myself, that i can be better. and that i will.
2:17 PM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
♥ never give up
there was a phrase that me and nathan used during year 12, and it was to never give up
it came from a hillsong kids song... that was sometimes used at kidsaflame.
unfortunately i don't think i kept to it.
well "technically" i did. because i didn't completely give up.
but a part of me still did, in more aspects of my life, than just year 12.
so yes, after my umat score came out, my heart sank! and i knew i had no chance. i didn't give up on tee, but sure, it did have it's toll in my motivation.
when a mate is going through a hard time, and i've continously pounded him with my worriedness, and nothing changes... and rather he pushes me away. i give up. not completely, but a part of me has.
i think in some aspects of my prayer life, i gave up after a while. i think with some issues i don't even pray about it...concluding that in some cases that it was impossible, or it would never happen. ahh, such lil faith huh? it is possible. i need to believe, have faith and know that God hears me.
i think i've become so content with how my life is, and i learn to deal with things that happen. maybe even make excuses when things don't go the way i planned. when rather i should be striving and yearning for better things... praying for change.
change in all aspects. change in every aspect. not just praying for myself, but for others too.
so i was flicking through some non standard entry information for medicine. and minimum of gpa is 5.5, but as my boyfriends mother said (as she and her husband grilled me in the car today) i must aim higher, and not for the "benchmark", umat score included.
i want to walk out of that umat exam, and know that i did the best that i could. i want to finish this year of science, with grades and marks that i am happy with - not just content, but happy.
i want my relationship to be covered in grace and filled with love. i want my friends to realize how much God loves them, and forgives them, and opens His arms wide open, waiting for them to start running after Him. i want my family to grow stronger together, to be a family that reflects the qualities of Christ, especially God's love.
I'm going to start setting more time aside for prayer. I'm going to change this mindset of giving up.
Great things are going to happen, because prayer is so powerful.
oh God, all of me. covered in You.
you better watch out guys! because i'll be praying for YOU~
Labels: church, faith, family, friends, God, grace, prayer, relationships
5:24 PM
Friday, April 24, 2009
♥ God is Good. All the time!
mmm haven't blogged in a while. there's much to fill u all in with.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=44891
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
Labels: 18ths, abortion, birthday, boyfriend, church, faith, God, grace, life, makepovertyhistory, salvation
10:49 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009
♥ dear God
dear God.
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
10:12 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
♥ my feelings - in parts x]
i kinda of can't describe how i'm feeling right now. its sorta like a mixture. i'll try to break it up.
a part of me is relieved that my anthropology assignment is done. finished. handed in. and that i'm happy at the way it turned out (thanks again for the editing bub)
a part of me is feeling tired, maybe it's from the lack of sleep this week (or maybe just last night, ahh...) or maybe from playing badminton today (ahh so unfit...)
a part of me is in awe of God's unconditional love (despite how much we humans sin and how many times we fail... and how many times we sway away... and reject and walk away from God...)
a part of me is longing for my boyfriend's arms to be around me (even though i only saw him just over 3 hours ago)
a part of me is amazed at his obedience, his willingness and faith.
a part of me is happy because i got to eat kfc today. AND duck for dinner. <3...>
a part of me wishes i was on an island. and it was sunny (but not too hot). and i was lying down on a beach chair with sunnies and my bathers... and i actually had time to read a book. maybe twilight, or my sister's keeper. seems like i haven't had time to read either since uni started.
a part of me wishes i could be in melbourne to see that awesome speech ed's going to give.
a part of me wishes i could go to america with him.
a part of me wishes uni was over. that holidays were here. ahh holidays <3.
a part of me looks to the future. and can't wait. it's going to be great.
a part of me is still wondering whether i should go to the doctor. where would i find the time anyways? it hasn't happened lately. and i know when it happens. while im coughing when im sick. or when im brushing my teeth. mmm...
a part of me is feeling unacomplished. so far this year, i haven't got involved in the community like i wanted. i haven't ordered twloha shirts. i haven't donated blood. and with umat coming up - i guess that will be my next focus. it's time to start crossing out that to do list...
anyways. i need to shower! then it's either ilecture time. or maybe just reading a book. i dont really know. but i look foward to a relaxing night.
a part of me is relieved that my anthropology assignment is done. finished. handed in. and that i'm happy at the way it turned out (thanks again for the editing bub)
a part of me is feeling tired, maybe it's from the lack of sleep this week (or maybe just last night, ahh...) or maybe from playing badminton today (ahh so unfit...)
a part of me is in awe of God's unconditional love (despite how much we humans sin and how many times we fail... and how many times we sway away... and reject and walk away from God...)
a part of me is longing for my boyfriend's arms to be around me (even though i only saw him just over 3 hours ago)
a part of me is amazed at his obedience, his willingness and faith.
a part of me is happy because i got to eat kfc today. AND duck for dinner. <3...>
a part of me wishes i was on an island. and it was sunny (but not too hot). and i was lying down on a beach chair with sunnies and my bathers... and i actually had time to read a book. maybe twilight, or my sister's keeper. seems like i haven't had time to read either since uni started.
a part of me wishes i could be in melbourne to see that awesome speech ed's going to give.
a part of me wishes i could go to america with him.
a part of me wishes uni was over. that holidays were here. ahh holidays <3.
a part of me looks to the future. and can't wait. it's going to be great.
a part of me is still wondering whether i should go to the doctor. where would i find the time anyways? it hasn't happened lately. and i know when it happens. while im coughing when im sick. or when im brushing my teeth. mmm...
a part of me is feeling unacomplished. so far this year, i haven't got involved in the community like i wanted. i haven't ordered twloha shirts. i haven't donated blood. and with umat coming up - i guess that will be my next focus. it's time to start crossing out that to do list...
anyways. i need to shower! then it's either ilecture time. or maybe just reading a book. i dont really know. but i look foward to a relaxing night.
Labels: anthropology, baddy, boyfriend, busy, food, God, grace, holidays, life, love
7:50 PM
Monday, February 23, 2009
♥ 25 random things
25 completely random thoughts, facts and opinions... just because i feel like writing them.
1. yellow nectarines taste so good <3>
2. upon getting out of the shower. i often sit (wrapped in a towel) on my chair (using my laptop) for a few minutes before actually changing in clothes. this is so... the towel absorbs the water and my clothes don't get wet (well actually.. its just because sometimes im lazy haha)
3. i practically always wrap my hair in a separate towel... and i rarely brush it after i shower (hence why my hair is crazy in the morning!)
4. louis never lets me forget that time i walked out of the shower with just a towel on... and i had guests over =/ yet didnt realize until i already walked into the living room. it's kinda T_T because louis doesn't usually remember a lot of things. but he does rmb me telling him abt this (and never fails to remind me abt it)
5. i have a horrific singlet tan.. and i mean horrific. as in WOAH BLACK TO WHITE...
6. i always wear a singlet and shorts when swimming! (thats why my tan is so bad O_O) haha. idk why.. i guess im body conscious.
7. thongs are so comfy... and convenient. except for those GB ones i bought -.-" i heard they're really good.. but the ones i got have this ANNOYING flower thing that digs into my skin.
8. i have become a fan of the boyleg underwear *thumbs up* comfyyyyyyyy~
9. my room needs a paint make over. badly. i've got cracks near the roof.
10. carmex is a good lipbalm. much better than blistex i rekon.
11. parker pens are super awesome to write with (i usually prefer gel, but the ink runs out like crazY) also im sad because i scratched my yoty parker pen that i got from tassie =(
12. today i ate a chocolate rose that my bf gave me for valentines day. it tasted really good. much better than his cookies. (hehe)
13. my bf is actually quite a thoughtful one. and i thought it was super (or as he says "hecka") cute that he made me cookies for vallies day... despite the taste of them x)
14. i actually see myself in 10 years still with my bf (hopefully husband by then). this is actually very rare - in past relationships i didnt usually "see" it work out. i usually just "hope" it would. but this time i "see". like its possible~! and i hope it does work out. because i dont envision any future problems that we couldn't work out...
15. i should really bring a jacket with me to uni for 9am classes. it's actually pretty cool in the mornings. and not to mention in the airconditioned theatres. today i wore shorts and a singlet = not smart.
16. whyyyy did my phone have to go on such a cheap plan.. and why does everyone have to get it T__T sigh! everyone's got it now.
17. i stuck my shoes in the washing machine today. i always thought of it as a very "white" thing to do. i remember going like O_____O when a white friend told me they did it. but i tried it! and it worked (just gotta make sure the machine doesnt spin or else it'll ruin ur shoes) and yes. i think i will do it more often now. because they turn out so whiteeee and cleannn xD
18. the fact that everyone's turning 18 this year makes me very broke. VERY broke. haha. my mum always says "U HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS". i guess its the very reason im broke xD.
19. i had this cool idea of hiring out a whole rec center. and having a bball/baddy day for my 18th. but when i told my parents and bf of this idea.. they gave me funny looks =(
20. so i was thinking of hiring out a whole restaurant. this would mean i would need to get people to pay for coming to eat. but thats okay right? i'll just say no presents. and they can pay for their food. i was thinking hana bbq. all u can eat buffet korean? most people would like that. mMmm i should check it out, and maybe talk to the manager. they would have to open just for me ;) cauz i have that many friends. hehe.
21. it hurts sometimes. when u have to let a friend learn for themselves. when u have to let them make their own decisions. when things screw up. and u have to support them. but i wish u could have pulled them out before they got hurt.
22. when u see a friend that's just changed so much. u feel like u don't know them like u use to... u want to help them... but how can u? when u dont know them anymore...
23. I'm sorry God, for neglecting you all those times...
24. Thank you for your saving grace.
25. Thank you for your open arms... every. single. time.
1. yellow nectarines taste so good <3>
2. upon getting out of the shower. i often sit (wrapped in a towel) on my chair (using my laptop) for a few minutes before actually changing in clothes. this is so... the towel absorbs the water and my clothes don't get wet (well actually.. its just because sometimes im lazy haha)
3. i practically always wrap my hair in a separate towel... and i rarely brush it after i shower (hence why my hair is crazy in the morning!)
4. louis never lets me forget that time i walked out of the shower with just a towel on... and i had guests over =/ yet didnt realize until i already walked into the living room. it's kinda T_T because louis doesn't usually remember a lot of things. but he does rmb me telling him abt this (and never fails to remind me abt it)
5. i have a horrific singlet tan.. and i mean horrific. as in WOAH BLACK TO WHITE...
6. i always wear a singlet and shorts when swimming! (thats why my tan is so bad O_O) haha. idk why.. i guess im body conscious.
7. thongs are so comfy... and convenient. except for those GB ones i bought -.-" i heard they're really good.. but the ones i got have this ANNOYING flower thing that digs into my skin.
8. i have become a fan of the boyleg underwear *thumbs up* comfyyyyyyyy~
9. my room needs a paint make over. badly. i've got cracks near the roof.
10. carmex is a good lipbalm. much better than blistex i rekon.
11. parker pens are super awesome to write with (i usually prefer gel, but the ink runs out like crazY) also im sad because i scratched my yoty parker pen that i got from tassie =(
12. today i ate a chocolate rose that my bf gave me for valentines day. it tasted really good. much better than his cookies. (hehe)
13. my bf is actually quite a thoughtful one. and i thought it was super (or as he says "hecka") cute that he made me cookies for vallies day... despite the taste of them x)
14. i actually see myself in 10 years still with my bf (hopefully husband by then). this is actually very rare - in past relationships i didnt usually "see" it work out. i usually just "hope" it would. but this time i "see". like its possible~! and i hope it does work out. because i dont envision any future problems that we couldn't work out...
15. i should really bring a jacket with me to uni for 9am classes. it's actually pretty cool in the mornings. and not to mention in the airconditioned theatres. today i wore shorts and a singlet = not smart.
16. whyyyy did my phone have to go on such a cheap plan.. and why does everyone have to get it T__T sigh! everyone's got it now.
17. i stuck my shoes in the washing machine today. i always thought of it as a very "white" thing to do. i remember going like O_____O when a white friend told me they did it. but i tried it! and it worked (just gotta make sure the machine doesnt spin or else it'll ruin ur shoes) and yes. i think i will do it more often now. because they turn out so whiteeee and cleannn xD
18. the fact that everyone's turning 18 this year makes me very broke. VERY broke. haha. my mum always says "U HAVE TOO MANY FRIENDS". i guess its the very reason im broke xD.
19. i had this cool idea of hiring out a whole rec center. and having a bball/baddy day for my 18th. but when i told my parents and bf of this idea.. they gave me funny looks =(
20. so i was thinking of hiring out a whole restaurant. this would mean i would need to get people to pay for coming to eat. but thats okay right? i'll just say no presents. and they can pay for their food. i was thinking hana bbq. all u can eat buffet korean? most people would like that. mMmm i should check it out, and maybe talk to the manager. they would have to open just for me ;) cauz i have that many friends. hehe.
21. it hurts sometimes. when u have to let a friend learn for themselves. when u have to let them make their own decisions. when things screw up. and u have to support them. but i wish u could have pulled them out before they got hurt.
22. when u see a friend that's just changed so much. u feel like u don't know them like u use to... u want to help them... but how can u? when u dont know them anymore...
23. I'm sorry God, for neglecting you all those times...
24. Thank you for your saving grace.
25. Thank you for your open arms... every. single. time.
Labels: friends, God, grace, problems, random, spiritual life, uni
9:47 PM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
♥ a prayer
Father,
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
2:48 PM
♥ sunday: faith. grace. love.
Ephesians 2:8 (NIV)
For it is by grace you have been saved,
through faith—and this not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God
through faith—and this not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God
Today daryl was the speaker for our youth service... and i picked up quite a bit
which i will write down, so i dont forget =]
so he was continuing his series, on not only grace, but faith...
He mentioned that we can never fall out of the favour of our King...
and that everytime God looks at us, he smiles... he is pleased with us...
Because we are in Christ. When he looks at us, he sees Jesus.
Isnt that awesome? I think sometimes we feel unworthy of God's love... like we feel that we're not good enough! Maybe its guilt? I guess sometimes we do thingss we regret, we know is wrong.. and we just feel so bad after... so unworthy... but how awesome is our God... His love... is just so awesome.
OOOoohHh.. this reminds me of one of my favourite songs!
All For Love - Hillsong
All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to Youhehe anyways.. another thing daryl said was that faith is simply trusting God will do what He says He'll do....
i have such an awesome father in heaven... why do i stress so much? why do i always freak out and worry.
i know He has a plan for me!! plans to prosper me =) and not harm mee... plans to give me hope and a future...
i believe it.
Romans 1:17 (NIV)
17For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed,
a righteousness that is by faith from first to last,
just as it is written: "The righteous will live by faith."
Labels: faith, grace, message, sunday sermon, youth service
2:16 PM
