Sunday, June 5, 2011
♥ life is good
it's funny, because when i blog i am usually stressed. annoyed. angry. frustrated.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
but life is good. and i am blessed.
exams are a week away. and i rest.
last week i was slightly concerned about taking leave for the thailand mission trip in jan. after nearly losing my job last year because of my cambo vwap... but i told myself i was going to go anyways, even if i lost my job. and my leave was approved! hallelujah (:
three units, four exams. and i'm not freaking out. i'm not stressed. and that's not because i'm prepared - because i am far from prepared, i haven't done past papers, practice questions, haven't finished writing/reading notes, and haven't even learnt all the unit's content yet.
but i rest. i rest knowing that God could get me into medicine, and He can surely get me through it.
His grace is more than sufficient.
1:55 PM
Monday, August 30, 2010
♥ stressed.
stressed.
a lot.
it feels like i can
i can i can i can i can i can i can i can.
Labels: stress
11:52 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
♥ busybee
RAHHHHHHHHHHH
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
things are busy! and has been for the past week or so.. and is getting busier by the look of things...
now that i've decided to take up KAIROS, that means wednesday nights are gone. tutoring tuesday night, work on thursday nights. lifegroup on friday nights. monday is usually my chill night with criminal minds (however this coming week i'm visiting a lions club)... and that leaves, well, the weekend!
in a way, i'm kinda glad i'm not working as much as i use to now...
assignments are coming soon SIGH. and i'm already behind in keeping textbook notes and readings!
:(
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
things are busy! and has been for the past week or so.. and is getting busier by the look of things...
now that i've decided to take up KAIROS, that means wednesday nights are gone. tutoring tuesday night, work on thursday nights. lifegroup on friday nights. monday is usually my chill night with criminal minds (however this coming week i'm visiting a lions club)... and that leaves, well, the weekend!
in a way, i'm kinda glad i'm not working as much as i use to now...
assignments are coming soon SIGH. and i'm already behind in keeping textbook notes and readings!
:(
11:14 AM
Monday, June 7, 2010
♥ 2 down, 2 to go
this semester i don't seem as stressed as i was last semester.
i did have one day where i felt uber stressed out during study break. but after chris prayed for me everything suddenly didn't seem so overwhelming.
so i've had two exams so far, and they've been okay, not great or super awesome but just okay. hopefully enough.
i sorta had this goal this semester to get straight hds. after all i did pick units that i was good at.
what i forgot though, was despite picking maths units (and thinking that i'm good at maths)
there are super nerds who also love maths and is in my unit. So considering my class has like 20/30 people in it. Scaling is going to whoop me.
But, must stop self handicapping myself and making excuses.
It's possible. Lets just hope I can do it.
I've been quite happy with my marks so far this semester.. it's just these exams... RAWR>>
So i've got a week until my next exam, which will allow for a little bit of rest and some good preparation!
3:48 PM
Friday, February 12, 2010
♥ sleepless
it's now 6:15am... and i've been awake since 4:30am.
i'm usually a decent sleeper. at least i like to think so. not as good as josh though, he pretty much konks out (even when on the phone with me!)
i blame this time partly to the fact that i slept in til like noon yesterday... but josh seems to think i have sleeping issues and wants me to see a doctor..... zzzzzzzz this is what happens when you date a budding doctor, they make a big deal out of not so big things... haha
but anyways, i know i am stressed. when i told vodafone my 'availability' i was not expecting them to roster me EVERY SINGLE AVAILABLE DAY. so now i get no rest. not happy jan.
i'm hoping that my hours will ease up once we get a new assistant store manager. esp because my manager at reddot is going away for a month and need me to cover here and there.. i can see all my study time being chomped on at the moment.... zzzzz
i think i shall socially exclude myself for the next few days, to get some rest. and try to get my hours cut at vf. hopefully they dont even need me, but just stuck me there to give me more hours (but really, i don't want more hours zzz)
anyways. adding to the collection, in time for vallies day... haven't done so for a while!
her name is Adidas Kundo I, size 3 US.
cute huh?
yes, it was time for another girl shoe, the ratio between boy : girl was quite uneven. it was also time for a size other than a 2 US (which seems to also have an uneven ratio to all the other sizes put together)
anyways. now it's 7am. work in 1hr 45min. oh the joys of life.
Labels: baby shoes, boyfriend, busy, reddot, sleep, stress, vodafone, work
6:59 AM
Friday, November 6, 2009
♥ post #300
it's one of those nights. the ones where i don't feel like sleeping... or rather... can't fall asleep (and yes i've tried already).
weird, considering i got less than five hours last night, so i should be ready to konk... unfortunately this is not the case.
i wish i could escape reality for a while. the reality of... my exams. the expectations that my parents have for me, or rather, the expectations i have for myself. the numerous types of chemical reactions - gignard, williamson, fischer. the night time conversation with an indifferent boyfriend. the broken shoulder bag. the annoying flies during the day. the many unanswered questions for my future.
i want to sit on the beach. and watch the sunset. without stress, worry or concern. with freedom, peace and love.
maybe i'll go do that next week.
Labels: beach, boyfriend, chemistry, exams, future, life, sleep, stress, study
1:13 AM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
♥ one down, FOUR to go
my mind has exploded.
way too much hbio.
it was alright though. i knew more than half the stuff :) or at least i think i knew more than half the stuff, ahaha.
psyc next! 9 chapters... 30 pages of definitions.
yay...
10:26 AM
Monday, June 15, 2009
♥ yayayayay
exam progress: 4 / 4
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: completed
chem: completed
chemistry, i needed a 66% to hit the d that i wanted, it was borderlining it since chem isn't exactly the easiest subject in the world... but it was possible, so i'm hoping i made it!
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. freedom feels good.
even though it's not absolute freedom... there are several things i need to achieve these holidays. and i'll list them for you.
1. complete the box of stuff (full of things to read) for my boyfriend to take with him on his longlong flight to america.
2. get my proof of age card.
3. find a driving instructor, and start driving lessons... and become a good driver =)
4. work work work. i've got a whole load of hours at looksmart, because the fulltimer is going away...
5. save save save... until i'm debt free, and even after that... i should really start having some savings in my bank account, rather than living paycheck to paycheck (sigh!)
6. shop shop shop. yipeeeeeeeeeeeee i've been putting it off for so longgggggg. but don't worry, i'll only buy stuff on sale, and things that i need... e.g. cardigan. boots. oh except for my air maxes...... i dont need them....... but footlocker = 30%? <3>
7. UMAT UMAT UMAT. umat prep! i took a break from it for exams, but its time to hit straight back into it now. because i'm going to teaRRRRRRr up those umat papers (just like i did for all my semester exams xD)
8. finish the Dreaming With God Book - for the sake of my lovely cell group leaders who i feel very sorry for, because we always rock up without having read anything =/ and it screws up the whole lesson plan they had set.
9. catch up with friendssss! i haven't caught up with quite a few of them for a whilee *cough my boyfriend steals all of my time xD cough* but i dont want to turn into that kinda friend... that loses contact with everyone =(... so time to organise some fun outings for everyone ^^
10. figure out what units i'm going to drop / pick up for nxt sem... and sort out my uni timetablee (oh please God, no more 8am classes, prettyyy pleaseeeeee)
11. make the most of it, yet also make sure i learn to relax, and have some alone time (i dont think i've spent a whole day at home bored + guilty free (aka not meant to be studying) in a longlong time...
to finish, i would just like to say, that the person who designed the ikea store layout was very smart, in that he only put one entrance (front of store) and one exit (back of store) so that you have to walk through EVERYTHING just to get out... hence ur more likely to buy more stuff...
but still.. ikea is awesomee...... <3
oh and my flowers died =(... they were already dying, but because i had a morning exam this morning and left my house early, i forgot to leave them in the sun. i'm going to dry to dry the orange oness... but the orchids are like impossible to dry.
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: completed
chem: completed
chemistry, i needed a 66% to hit the d that i wanted, it was borderlining it since chem isn't exactly the easiest subject in the world... but it was possible, so i'm hoping i made it!
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. freedom feels good.
even though it's not absolute freedom... there are several things i need to achieve these holidays. and i'll list them for you.
1. complete the box of stuff (full of things to read) for my boyfriend to take with him on his longlong flight to america.
2. get my proof of age card.
3. find a driving instructor, and start driving lessons... and become a good driver =)
4. work work work. i've got a whole load of hours at looksmart, because the fulltimer is going away...
5. save save save... until i'm debt free, and even after that... i should really start having some savings in my bank account, rather than living paycheck to paycheck (sigh!)
6. shop shop shop. yipeeeeeeeeeeeee i've been putting it off for so longgggggg. but don't worry, i'll only buy stuff on sale, and things that i need... e.g. cardigan. boots. oh except for my air maxes...... i dont need them....... but footlocker = 30%? <3>
7. UMAT UMAT UMAT. umat prep! i took a break from it for exams, but its time to hit straight back into it now. because i'm going to teaRRRRRRr up those umat papers (just like i did for all my semester exams xD)
8. finish the Dreaming With God Book - for the sake of my lovely cell group leaders who i feel very sorry for, because we always rock up without having read anything =/ and it screws up the whole lesson plan they had set.
9. catch up with friendssss! i haven't caught up with quite a few of them for a whilee *cough my boyfriend steals all of my time xD cough* but i dont want to turn into that kinda friend... that loses contact with everyone =(... so time to organise some fun outings for everyone ^^
10. figure out what units i'm going to drop / pick up for nxt sem... and sort out my uni timetablee (oh please God, no more 8am classes, prettyyy pleaseeeeee)
11. make the most of it, yet also make sure i learn to relax, and have some alone time (i dont think i've spent a whole day at home bored + guilty free (aka not meant to be studying) in a longlong time...
to finish, i would just like to say, that the person who designed the ikea store layout was very smart, in that he only put one entrance (front of store) and one exit (back of store) so that you have to walk through EVERYTHING just to get out... hence ur more likely to buy more stuff...
but still.. ikea is awesomee...... <3
oh and my flowers died =(... they were already dying, but because i had a morning exam this morning and left my house early, i forgot to leave them in the sun. i'm going to dry to dry the orange oness... but the orchids are like impossible to dry.Labels: boyfriend, chemistry, driving, exams, freedom, friends, hoildays, lifegroup, shopping, stress, study, umat, uni, work
5:56 PM
Sunday, June 7, 2009
♥ pimples
EXAMS
+
STRESS
+
PMS
=
PIMPLES
+
STRESS
+
PMS
=
PIMPLES
ARGHghGHghGHghGHghGHghGHghGH < / 3 =(
P.S. i google imaged pimples and acne... but the images were so bad =/ i didn't want to stick them on my blog. which then made me realize i shouldn't be complaining because mine isn't thatttt badd.. but its still =(...
Labels: exams, frustration, pimples, pms, self image, stress, uni
6:08 PM
Thursday, June 4, 2009
♥ frustration
you know when your stressed because you have an exam in two days...
and when you're trying to study because you really need to study...
and you've got headphones on with music playing to try to relax you...
but the only thing you can hear is the high pitched laughs from the room nextdoor.
yes, that is definately frustrating.
2:34 PM
Saturday, May 9, 2009
♥ eighteen
so i'm eighteen!
adulthood huh. i had a prettyyy stressful week leading up to my birthday and even on my birthday.
my birthday party - i'll blog about another day. you will probably find the pictures on facebook (once i get around to uploading them)
i love organising things, but yes, i admit... sometimes i organise too much. sometimes i do overload myself. silly of me huh. but i always think i can handle it. also sillly of me.
my birthday was an excuse to slack off, go out and relax. it's time to hit back into the books.
and clean. oh gosh. my floor is covered in birthday presents hhaha. i spent last night opening them all =) and this morning i spent reading through the thirty thousand words josh had put into thirty letters that he had spent thirty night <3>
i'll probably blog more later. but right now i REALLY need to get into those assignments
*insert big sigh here*
adulthood huh. i had a prettyyy stressful week leading up to my birthday and even on my birthday.
my birthday party - i'll blog about another day. you will probably find the pictures on facebook (once i get around to uploading them)
i love organising things, but yes, i admit... sometimes i organise too much. sometimes i do overload myself. silly of me huh. but i always think i can handle it. also sillly of me.
my birthday was an excuse to slack off, go out and relax. it's time to hit back into the books.
and clean. oh gosh. my floor is covered in birthday presents hhaha. i spent last night opening them all =) and this morning i spent reading through the thirty thousand words josh had put into thirty letters that he had spent thirty night <3>
i'll probably blog more later. but right now i REALLY need to get into those assignments
*insert big sigh here*
12:51 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
♥ You of little faith, why did you doubt?
Matthew 14
i think in some ways i'm like peter.
i see the wonderful things God does in my life, i see how he carries me through every situation...
and u know... i walk on water...
but then i start to see the world through my eyes.
i start to see "reality"... then i start to lack faith. i dont know i can handle it. i think its too much.
and i begin to sink into the water.
I always ask God to help mee... I always ask Him where He is...
but it's not that God isn't there for me.
but rather, i am somewhat lacking in faith.
I focus on the wrong things... I doubt.
I need to change my perspective, because i'm continuously sinking whenever i'm stressed out and overloaded.
Changed.
Faith.
Life.
25During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. 26When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. "It's a ghost," they said, and cried out in fear.
27But Jesus immediately said to them: "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."
28"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."
29"Come," he said.
Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!"
31Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"
32And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. 33Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, "Truly you are the Son of God."
i think in some ways i'm like peter.
i see the wonderful things God does in my life, i see how he carries me through every situation...
and u know... i walk on water...
but then i start to see the world through my eyes.
i start to see "reality"... then i start to lack faith. i dont know i can handle it. i think its too much.
and i begin to sink into the water.
I always ask God to help mee... I always ask Him where He is...
but it's not that God isn't there for me.
but rather, i am somewhat lacking in faith.
I focus on the wrong things... I doubt.
I need to change my perspective, because i'm continuously sinking whenever i'm stressed out and overloaded.
Changed.
Faith.
Life.
4:02 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
♥ let go, let God...
You know when there are times... you look back at your life... and you see how fortunate you've been. how blessed you are. how silly you were to have worried at all those times, without realizing that God would always pull you through.
And you think to yourself... wow, life has been so good to you - God has been so good to you.
Then sometimes happens, to ruin your outlook. A trigger... that hits you back to reality.
The reality of assignments - and the lack of time...
The reality of friendships - and the fights or arguements...
The reality of relationships - and if they're going in the right direction...
The reality of the future - and if you're doing what you should, in order to get where you want.
And you fall back into this hole... where you know you'll eventually get out of it... but at this very moment, it doesn't feel like it. you want OUT now! but you dont end up getting what u want.
It's okay. I know later in life, I will look back, and I will see how God carried me through... like He does everytime.
I need to let go, and let God.
I need to begin to stress less... to understand that I do not do this on my own ability. But I have God. Every step of the way.
When i begin to look at my life, and see these assignments, tests and friendships... I begin to worry. stress. freak out. because I can't handle this on my own. I don't have the ability to get through this alone.
And it's awesome. because I'm not alone.
but at this very moment. i don't feel very awesome. help me God!
And you think to yourself... wow, life has been so good to you - God has been so good to you.
Then sometimes happens, to ruin your outlook. A trigger... that hits you back to reality.
The reality of assignments - and the lack of time...
The reality of friendships - and the fights or arguements...
The reality of relationships - and if they're going in the right direction...
The reality of the future - and if you're doing what you should, in order to get where you want.
And you fall back into this hole... where you know you'll eventually get out of it... but at this very moment, it doesn't feel like it. you want OUT now! but you dont end up getting what u want.
It's okay. I know later in life, I will look back, and I will see how God carried me through... like He does everytime.
I need to let go, and let God.
I need to begin to stress less... to understand that I do not do this on my own ability. But I have God. Every step of the way.
When i begin to look at my life, and see these assignments, tests and friendships... I begin to worry. stress. freak out. because I can't handle this on my own. I don't have the ability to get through this alone.
And it's awesome. because I'm not alone.
but at this very moment. i don't feel very awesome. help me God!
Labels: assignments, faith, God, life, lifegroup, overload, stress, uni
12:17 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
♥ chemistry is messing with my head
1 Hydrogen
2 Helium
3 Lithium (yes no 'n')
4 Beryillium
5 Boron
6 Carbon
7 Nitrogen
8 Oxygen
9 Fluorine (not flo..)
10 Neon (thanks bub!)
11 Sodium
12 Magnesium
13 Aluminium
14 Silicon
15 ...
16 ...
17 Chlorine
18 Argon
19
20 Calcium
21
blahblah.
bottem left hand corner is Francium. It is the most metallic element.
Neon is the most unmetallic element
man. chemistry is screwing my head over.
gahghaghahgahghaghaghahahhh..
p.s. pms... u suck. 3hr naps... u are awesome. homeworkless nights... u are awesome. assignments and tests... u suck. joshhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3... u are superduperly awesome.
2 Helium
3 Lithium (yes no 'n')
4 Beryillium
5 Boron
6 Carbon
7 Nitrogen
8 Oxygen
9 Fluorine (not flo..)
10 Neon (thanks bub!)
11 Sodium
12 Magnesium
13 Aluminium
14 Silicon
15 ...
16 ...
17 Chlorine
18 Argon
19
20 Calcium
21
blahblah.
bottem left hand corner is Francium. It is the most metallic element.
Neon is the most unmetallic element
man. chemistry is screwing my head over.
gahghaghahgahghaghaghahahhh..
p.s. pms... u suck. 3hr naps... u are awesome. homeworkless nights... u are awesome. assignments and tests... u suck. joshhhhhhhhhhhhhh <3... u are superduperly awesome.
Labels: boyfriend, chemistry, pms, sleep, stress, study, uni
10:56 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
♥ hope in the midst of darkness
when it gets to the point where i actually have to write a note (and stick it on my standby screen) that says "cut nails"...
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
then i think i should be worried.
it seems that i am insanely stressed (well was, this morning) and that i have not been as constructive as i should have been the past few days.
a few days ago on my way to uni, i passed by the bush area in kings park... it was burnt, because of the fires (that were lit!) in january... but i saw bits of green. not just in once place.. but splattered across the blackness. i remember thinking... "when u believe that all is lost... there's always hope."
i passed by it again today. i was freaking out. maybe even close to breakdown.
but i saw the green. splattered across the black burnt trees. it was like rays of hope...
(kinda makes me think of the little rays of light the beconsfield miners saw while they were stuck in this super dark tunnel that had collapsed).
a reminder to not give up... a reminder to trust God... and believe he'll pull you through.
i need to learn to not always try to do things on my own... but i know that God's always got my back. and he should always be plan A yeah?
7:42 PM
