Friday, September 25, 2009
♥ busybusy, 12hrs til VIC.
i'll be flying to ballarat in less than twelve hours.
i've sorta packed. but it's not easy. 7kg. for 10degree weather, i mean yes, okay, i''ll be there for like 3 days. but still. i need to pack formal suit like gear for the conference during the day. as well as fancy dressy type stuff for the gala dinner at night. pjs with a jumper. and warm stuff for general wear.
gah, i'm struggling. i've never been a good packer.
i'm bringing my laptop too, for the 4hr+ flight. to do my speech and powerpoint presentation. hmm. i'm so last minute sigh!
finally got the courage to ask the girl at work about her pregnancy, only to get the sad news she terminated because the doctor said something about her small body size not being good enough or something =[ ouch it hurt hearing that.
i feel like i'm getting slightly sick, feverish almost. runny nose is A for Annoying.
today was fun. we ended up going for dimsum. gosh we ate a lot. lotsa oily stuff too. felt really sick after, but it took a while to kick in. tea really helped. tried that vanilla chai that ry loves. and went home and had some lipton. oil in body from food + nice yummy warm tea = feeling so much better.
oh, went to visit the admissions center. lady told me abt bonded and even gave me a brochure. it's not as bad as many make it sound ahaha. and like it doesnt effect ur chances of getting non bonded if u stick bonded as 2nd pref. so yeah she totally got me convinced, i've changed it on tisc already. but whether i'll accept or not, i've still got a few months to decide.
she also told me average for interviews was 90 for umat. and average gpa for entry was arnd 6.3
hmm. i'm sitting on a 86 and 6.125 (sem 1)
must avoid gpa from going down, even though this semester is so much harder.
must be strategic and try to get 75+ for each subject, then i can get that 6.3
will have to really hit the books when i get back from ballarat.
speaking of ballarat. the minimum goes down to 3 DEGREES. THREE?!
and maximum TEN!
i am going to freeze my butt off.
i've sorta packed. but it's not easy. 7kg. for 10degree weather, i mean yes, okay, i''ll be there for like 3 days. but still. i need to pack formal suit like gear for the conference during the day. as well as fancy dressy type stuff for the gala dinner at night. pjs with a jumper. and warm stuff for general wear.
gah, i'm struggling. i've never been a good packer.
i'm bringing my laptop too, for the 4hr+ flight. to do my speech and powerpoint presentation. hmm. i'm so last minute sigh!
finally got the courage to ask the girl at work about her pregnancy, only to get the sad news she terminated because the doctor said something about her small body size not being good enough or something =[ ouch it hurt hearing that.
i feel like i'm getting slightly sick, feverish almost. runny nose is A for Annoying.
today was fun. we ended up going for dimsum. gosh we ate a lot. lotsa oily stuff too. felt really sick after, but it took a while to kick in. tea really helped. tried that vanilla chai that ry loves. and went home and had some lipton. oil in body from food + nice yummy warm tea = feeling so much better.
oh, went to visit the admissions center. lady told me abt bonded and even gave me a brochure. it's not as bad as many make it sound ahaha. and like it doesnt effect ur chances of getting non bonded if u stick bonded as 2nd pref. so yeah she totally got me convinced, i've changed it on tisc already. but whether i'll accept or not, i've still got a few months to decide.
she also told me average for interviews was 90 for umat. and average gpa for entry was arnd 6.3
hmm. i'm sitting on a 86 and 6.125 (sem 1)
must avoid gpa from going down, even though this semester is so much harder.
must be strategic and try to get 75+ for each subject, then i can get that 6.3
will have to really hit the books when i get back from ballarat.
speaking of ballarat. the minimum goes down to 3 DEGREES. THREE?!
and maximum TEN!
i am going to freeze my butt off.
Labels: abortion, boyfriend, dimsum, eee pc, food, gpa, holidays, media, umat, uni, weather, work, zonta
1:18 AM
Friday, April 24, 2009
♥ God is Good. All the time!
mmm haven't blogged in a while. there's much to fill u all in with.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/article.asp?ARTICLE_ID=44891
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
you know when you hear stories of people's life changing experiences... or maybe something superduper awesome happened to someone who's a friend of a friend of a friend.
but you know. it's just a story u hear second hand (sometimes third, forth, fifth)... but... when it happens a lil closer to you... it makes u stop. stop and realize how the stories you hear are not fake or unreal or distant.... but they can be very true and near too.
so my boyfriend's aunty got saved yesterday! praise God! it brought such joy to my ears! and even though i haven't met her, it's like i've been following him on this journey he's been on, that God's guided him through. It feels like yesterday when he was telling me that he was getting promptings from God to contact this aunty of his in malaysia.
i remember, however, saying something to him along the lines of "yeah, talk to her... at least then u can say u tried"... and he replied somethingn along the lines of "no. i want to talk to her because God is telling me too". and i think back to that conversation and i think how very silly i am! when God sends us somewhere - we should go! when God tells us to do something, we should do it. and trust that He's got a plan! i need to have more faith! more trust. more belief. more action.
really, i am amazed by God's grace, love and miracles. He's amazing!
oh, and praise God i passed my chem test =). hey, a pass is a pass. im happy!
Dessert night with church people on Monday for my early 18th. MAN.. ingrediants are expensive... so far i've spent about $100 on just SELF RAISING FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER and CHOCOLATE MELTS and BAKING PAPER and PAPER PLATES and other stuff like that... zZz.. i still need to buy moreee... like all the lollies and fruit etc... =/ so yes, this birthday is turning out to be slightly more expensive than i was expecting (zZz.. i thought ingrediants wouldnt cost THAT much)
Also, i went to check out the restaurant i want to my other 18th celebration (for everyone else). From some people i heard its great food... from other people i hear its a dodgy place. but i went to check it out for myself. and i kinda like the place! the outside does look a bit =/, but the inside bistro is niceee.. with a bit of decorating, it could be great =). oh but it only holds 50-65 people in the function room... which may be a bit of a problem, considering there was 100 at my 16th (but consideirn church ppl are already coming to a dessert night, it should decrease numbers). plus the food's a bargain. really. $12 for steak/chicken parmigiana/beerbatteredfish&chips/seafoodbasket + buffet salad bar + dessert is an absolute bargain! so yes, just waiting for a call from the manager on tuesday to confirm booking (the guy needed to check with the hotel first whether it was okay)
oh a funny thing is they dont allow 18th birthdays. so i have to pretend to have just a "birthday celebration"... excluding the 18th part. sounds silly i know. but i guess i can understand that they've had problems in the past... 18ths are really associated with good things.
so yes, things are falling into place =)... ive been really lazy with organising stuff lately, so hopefully this will all just fall into place and i wont have to do much (please God?)
oh and a last thought... a guy today from SMA... he saw my makepovertyhistory tshirt and made a comment which i haven't heard before. i did some research online (but not anything indept - im still trying to get my head around it)... yeah read this link.
http://www.wnd.com/news/
i'm going to have to do more research and reading before i make any concrete views on this... but u know when u have a set mindset about something, and ur not easily changed.. yeah, i hope im not like that, because really... if it's bad, i dont want to support it. but im a bit torn between the two... esp with all the work i've done for mph. but also very strongly disagree with abortion... it makes me sad that i might have to let go of this organisation simply because one part of it is wrong. it confuses me really. lead me in the right direction God!
feel fee to share ur views =) i'll be interested to know.
Labels: 18ths, abortion, birthday, boyfriend, church, faith, God, grace, life, makepovertyhistory, salvation
10:49 PM
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
♥ a teenager's world
rules were made to be broken.
thats what the world says.
i know that its a lie though.
so i woke up this morning, remembering a book that uncle dennis lent to me like 4 years ago O__O.. he was passing it around the tbcers. chris started with it. and he wrote like a review / note in it. and then next was me. its just, i never got around to reading it ^^" and 4 yrs down the track, i still have it sitting in my room (doh~!)
so i found it today. it's called "life. sex. and everything inbetween". (yes.. the title is so off putting that probably why i never read it haha)
but i brought it around with me today and read bits here and there. yeah, josh pointed out its aimed for like 13yo... which is probably true, most of it is pretty straightforward.
dont' have sex blahblah, purity blahblah... it sorta comes in a structure where there's a teen writing to the writer, and the guy writes back.
some of it is really good though. there was stories on pregnancy, abortions, virginity etc... touchy stuff. but real issues for teens now a days. i like reading about people's issues. guess psyc is good for me haha.
but parts of it brought up good points to. relationship wise too. many of which i pointed out to josh, although we knew it all already, i guess its good to be like "look! we're on the right track" or "maybe we should work on this..."
i sorta realized how the world would throw stuff at us! for example. sex is okay! just use protection. one night stands are okay. getting drunk etc etc. it's crazy. what the world of teenagers are like. as i turn 18 in a month or so, i guess im glad that i'm no longer under all that highschool pressure and the world that exist.
but also i guess i was very grounded throughout highschool. i stood very firmly in my values, morals, beliefs.
but some people fall into the pressure... the world that exists. reading about it in the book, i guess its good because it made me realize there's always help available. and there's always answers.
one thing that really struct me, was the amount of teenagers who were scared of their parents. thinking they would kill them if they found out if they were pregnant. and how they wanted to go through an abortion without them knowing. i think one point the writer brought up was how hard it is. abortion that is. and how if u were the mother. u would want ur daughter to come to u. u wouldn't want ur daughter to go through that alone. u wouldn't even want ur daughter have to face that choice.
u know, i think i've come to the age, where i realize how vital my parents are in my life. i realized how silly i was to be so scared of them when i was younger (it was the expectation thing - i couldn't handle not meeting their expectations). i've realized how stupid it is to lie to them. to do things behind their back. i've gotten the point where i want to be honest with them - where i'm not afraid of telling them things. and i think they've gotten the point where they realize i'm mature enough to make decisions, and that they can trust me.
haha. i still remember when i first told my parents about a boyfriend. it was really hard. i had lied previously about another boy i had dated. i kept it from them. but i remember telling them about this boy. it actually wasn't too bad.
parents are protective. they have high expectations. but they also love you.
when i have a child, i want them to not be afraid of me. i want them to feel like they can come to me - about anything. that i am approachable. and that they can always talk to me, about anything... and i will still always love them.
i think parents use a scare tatic because it helps with growing up. sure, i wouldn't have done that well if i didn't have my parents pressuring me... or having a high expectation.
i guess it just got to the point where i couldn't reach it - and i brokedown. but thats a different story ;)
i hope i'm a good mother when i grow up.
thats what the world says.
i know that its a lie though.
so i woke up this morning, remembering a book that uncle dennis lent to me like 4 years ago O__O.. he was passing it around the tbcers. chris started with it. and he wrote like a review / note in it. and then next was me. its just, i never got around to reading it ^^" and 4 yrs down the track, i still have it sitting in my room (doh~!)
so i found it today. it's called "life. sex. and everything inbetween". (yes.. the title is so off putting that probably why i never read it haha)
but i brought it around with me today and read bits here and there. yeah, josh pointed out its aimed for like 13yo... which is probably true, most of it is pretty straightforward.
dont' have sex blahblah, purity blahblah... it sorta comes in a structure where there's a teen writing to the writer, and the guy writes back.
some of it is really good though. there was stories on pregnancy, abortions, virginity etc... touchy stuff. but real issues for teens now a days. i like reading about people's issues. guess psyc is good for me haha.
but parts of it brought up good points to. relationship wise too. many of which i pointed out to josh, although we knew it all already, i guess its good to be like "look! we're on the right track" or "maybe we should work on this..."
i sorta realized how the world would throw stuff at us! for example. sex is okay! just use protection. one night stands are okay. getting drunk etc etc. it's crazy. what the world of teenagers are like. as i turn 18 in a month or so, i guess im glad that i'm no longer under all that highschool pressure and the world that exist.
but also i guess i was very grounded throughout highschool. i stood very firmly in my values, morals, beliefs.
but some people fall into the pressure... the world that exists. reading about it in the book, i guess its good because it made me realize there's always help available. and there's always answers.
one thing that really struct me, was the amount of teenagers who were scared of their parents. thinking they would kill them if they found out if they were pregnant. and how they wanted to go through an abortion without them knowing. i think one point the writer brought up was how hard it is. abortion that is. and how if u were the mother. u would want ur daughter to come to u. u wouldn't want ur daughter to go through that alone. u wouldn't even want ur daughter have to face that choice.
u know, i think i've come to the age, where i realize how vital my parents are in my life. i realized how silly i was to be so scared of them when i was younger (it was the expectation thing - i couldn't handle not meeting their expectations). i've realized how stupid it is to lie to them. to do things behind their back. i've gotten the point where i want to be honest with them - where i'm not afraid of telling them things. and i think they've gotten the point where they realize i'm mature enough to make decisions, and that they can trust me.
haha. i still remember when i first told my parents about a boyfriend. it was really hard. i had lied previously about another boy i had dated. i kept it from them. but i remember telling them about this boy. it actually wasn't too bad.
parents are protective. they have high expectations. but they also love you.
when i have a child, i want them to not be afraid of me. i want them to feel like they can come to me - about anything. that i am approachable. and that they can always talk to me, about anything... and i will still always love them.
i think parents use a scare tatic because it helps with growing up. sure, i wouldn't have done that well if i didn't have my parents pressuring me... or having a high expectation.
i guess it just got to the point where i couldn't reach it - and i brokedown. but thats a different story ;)
i hope i'm a good mother when i grow up.
Labels: abortion, boyfriend, family, love, parents, relationships, sex
10:55 PM
