Sunday, May 31, 2009
♥ never give up
there was a phrase that me and nathan used during year 12, and it was to never give up
it came from a hillsong kids song... that was sometimes used at kidsaflame.
unfortunately i don't think i kept to it.
well "technically" i did. because i didn't completely give up.
but a part of me still did, in more aspects of my life, than just year 12.
so yes, after my umat score came out, my heart sank! and i knew i had no chance. i didn't give up on tee, but sure, it did have it's toll in my motivation.
when a mate is going through a hard time, and i've continously pounded him with my worriedness, and nothing changes... and rather he pushes me away. i give up. not completely, but a part of me has.
i think in some aspects of my prayer life, i gave up after a while. i think with some issues i don't even pray about it...concluding that in some cases that it was impossible, or it would never happen. ahh, such lil faith huh? it is possible. i need to believe, have faith and know that God hears me.
i think i've become so content with how my life is, and i learn to deal with things that happen. maybe even make excuses when things don't go the way i planned. when rather i should be striving and yearning for better things... praying for change.
change in all aspects. change in every aspect. not just praying for myself, but for others too.
so i was flicking through some non standard entry information for medicine. and minimum of gpa is 5.5, but as my boyfriends mother said (as she and her husband grilled me in the car today) i must aim higher, and not for the "benchmark", umat score included.
i want to walk out of that umat exam, and know that i did the best that i could. i want to finish this year of science, with grades and marks that i am happy with - not just content, but happy.
i want my relationship to be covered in grace and filled with love. i want my friends to realize how much God loves them, and forgives them, and opens His arms wide open, waiting for them to start running after Him. i want my family to grow stronger together, to be a family that reflects the qualities of Christ, especially God's love.
I'm going to start setting more time aside for prayer. I'm going to change this mindset of giving up.
Great things are going to happen, because prayer is so powerful.
oh God, all of me. covered in You.
you better watch out guys! because i'll be praying for YOU~
Labels: church, faith, family, friends, God, grace, prayer, relationships
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