Sunday, September 6, 2009
♥ random thoughts
- i don't like it when he wants me to look a certain way. i've accepted the way he dresses, and he should do the same for me. plus i dont even think i'm that bad =(
- i don't like it when he watches movies until late at night, and i end up staying up just waiting for him, then end up sleeping really late.
- it makes me cry when i hear the pastor telling the their fathers to use the oil to annoint their children tonight... knowing that my father won't be doing that for me.
- but i can pray that one day he will... and that my future husband will walk in the truth of God's love and grace... alongside me.
- i wish i was stronger.
- today i was challenged to pray for my sister, not just by myself, but actually pray over her, with her. the difficulty of that is very great. for those who know how much my sister and i get along. my faith will be tested.
- it feels good when he actually acknowledges how i look. it shows he takes notice.
- he messaged my dad happy fathers day via sms...... before i even woke up and had the chance to say it to him first.
- i am blessed to have a mother, who despite her circumstances, remains full of faith and love.
- mum annointed us with the oil after lunch.
- she's also told me she was going to do it again tonight for my sister and her ear infection. i think God knew i was scared/nervous >.<>
- today i also shook my bf's parents hands. when i think abt it, its kinda weird. i shake hands with official people at competitions and stuff. not really my friends parents, let alone my bf's parents. i like how i make him hug my mum when she gives him stuff. my mum's a kinda huggy person, or has become so over the past few yrs, it makes our family more closer i reckon. will have to say something when she gives him the chinese chess set, so that they hug again. hehe.
- i am still deciding if i should alter all my jeans. i think so far, definitely my flares, bootleg and those pair of wide pants (because u can't really wear them otherwise). but for the skinnys....... they're just going to remain inside my boots, and for my straights, i want to be able to wear them with both heels and flats... hence shortening them would still mean i would have to fold them in/up for flats.
- i washed the dishes. and am in the process of taking in my clothes. geez i am being a good daughter today, better appreciate it while it lasts mum/dad!
- gonna get into some chemistry today. had lots of fun the past two days. but its time to hit the books. chem midsem in a week!
- not having my dad going to church, really makes me want a husband who i know won't go down that path. but then again, i'm sure my mother didn't foresee it when she was getting married.
- i need to start praying for him more consistently.
Labels: boyfriend, church, exams, faith, father's day, future, God, grace, love, parents, prayer, uni
12:35 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
♥ from Him to You.
Dear Child,
You may not know me, but I know everything about you (Psalm 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered (Matthew 10:29-31)
For you were made in my image (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being (Acts 17:28)
For you are my offspring (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived (Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation (Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book (Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me (John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love (1 John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you (1 Josh 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father (1 John 3:1)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs (Matthew 6:31-33)
Because I love you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore (Psalm 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul (Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things (Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me (Deuteronomy 4:29)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are broken hearted, I am close to you (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes (Revelation 21:3-4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth (Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus (John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed (John 17:26)
He is the exact representation of my being (Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you (Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you (1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again (Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen (Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father (Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is, Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you (Luke 15:11-32)
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
You may not know me, but I know everything about you (Psalm 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered (Matthew 10:29-31)
For you were made in my image (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being (Acts 17:28)
For you are my offspring (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived (Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation (Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book (Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me (John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love (1 John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you (1 Josh 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father (1 John 3:1)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect father (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs (Matthew 6:31-33)
Because I love you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore (Psalm 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul (Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things (Jeremiah 33:3)
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me (Deuteronomy 4:29)
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
When you are broken hearted, I am close to you (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes (Revelation 21:3-4)
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth (Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus (John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed (John 17:26)
He is the exact representation of my being (Hebrews 1:3)
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you (Romans 8:31)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you (1 John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me (1 John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again (Romans 8:38-39)
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen (Luke 15:7)
I have always been Father, and will always be Father (Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is, Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you (Luke 15:11-32)
Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God
1:30 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
♥ never give up
there was a phrase that me and nathan used during year 12, and it was to never give up
it came from a hillsong kids song... that was sometimes used at kidsaflame.
unfortunately i don't think i kept to it.
well "technically" i did. because i didn't completely give up.
but a part of me still did, in more aspects of my life, than just year 12.
so yes, after my umat score came out, my heart sank! and i knew i had no chance. i didn't give up on tee, but sure, it did have it's toll in my motivation.
when a mate is going through a hard time, and i've continously pounded him with my worriedness, and nothing changes... and rather he pushes me away. i give up. not completely, but a part of me has.
i think in some aspects of my prayer life, i gave up after a while. i think with some issues i don't even pray about it...concluding that in some cases that it was impossible, or it would never happen. ahh, such lil faith huh? it is possible. i need to believe, have faith and know that God hears me.
i think i've become so content with how my life is, and i learn to deal with things that happen. maybe even make excuses when things don't go the way i planned. when rather i should be striving and yearning for better things... praying for change.
change in all aspects. change in every aspect. not just praying for myself, but for others too.
so i was flicking through some non standard entry information for medicine. and minimum of gpa is 5.5, but as my boyfriends mother said (as she and her husband grilled me in the car today) i must aim higher, and not for the "benchmark", umat score included.
i want to walk out of that umat exam, and know that i did the best that i could. i want to finish this year of science, with grades and marks that i am happy with - not just content, but happy.
i want my relationship to be covered in grace and filled with love. i want my friends to realize how much God loves them, and forgives them, and opens His arms wide open, waiting for them to start running after Him. i want my family to grow stronger together, to be a family that reflects the qualities of Christ, especially God's love.
I'm going to start setting more time aside for prayer. I'm going to change this mindset of giving up.
Great things are going to happen, because prayer is so powerful.
oh God, all of me. covered in You.
you better watch out guys! because i'll be praying for YOU~
Labels: church, faith, family, friends, God, grace, prayer, relationships
5:24 PM
Friday, April 24, 2009
♥ God is Good. All the time!
mmm haven't blogged in a while. there's much to fill u all in with.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=44891
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
Labels: 18ths, abortion, birthday, boyfriend, church, faith, God, grace, life, makepovertyhistory, salvation
10:49 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
♥ You of little faith, why did you doubt?
Matthew 14
i think in some ways i'm like peter.
i see the wonderful things God does in my life, i see how he carries me through every situation...
and u know... i walk on water...
but then i start to see the world through my eyes.
i start to see "reality"... then i start to lack faith. i dont know i can handle it. i think its too much.
and i begin to sink into the water.
I always ask God to help mee... I always ask Him where He is...
but it's not that God isn't there for me.
but rather, i am somewhat lacking in faith.
I focus on the wrong things... I doubt.
I need to change my perspective, because i'm continuously sinking whenever i'm stressed out and overloaded.
Changed.
Faith.
Life.
25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.
27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."
28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29"Come," he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."
i think in some ways i'm like peter.
i see the wonderful things God does in my life, i see how he carries me through every situation...
and u know... i walk on water...
but then i start to see the world through my eyes.
i start to see "reality"... then i start to lack faith. i dont know i can handle it. i think its too much.
and i begin to sink into the water.
I always ask God to help mee... I always ask Him where He is...
but it's not that God isn't there for me.
but rather, i am somewhat lacking in faith.
I focus on the wrong things... I doubt.
I need to change my perspective, because i'm continuously sinking whenever i'm stressed out and overloaded.
Changed.
Faith.
Life.
4:02 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
♥ let go, let God...
You know when there are times... you look back at your life... and you see how fortunate you've been. how blessed you are. how silly you were to have worried at all those times, without realizing that God would always pull you through.
And you think to yourself... wow, life has been so good to you - God has been so good to you.
Then sometimes happens, to ruin your outlook. A trigger... that hits you back to reality.
The reality of assignments - and the lack of time...
The reality of friendships - and the fights or arguements...
The reality of relationships - and if they're going in the right direction...
The reality of the future - and if you're doing what you should, in order to get where you want.
And you fall back into this hole... where you know you'll eventually get out of it... but at this very moment, it doesn't feel like it. you want OUT now! but you dont end up getting what u want.
It's okay. I know later in life, I will look back, and I will see how God carried me through... like He does everytime.
I need to let go, and let God.
I need to begin to stress less... to understand that I do not do this on my own ability. But I have God. Every step of the way.
When i begin to look at my life, and see these assignments, tests and friendships... I begin to worry. stress. freak out. because I can't handle this on my own. I don't have the ability to get through this alone.
And it's awesome. because I'm not alone.
but at this very moment. i don't feel very awesome. help me God!
And you think to yourself... wow, life has been so good to you - God has been so good to you.
Then sometimes happens, to ruin your outlook. A trigger... that hits you back to reality.
The reality of assignments - and the lack of time...
The reality of friendships - and the fights or arguements...
The reality of relationships - and if they're going in the right direction...
The reality of the future - and if you're doing what you should, in order to get where you want.
And you fall back into this hole... where you know you'll eventually get out of it... but at this very moment, it doesn't feel like it. you want OUT now! but you dont end up getting what u want.
It's okay. I know later in life, I will look back, and I will see how God carried me through... like He does everytime.
I need to let go, and let God.
I need to begin to stress less... to understand that I do not do this on my own ability. But I have God. Every step of the way.
When i begin to look at my life, and see these assignments, tests and friendships... I begin to worry. stress. freak out. because I can't handle this on my own. I don't have the ability to get through this alone.
And it's awesome. because I'm not alone.
but at this very moment. i don't feel very awesome. help me God!
Labels: assignments, faith, God, life, lifegroup, overload, stress, uni
12:17 AM
Monday, April 6, 2009
♥ dear God
dear God.
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
i thank you for Your unfailing love. Your grace. Your word. Your truth. and Your promises.
i thank you that no matter what we're going through, that we can always look to You for help.
thank you for being our source of love. guidance. wisdom and direction.
that no matter how much our boats may rock, Your hand is upon it... always. that the boat may rock and rock... but it will never topple.
that when things seem to break down. when things seem to not go the right way. and things just go wrong. that You've always got our backs. You've always got us in Your hands.
that You have a mission for us. a purpose. a destiny.
that our lives are not pointless, but in fact, filled with purpose, handcrafted individually - each and every one of us.
God, i pray that we seek You in all situations. Whether they be good. or whether they are bad. That we seek your guidance.
I pray that we live lives according to Your will and purpose... that we live lives that are pleasing to You.
And that we have willing hearts to be corrected when we are on the wrong track.
Yay, ur awesome God.
amen!~
10:12 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
♥ i am not ashamed.
you are the reason i am who i am today...
you are the reason i won this quest...
i love you deeply.
so... why am i hesitant about thanking you in front of a large group of people?
i am not shy about my faith.
it is who i am.
then why am i making excuses?
forgive me...
you are the reason i won this quest...
i love you deeply.
so... why am i hesitant about thanking you in front of a large group of people?
i am not shy about my faith.
it is who i am.
then why am i making excuses?
forgive me...
5:12 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
♥ hope in the midst of darkness
when it gets to the point where i actually have to write a note (and stick it on my standby screen) that says "cut nails"...
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
7:42 PM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
♥ a prayer
Father,
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
Thank you for Your love for me that knows no limits
because of the grace that is found in Jesus.
I am perfected in Christ and my mind and body are made new.
Help me to understand who Jesus is and what it means to be Your child.
Today, I am blessed and the favour of God is my life.
Let me be a shining light for You.
Amen
2:48 PM
♥ sunday: faith. grace. love.
Ephesians 2:8 (NIV)
For it is by grace you have been saved,
through faith—and this not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God
through faith—and this not from yourselves,
it is the gift of God
Today daryl was the speaker for our youth service... and i picked up quite a bit
which i will write down, so i dont forget =]
so he was continuing his series, on not only grace, but faith...
He mentioned that we can never fall out of the favour of our King...
and that everytime God looks at us, he smiles... he is pleased with us...
Because we are in Christ. When he looks at us, he sees Jesus.
Isnt that awesome? I think sometimes we feel unworthy of God's love... like we feel that we're not good enough! Maybe its guilt? I guess sometimes we do thingss we regret, we know is wrong.. and we just feel so bad after... so unworthy... but how awesome is our God... His love... is just so awesome.
OOOoohHh.. this reminds me of one of my favourite songs!
All For Love - Hillsong
All for love the Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified
Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me
Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You
Let me sing all for love
I will join the angels song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to Youhehe anyways.. another thing daryl said was that faith is simply trusting God will do what He says He'll do....
i have such an awesome father in heaven... why do i stress so much? why do i always freak out and worry.
i know He has a plan for me!! plans to prosper me =) and not harm mee... plans to give me hope and a future...
i believe it.
Romans 1:17 (NIV)
17For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed,
a righteousness that is by faith from first to last,
just as it is written: "The righteous will live by faith."
Labels: faith, grace, message, sunday sermon, youth service
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