Monday, October 31, 2011
♥ hello
why hello blog,
it's been a while. roughly a month. i've been a bit lazy - my bad.
EXAMS
exams in two weeks! i know it's going to be okay - birds in the air right?
but there are times where i still have little freak out sessions.
CHURCH
the whole lifegroup transitioning into a ministry has turned out really well so far.
we have a good group of guys/girls and i was so happy with the pilot run. and just the atmosphere and friendships that are growing, it's really cool to see.
and i love it! there are ups and downs to leadership but i think seeing people grow is definitely one of the biggest highlights so far.
balancing commitments with uni and life, is really not that bad, but because of my (lack of) time management skills, there are times where i'm a bit =/ but it's been pretty good so far.
FRIENDS
i should be making more friends in med. but idk, it takes effort and time... and it's hard to put that in, esp when you lack that sort of flow where you just get along instantly. yeah and i'm finding i just don't gel as well with some of them. like you have 'friends' and you have actual 'friends'. people change too, and friendships change with it.
and i'm pretty happy with the two 'everyday convo' friends i've made this year. as in like we pretty much talk everyday, online. but it's not like time consuming or requires lots of effort. it's just smooooth. easy. they don't get offended easily, they are pretty easy going... and when it comes to events and stuff, they actually turn up. they remind me when quizzes are due, and they help answer my questions, and they give me their honest opinion on things i ask them about.
i don't know, kinda reminds me of my friendship with L. very easy going. if we don't talk or see each other for a while, it's okay / fine / normal. but we're still always there for each other to vent or rant on skype. and i think another important thing, I've also found with people like C is, we're comfortable with silence.
yup. been hanging with both church, work and high school friends a bit more. and it's been good. like i'm starting to see how different all my friendships are - like they're all unique and different.
HOLIDAYS
so i'll be heading to china this coming summer (their winter) and then thailand and probably vietnam in the coming year. quite exciting. however this requires money. which i have. but was meant to go towards my car. HMM. oh well.
grandma is coming too... yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy for hugs and good food. should probably work more on my hokkien.
anyways, that's it for now... got to get back to study, i have made a strict study schedule.
it's been a while. roughly a month. i've been a bit lazy - my bad.
EXAMS
exams in two weeks! i know it's going to be okay - birds in the air right?
but there are times where i still have little freak out sessions.
CHURCH
the whole lifegroup transitioning into a ministry has turned out really well so far.
we have a good group of guys/girls and i was so happy with the pilot run. and just the atmosphere and friendships that are growing, it's really cool to see.
and i love it! there are ups and downs to leadership but i think seeing people grow is definitely one of the biggest highlights so far.
balancing commitments with uni and life, is really not that bad, but because of my (lack of) time management skills, there are times where i'm a bit =/ but it's been pretty good so far.
FRIENDS
i should be making more friends in med. but idk, it takes effort and time... and it's hard to put that in, esp when you lack that sort of flow where you just get along instantly. yeah and i'm finding i just don't gel as well with some of them. like you have 'friends' and you have actual 'friends'. people change too, and friendships change with it.
and i'm pretty happy with the two 'everyday convo' friends i've made this year. as in like we pretty much talk everyday, online. but it's not like time consuming or requires lots of effort. it's just smooooth. easy. they don't get offended easily, they are pretty easy going... and when it comes to events and stuff, they actually turn up. they remind me when quizzes are due, and they help answer my questions, and they give me their honest opinion on things i ask them about.
i don't know, kinda reminds me of my friendship with L. very easy going. if we don't talk or see each other for a while, it's okay / fine / normal. but we're still always there for each other to vent or rant on skype. and i think another important thing, I've also found with people like C is, we're comfortable with silence.
yup. been hanging with both church, work and high school friends a bit more. and it's been good. like i'm starting to see how different all my friendships are - like they're all unique and different.
HOLIDAYS
so i'll be heading to china this coming summer (their winter) and then thailand and probably vietnam in the coming year. quite exciting. however this requires money. which i have. but was meant to go towards my car. HMM. oh well.
grandma is coming too... yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy for hugs and good food. should probably work more on my hokkien.
anyways, that's it for now... got to get back to study, i have made a strict study schedule.
Labels: church, exams, friends, medicine, summer holidays
9:49 PM
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
♥ I'm Held By Your Love
I love this song
The worship team played it on Sunday. And I think it's such an amazing song.
Two exam downs, two to go.
The two 'harder' ones are out of the way. And surprisingly, this exam period, as I mentioned in my previous post, I'm not crazily stressing out.
Resting is something that I'm starting to get a hold of. And that doesn't mean not studying. But it means being rest assured, knowing that God's grace covers me in every situation.
There are lots of things I've been learning lately. Sometimes I know it, but its hard to put into action.
I've realized that sometimes I can be a really terrible girlfriend. I am quick to anger. I get moody, grumpy and annoyed easily, and way too often. The words I speak are harsh, blunt and unloving. This is something I want to change. But not by human effort to just stop, because I can try to do it myself, but I will fail. But I guess it starts with a changing of the mind. It's about letting God's love be so real in my life, that it will just flow in and through me. That I'll grow to have a greater understanding of the comfort and assurance that comes from knowing God's love. And the words that come out of my mouth... will be words of love, encouragement and hope. That my mood will be joyful and my actions gentle.
P.S. I read the most beautiful facebook note today. It was an engagement promise. Read it here, it's really amazing *CLICK HERE*.
P.P.S. Earlier in the week I watched a hilarious / crazy marriage proposal / wedding video. It actually made me cry. I am not joking. You can also watch that here *CLICK HERE*.
P.P.P.S. Dearest J. Just so you know, expectations for the proposal / engagement / wedding have lifted. Love, D.
11:23 PM
Sunday, June 5, 2011
♥ life is good
it's funny, because when i blog i am usually stressed. annoyed. angry. frustrated.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
1:55 PM
Friday, November 19, 2010
♥ exams are over
exams are over, but i'm so disappointed...
i totally had myself set up for a hd for stats... until that exam.
i literally skipped like a quarter of the exam, time was just so tight, gah it was so rushed already, and i still couldn't finish it.
so devo.
i know that it's over. i know i can't do anything about it now.
but it's still disappointing. so disappointing.
5:48 PM
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
♥ lab report
pretty devo about my lab report mark...
i was really debating whether i was appeal for a remark..
i just sent an email to the unit coordinator... so yeah see how that goes
*sigh*
one last exam tomorrow...
Labels: assignments, exams, psyc, uni
7:30 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2010
♥ taking grandma to the beach
three exams down, one to go...!
finish on thursday.
today after my management exam my sister and i took my grandma to the beach..
got some pretty cool shots =)
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| HARLLOO |
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| it's a bird, it's a plane, it's .... |
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| cause i'm cool like that bro :) |
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| i'll have this one.. and this one.. and this one too! |
my grandma reallly likes gelato. she had to taste test like three before we found one she wouldn't cringe at haha
ahh, can't wait til exams are over!
10:35 PM
Thursday, November 11, 2010
♥ three hours
three hours until possibly the worse exam i've had... although i haven't had it yet, i do know its going to be bad.
i've never felt this unprepared.
this unit is just insane. i think everyone is freaking out.
sigh.
10:58 AM
Friday, June 18, 2010
♥ exams = over
EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRR BABYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sigh. now just umat in a month...
11:40 PM
Monday, June 7, 2010
♥ 2 down, 2 to go
this semester i don't seem as stressed as i was last semester.
i did have one day where i felt uber stressed out during study break. but after chris prayed for me everything suddenly didn't seem so overwhelming.
so i've had two exams so far, and they've been okay, not great or super awesome but just okay. hopefully enough.
i sorta had this goal this semester to get straight hds. after all i did pick units that i was good at.
what i forgot though, was despite picking maths units (and thinking that i'm good at maths)
there are super nerds who also love maths and is in my unit. So considering my class has like 20/30 people in it. Scaling is going to whoop me.
But, must stop self handicapping myself and making excuses.
It's possible. Lets just hope I can do it.
I've been quite happy with my marks so far this semester.. it's just these exams... RAWR>>
So i've got a week until my next exam, which will allow for a little bit of rest and some good preparation!
3:48 PM
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
♥ exams
so exams are drawing near...
my first being 2212 (social psychology) on saturday... THIS saturday........
and seriously, i don't know how to study for my 2212 exam! all i can do is go through the chapters... and try to remember everything. but cummon man........ completely short answer?!?and 12 of them!?! what happened to good old first year psychology where it was 125 multiple choice??!! sigh, i misss MCQ!
8:36 PM
Sunday, May 2, 2010
♥ uni.. GAHHH
for the next three weeks:
maths assignment (10%), stat test (10%), psyc lab report (20%), psyc quiz (10%), stat assignment (10%)...
then two weeks later, exams! hooray..................................................
edit:
+ one more psyc assignment (20%)
then exams
then the umat
then semester 2
oh the joys of life.
edit:
+ one more psyc assignment (20%)
then exams
then the umat
then semester 2
oh the joys of life.
Labels: assignments, exams, tests, uni
9:17 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
♥ the joy! <3
FINISHED EXAMS!!!!
WOOOOT!
stats was so so... =/... it was like 30% theory which is my epic downfall. so not very happy about that. not sure if i can scrape a hd for it, but i hope so >.<
soon i will be compiling a list of things i plan to accomplish over the next three months...
but in the meantime it's time to RELAX.
and fill out my vodafone contract (must stop spelling it as vodaphone) which i received in the mail today =D... (just in time too, i was going to call them tomorrow because i hadn't heard from them!)
DRIVING TEST tomorrow... EEEEKKKK!
P.S. Went to Retro Bettys in leedy today for dinner with my sister in 'celebration' of end of exams (for me... she still has one to go. actually she only has one exam altogether!) Her treat! =D
and yes :) not bad at all! i quite liked it. i got a bistro burger with egg :) we also had wedges and salad for sides.
Holidays, here i come :)!
8:23 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
♥ four down, one to go
statistics
four down, one to go...
well, chemistry was kinda painful.
i mean yes. i was on 6 hours sleep, half a sandwich, a can of V... but still, the actually paper got me stumped quite a few times =[
will need to see a doctor about this vomiting thing. today was actually quite bad. and before u all freak out and think i'm bohlemic, it's actually just stomach acid or something... so i'm thinking it's like... an acid reflux problem. but will find out after exams...
AND ZMGSH. my chemistry book (which i only used for one semester) and bought nice and new from the coop shop is RUINED. i dried my flower petals in it.... (using baking paper as a sheet) and that worked perfectly fine for my tulips.. but NOOO not for the orchips. it had to go all yuck and seep through the paper. GAHHHHHHHH *fustration*........... now the back pages are stained..... T__T...
oh another note. i donated money and got a poppy flower from this nice old man outside the bus station.
it reminded me very much of the poppies i took a photo of, while on YOTY tour... in canberra, at the memorial place...
i didn't know which name to look for. so i just looked for the ones closest to my last name.
pretty huh? the poppy i got today looks just like that one.
alternatively, if you don't end up passing by someone selling them... you can download one as paying your tribute. techy much?
old people are kinda cute hey :)
Labels: chemistry, elderly, exams, flowers, health, sleep, V, yoty tour
1:19 AM
Friday, November 6, 2009
♥ post #300
it's one of those nights. the ones where i don't feel like sleeping... or rather... can't fall asleep (and yes i've tried already).
weird, considering i got less than five hours last night, so i should be ready to konk... unfortunately this is not the case.
i wish i could escape reality for a while. the reality of... my exams. the expectations that my parents have for me, or rather, the expectations i have for myself. the numerous types of chemical reactions - gignard, williamson, fischer. the night time conversation with an indifferent boyfriend. the broken shoulder bag. the annoying flies during the day. the many unanswered questions for my future.
i want to sit on the beach. and watch the sunset. without stress, worry or concern. with freedom, peace and love.
maybe i'll go do that next week.
Labels: beach, boyfriend, chemistry, exams, future, life, sleep, stress, study
1:13 AM
Thursday, November 5, 2009
♥ God loves his daughters
THREE down, two to go...
hbio was okay.. could have been better. i don't think i did as well as i needed to do... but it was alright.
chemistry is tomorrow. and to be honest that is the most feared one *burn burn burn*
anyways. dropped by the chinese shop today and picked up some study snacks :)
i think it was ry or her mum who showed me you could get seaweed crackers from the chinese shop.. LOVE. i first tried them when miyako's mum sent us some from japan!!!
hawflakes. always been a fav since childhood.
anyways. nathan from sma gave me two books today. i exchanged it for my Dreaming With God book (which i still haven't finished reading, but plan on borrowing from someone from church *cough* so i can these holidays...) so he could read it.
these are the two books he gave me.
and well, you see.. during sma we (or should i say i) got into a heated debate on the topic of women. women's role in the church. women's role in a marriage...
and not to say i'm a feminist (even though some people think so) but i really disagreed with much of what he had to say. after discussing such issues with my pastor and some of the female leaders in my church who gave me a better understanding of the context and their intepretations of the passages... i so totally agree with them, and not nathan, and i still stand by my view of women's roles in both the church and in a marriage...
but you know. i must be more... open. you see when i first heard all these things that nathan was saying, it got me really angry. like how can people STILL think like that in today's society?! women have rights too! God loves females as much as He loves males!
But yes. Even though i think i'm right, it needs to be assessed on a more objective level. And i must not be so one sided or else everything i look at will support my hypothesis - confirmation bias.
anyways. first impressions of this book. i'm a bit iffy about them. just by the TITLES and the COVER. but yes. must not judge a book by it's cover. and will get into them once exams are over. and attempt to look at it objectively.
anyways. here are the major points that nathan and bev brought up from their intepretation of the passages... which i disagree with and will examine in context with the help of my pastor, leaders and of course, God.
* note: the following statements might get you angry. because they got me angry. but yes... i will be coming back at a later date (after some epic research and lotsa prayer) to shed some light on what i think is actually the right intepretation.. because i really don't think they've got it right =/ *
- women should not have authority over men in the church. includes pastoring, leadership etc.
- women are more succeptible to sin
- women are the spiritually weaker partner in a relationship
- some people are pre-destined to hell
- you can't change God's will
- the theory of Kelvinism
- that verse that talks about "submission"
okay, that's it for now.
it's time for home and away... :)
6:59 PM
♥ 4 hrs til hbio
four hours until hbio exam.
currently surviving on less than 5 hours sleep.
could do with an energy drink right about now... ... ...
10:02 AM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
♥ sleeping patterns
i will admit i have sleeping problems lately.
but i don't have a sleeping disorder -.-" like my boyfriend thinks. he literally listed and described all these different types of insomnia......
[12:27:06 PM] bub : if you want to be a medical practitiioner, i think you shoud be ready to consider you as the patient too
hmfph. this is what you have to put up with when you're dating a to-be-doctor
so this is what's going on.
sometimes there are nights where i don't completely fall asleep. i feel like i am consciously awake the whole night. my mind is still working, like i'm thinking the whole night. rolling aroundin bed. and you know when you wake up from sleep? you know u've actually waken up. yeah that doesn't happen to me on those nights. i never actually wake up, because i never really actually fall asleep.
sometimes i don't fall asleep until really late. say 3:30am + . which was what happened again last night. but i'm trying to take into account that i woke up at 12noon the day before hence.. if i slept at 12 midnight i would have only been awake for 12 hours. and usually ur wake for 16 (asleep for 8). plus all i did was study, so it's not like my body was tired, probably why i couldn't sleep until after 3 i should think!
anyways whatever's going on. considering i spend 3 hours at night TRYING to fall asleep. instead of waking up 3 hours earlier and actually being able to study. i think i shall just stay up studying until i'm tired and it's late.
anyways. that is all. must STUDYYYYYY. exams over monday, so not long to go.. and it's all afternoon exams which is good :)
1:04 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
♥ tim tam white
i've got a throbbing headache. was bad today. took a 3/4hr nap. when i should have been studying. told myself i'd stay up to study.. but i am like zZz........ and this headache isn't helping.
been eating these too.
it's a tad weird i think. i much prefer mint slices. must get some for this exam period mmm.
i wish i took the time to learn all the reactions in chemistry. rather than "cramming". haha. i am like the complete opposite to josh. who's advice is to not cram........ dude :) i've been cramming since forever. and even though i tell myself that next time i won't..... it just happens... o_O must work on that.
wonder if vodaphone will call me tomorrow :)
prayed for his exam today :) i'm starting to see such a refreshed guy. reminds me of the reasons i fell in love with him.
Labels: boyfriend, exams, food, health, sleep, study, vodafone
12:19 AM
Sunday, November 1, 2009
♥ whiteboard notes :)
before hbio exam
after human exam
before psyc exam
and now it's time for chemistry....
4:57 PM
Saturday, October 31, 2009
♥ two down, three to go
hbio theory
chemistry
statistics
it was alright, can't believe i forgot the footindoor/doorinface techniques T.T even after gabriel tested me on it only a few days ago.. GAH!
but 125 MCQ, can't really go wrong with that.
hoping i can pull off a 77 for that exam and scrape a hd... to make up for hbio/chemistry which will pull me down >.<
oh dear. hbio theory on thurs. chemistry on friday. hbio being the "new" subject, and chemistry being the "difficult" subject... and they just had to be next to each other =[
this morning, before my psyc exam, i sat at my favourite spot, and had some lemon V to wake me up :)
anyways... must also work on being less cold... and less awkward... and more 'normal'... but it's hard okay =[..
edit @ 8:04pm: i am going crazy. there is only so much i can take. how will i survive the next five weeks? it feels so lonely... so weird. like such a big part of me is missing. i sound stupid. i know. but i don't care. it's so hard...
edit @ 8:04pm: i am going crazy. there is only so much i can take. how will i survive the next five weeks? it feels so lonely... so weird. like such a big part of me is missing. i sound stupid. i know. but i don't care. it's so hard...
6:57 PM
