Friday, December 17, 2010

♥ admission & reflection

The Admission

Well, my sister got admitted to the court today.

Yes, she is not just a law graduate, but actually a 'real' lawyer.

It was a really hectic day. Oh and the night before she literally went through my mum and grandmother's wardrobe dictating what they could and could not wear...

family photo on dilys' admission day [17.12.2010]

dilys & i in front of the supreme court

I was meant to work in the afternoon but I ended up calling and taking it off because it was just way too rushed.

The Reflection

At night, we had lifegroup, last one for the year! And it was really awesome.

We all reflected on the past year and shared with each other. And we opened up these question sheets we had filled in at the beginning of the year. At first I was quite hesitant to read mind, because from what I had remembered writing, I had failed to pull through on...

self-reflection snapshot from feb 2010

But in the end it was actually pretty cool. I read through mine and some things were still the same.. others had changed. It was really cool. Because it got me thinking about a lot of things.

On that question sheet, I wrote about how lost I felt, how confused and how hurt I was about the whole medicine thing. But I think over the past year I've started to catch glimpses of that bigger picture. Being able to look back and see a blessing in disguise.

I'll post my testimoney another day. And more reflection stuff as the new year comes into play.

In the meantime, I think I have a letter to write.

Labels: family, life, lifegroup, medicine, reflections, sister, spiritual life

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Tuesday, December 7, 2010

♥ iceskating, injection & christmas lights

last night i stayed up til 3am finishing house rules by jody piccoult. woot, another book done.. now to finish off handle with care - which i got for my 18th birthday but still haven't gotten around to finishing it ... (before i start on keeping faith, mercy and second glance - all of which i haven't touched since i bought them).. although i still have quite a few to read.. i'm still tempted to buy more! ahh love the post office and their three pack book bargains.

earlier today i went ice skating with the boyfriend. and he was the first to fall.. *points and laughs*

unfortunately for me we were both trying to skate on one leg when i stacked it... and he tried to save me, but ended up falling too... and in the end he ended up with the scratches and bleeding elbows (yes, at least when i fall, i fall smartly on my bum hehe)

so when we got back home and i was putting some bedadine or something on it, grandma walks in (she was outside hanging the clothes) and saw his scratches and starts laughing at him quite loudly. hehe.

so later in the arvo i went to the docs to get my injection for cambodia (hep A and thyphoid or something like that)

and the prick in the arm... it didn't hurt at all really...

so i was quite happy walking back home like meh that wasn't too bad

but now. now my arm is in pain. now it hurts when i move it. and it feels kinda deadish.

just then i was complaining to her that my arm hurt from the injection.. and she was like (in hokkien): at least they didn't inject it into your bum, then you wouldn't be able to sit down *laughs to herself*

oh how i love you grandma. and yes you too boyfriend, thanks taking the fall for me ;)

took grandma to see the christmas lights around the area at night... unfortunately there weren't many this year =[ mum thinks it because electricity is expensive.. or people need a break from doing it.. but yeah so dissappointing (it's something our family does every year..). there were so many houses we went to (whose address was online) and there was nothing... there isn't a good compiled list of houses (with pictures so you know which ones are good) for 2010 yet i don't think..

also did a surprise visit at the brothers house and took some photos of latte, their doggy

working tomorrow in the city, then a bbq after at mill point. hopefully my arm will survive til then.

Labels: boyfriend, christmas, family, sick

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12:02 AM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

♥ new addition to the family

I can't wait until my brother has kids.

It will be so fun!

So today I heard news of another couple who's pregnant!

ARGHHH why is everyone having babies except my bro ='[

so i come home right

and

AND.......

i am confronted by this lil thing...

okay fine. its not a baby... but it's kinda close. A PUPPYYYYYY

and he's so super cute. the latest edition to my brothers family... hehe.

NAWWWWWWWWW.

poor jacko is so jealous and scared of this lil thing. he like runss away from it with his tail between his legs. haha.

now to think of a name! any suggestions?

Labels: dog, family

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

♥ camera roll

leon's tropical 30th

the birthday boy with his fake tan

our tropical outfits (angeline went all out haha)

jeremy foo (with his new haircut) and i... i quite like this photo

TBC leavers '08 reunion

the boys playing games on nathan's new htc

dude, i love this dish... from tea cafe

inspired by the uwa science library note, i thought i'd leave this to encourage them to continue making awesomwe chilli salted deep fried squid tenticles

all gone! two large plates worth

hitting pot black (oh so asian northbridge style...)

hehe. check out that concentration on his face

so anyways, today is sunday, the first sunday of february to be exact - which in other words is vision sunday. we had community lunch together as a church, with a sausage sizzle... and whoever made that potato salad, did a really good job hey. it was nice :)

so the rest of my day has been sorta cleaning my room. still in the process of it btw. and i found this note. i don't remember why he sent it. there's no date, which is kinda sad. but all the same, it's quite cute.

also spent some time making a little collage for the family computer using photofunia and pain.. lovelove.

click to enlarge :)

thats it for now

xoxo

Labels: birthday, camera roll, family, food, leavers, party, photo, tbc

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Sunday, December 27, 2009

♥ baby boys

i want a baby boy.

zeke

they are so cute.

cayden

*sigh*daydreams*

i can't wait til i have kids..

or should i say.. i can't wait til my brother has kids (so i can give them back to their mummy when i'm tired hehe)

Labels: children, family, family friends, future

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12:42 AM

Saturday, December 26, 2009

♥ christmas day

i haven't blogged in a week... if you even count my last blog. that was more or a rant really.

well yesterday was Christmas. and I must admit. At first it didn't seem like it. I sorta kinda broke down in the middle of night because things were getting a bit too much for me. I was tired. exhausted. worn out. fustrated. annoyed. disappointed. angry. and yes you name it.

Last time i checked the time before i slept was 4:30am, and i woke up at around 10...

But the day improved along the way, except for the fact that i was starting to get a temperature and couldn't stop coughing...

Christmas Lunch: Michi, Vy and Layna were over. Three course meal.

Turkish Bread & Dips

Salmon & Cream Cheese with Asparagus Au Vents

Cherries

Entree

Mains. Chicken wrapped in Bacon with Carbonara sauce

Salad. eww......

Christmas Cake - brought by Vy (made by her boss at work)

Jelly

Carrot Cup Cakes

Family (with one missing) with Dessert Table

The missing family member was outside

Spend Christmas dinner with Josh & his family / cousins. Spent Christmas eve working, and had dinner at a family friend's house. and today i'm working... and tonight... we have another dinner.

Oh so much food!

A more thoughtful post next time~

P.S. My dad woke me up at 8:30 this morning. and i rushed to get ready thinking i had work at 8:45.. but really the shops don't open til 10, hence i didn't need to be at work til 9:45am. Man, my mum is smart. And phew i checked my diary before i left...

Labels: boyfriend, christmas, christmas trading, family, family friends, food, friends, work

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9:29 AM

Monday, December 7, 2009

♥ somanythingssolittletime

well! lots has happened these past few days.. here they are in dot points because i've gotta go to bed (work tomorrow!)

FREE - friday night!
dress buying attempt failed - missing belt!!!!!! and they wouldn't even discount it -.-"
5th december 2oo9 - i got baptised! yay!
vha summer party, was pretty good, nice to catch up with the induction guys again
last beach mission meeting - preparation is under way!
abortech christmas party - i've been going since i was born! my dad's workplace party *heart*
justin's 18th - such good chickenn wingssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!
family dinner for bro's 26th

ANYWAYS. i am SO in like with this new website i found called photofunia.

Labels: 18ths, baptism, boyfriend, church, family, friends, photo, vodafone

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11:50 PM

Sunday, October 11, 2009

♥ my sunday

disclaimer / warning: super longggg blog entry.

i kinda hoped after two days i would stop crying about it, but when i bumped into pastor at church and he asked me if i was going back to tbc ministry and also where i've been lately, and i told him how i was in ballarat and came back sick... and then i told him i didn't get into med and yes.

grace joined in after. and gave me a hug. which was good, because pastors aren't for hugging. because that's just... awkward.

Pastor told me that if i honor the things of God, that He will honor me. that's been stuck in my mind all day.
he also told me that in the future i will look back and see how things worked out and stuff

i don't know. i guess i'm a bit confused.

grace said it was okay to be angry with God. but i'm not angry (well, yet) i'm more disappointed and confused.

you see, my boyfriend, his mother, my exbf, all sorta asked if i was going to change my goals/course. josh said something like seeking what God wants in my life, if it's something other than med. but I've always believed that IS what He wants. and what I want too! And why i'm going the long way about it, I do not know why. But there's a reason i guess, i just don't know what it is.

people like my parents, my sister, jfu... were different. they already know how much i want it. and talked abt next year, or postgrad etc. they didn't question whether i was giving up because they didn't believe i would.

don't get me wrong, i still need to seek God about my future. like pastor told me, i need to rest in Him. i need to listen.

i'm continously reminded of this section in Dreaming With God (yes mic, i did read some of it!) where ... hmm, its prob best if i directly quote.

The Blank Check
As kids, many of us dreamed about being granted one wish. Solomon got the "one wish." When God appeared to Solomon and gave him that opportunity, it forever raised the bar of our expectations in prayer. The disciples were given the same "wish," only better. Instead of one blank check, they were given an unlimited supply of blank checks. And this gift was specifically granted in the context of their friendship with God.
Surrounding their promotion to friendship, Jesus gave His disciples this amazing list of promises. Each promise was a blank check they were to live by and use throughout their lives for the expansion of the Kingdom. They are as follows:
If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you (John 15 vs 7)
You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you (John 15 vs 16)
If you ask anything in My name, I will do it (John 14 vs 14)
And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full (John 16 vs 23-24)
For us to properly receive what Jesus has offered us in these verses, any robotic understanding of what it means to be a follower of God has to change. God never intended that the believer be a puppet on a string. God actually makes Himself vulnerable to the desires of His people. In fact, it can be said, "if it matters to you, it matters to Him"
While much of the Church is waiting for the next word from God, He is waiting to hear the dream of His people. He longs for us to take our role, not because He needs us, but beause He loves us.

i've always been the kinda girl who has her whole life planned out. Married at 25. First kid at 28. And hopefully another two after that, in 3 year intervals (haha, i know, i'm a freak). At the way things are looking, i won't even be graduated when i'm 25. i remember telling my lifegroup once, how it was so difficult for me, when i first found out that i didn't get into med the first time. how things weren't going the way i had planned. how much of a struggle it was to adjust and get use to the fact that things don't always go how u hoped / planned.

thats why when pastor was talking about how you can seek God for the answers for everything, except when ur asked how many kids they want, you can straight out tell you. it made me laugh, and reminds me so much of myself.

Oh yeah, i held lil zeke today! 2nd time EVER because everyone always steals him =[ and he didn't cry! ZMGSH first time he hasn't when i've held him =P. too bad i had to go cauz nat was taking me back =[ but arghhhhhh!!!!!!!! ♡♡♡ BABIESSS

On other news, i went to my bf's hse for lunch. and sigh, idk, i'm feeling more and more uncomfortable around his family. like sometimes his mum doesn't think i understand what she's saying when she speaks chinese =[ but i do get bits of it, or at least the gist of it.

so like she kept asking me try to chilli and i kept saying that i was fine. she knows i can't take chilli. and she was like 'it's not hot blahblah'... and then i think josh told her to stop asking or something (in chinese) and she was like saying back to him (in chinese) something like ~ what? so she's not going to eat it for the rest of her life?.................

and then she found out i couldn't swim and told me to go join adult vacswim classes (like actually told me in english!) .........................

she even told josh (in chinese) i eat like a kid because my plate was so 'far away' from me.................

she makes me feel really stupid.

maybe she's trying to joke half the time, but okay, i get it, i suck, and ur son is awesome, because i can't speak chinese, eat chilli / hot stuff, play an instrument / piano, can't swim, and i can't get into med... and he can do all those things and more.... -.-"

sigh, i am tryingggggggggggg to give her a break. josh always tells me to not let me preconcieved ideas affect how i see her. but you know, its pretty difficult... i don't really agree with a lot of her ideas on education and stuff. but yeah i don't say anything, of course. but i fear conflict when we get married and have kids.

it's okay. mother in laws are meant to be difficult right? but she's not even my mother in law yet!

ahh, the difficulties of dating the first born son of an asian family. i think i shall just avoid his parents for a while. because tbh, it just makes me feel inadequate and fustrated =[

Went for familyy dinner tonight. Peking duck (yum!) + Fried squid tenticles + Seafood Ho Fun with Egg Sauce.

I think my sister is feeling slightly guilty because this morning she found out i broke the glass cup in the bathroom and told me how she wouldn't trust me with her things let alone someone's life as a doctor. And i was like "well it doesn't matter because i didn't get in anyways" and she was something like "yeah but you break everything" and i was like "well i've still got a while to learn to be more careful" then 5 minutes later she was like "oh did you mean you didn't get in for next year?!" and i was like "yeahhh". ahaha, so in the car she was talking to me about it and at dinner she said she wants to take me to some new tea place she found to 'cheer me up'.

I forgot to take my breakfast this morning. Yes, my mum makes me breakfast (even on sundays) and leaves them in the oven. Must be more aware and remember to take it, because she puts in the effort every morning =[. sometimes i don't even eat the lunch she makes =[, and she wakes up early to make it. sigh. i'm so bad.

i love my family.

i love my friends.

i love my boyfriend.

i love God!

Labels: boyfriend, breakfast, family, future, God, life, marriage, medicine, parents, sister, sunday sermon

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11:03 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

♥ merging circles

i'm a pretty friendly person, and i don't find it all too difficult to strike a conversation with a friend of a friend, or even a total stranger.

this ability has allowed me to throw myself in a room of people i have never met before, and come out with some new friends.

it's a blessing and definitely something that works well being on the welcome team.

we all have circles of friends.
sometimes it tears me in two when there are fall outs within friendship circles. it is difficult, obviously, when your friends don't get along.

it becomes even more increasingly difficult when you begin to mix different groups.
sure, some are very comfortable where they are, and don't want to move out of their own circle. and that's cool. neutral is okay, as long as there's no tension between groups i reckon.

my boyfriend is a big part of my life. but so are my family and friends.

i'm glad he gets along with my family. he still needs to work on the hugging my mum thing though, he's really awkward about it...... anddd he thinks my dad's jokes are lame, but hey, doesn't everyone?! and yes, he doesn't really talk to my sister, and lets keep it that way.

i get along with most of his friends. and i guess its pretty easy to strike a conversation with them.

but i find that he's not so good with my friends. i agree that they don't really know him. but i guess he's just not very good with first impressions. hah, even i didn't have very nice first impressions of him either.

i've realized though, that just because i'm like this, that i should not expect him to be like that too.

but one day, sigh, maybe i won't have to live such a double life. and merging those two circles won't be such an issue anymore.

but in the meantime, it's just baby steps. very. slow. baby steps.
hopefully forward ones too.

anyways on another note. i find it very difficult to say sorry =[ it isn't easy. esp when i think i'm right abt the issue, it still doesn't justify my actions a lot of the time. i'm learning to say it. i'm learning to realize. but i'm still never the first one to do so ^^"

Labels: boyfriend, church, emotions, family, friends, sorry

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