Monday, July 6, 2009
♥ iHATEit.
im tired. grumpy. moody
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
Labels: anthropology, chemistry, fb, God, maths, medentry, pms, psyc, results, umat, uni
12:22 AM
Friday, June 12, 2009
♥ comfy study gear
exam progress: 3 down, 1 to go
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: completed
chem: monday
well today i nearly freaked out like crazy because i misplaced my student card. sigh, i really should be more organised >.<...
but i had few study sessions (one today, another yesterday) with a mate, and it reallyyyyyyy helped. i think when it comes to units that are kinda art related, its important to discuss ideas are stuff because its handy for the essays =)
i got my anth research essay and i got 78!!! i'm so happy with it. it's insanely higher than what i was expecting. so yeah i rekon i can pull of a credit for anth =) which is good cauz i was kinda worried i was borderlining fail.
anyways. something that ran through my mind today. is how people dress to uni. and not just uni in general. but in particular, exams.
you see, when i go to my exam, i want to be as comfortable as i can. jeans are not good (especially when u have pms and ur tummys really bloated)
soo. this is my exam gear / study gear / i feel like dressing like a hobo because its so comfy gear..
the trackpants. not the cotton type. but the swishswashy type (u know? the sound they make as u walk) these are extremely hard to find for girls. i have three pairs. one was for school... and is navy, and i dont wear them anymore. but the other two i have are actually guys ones. haha. the champion ones, i had to get it shortened from waist (hence, lowered the waistband... so it actually sits on my hips and its not too long)... and my nike ones, i haven't gotten shortened from the waist yet but i just roll it down at the waist.. they're so comfy!
the tshirt. these are so good! u don't have to worry about straps or anything falling off your shoulder etc... but it can't be too tight or else it will restrict movement in your shoulder. so u know. the loose tshirt (but not too loose!)
the hooded jacket. perfect for the colddd phyical recreation center or winthrop hall exam rooms (because they are so cold O_O!) the zip makes it easy to take off and on. and u know, the cotton is gooooddd for keeping you warm. again, i prefer it kinda loose compared to the jackets that stick to you (e.g. those cotton on ones)... and i like how i can just pull up the sleeve and it stays there as i can just keep writing.
the pair of thongs. ahh, dude, thongs are so handy, comfy, easy to slip off... they're awesome. the only downside is ur feet get a bit cold during winter (argh and those stupid puddles). but i must wear thongs to my exam because i kinda like to sit cross legged on my seat... xD i know, its weird. but its so comfortable.........
the bobby pin. oh this is an absolute necessity because of my fringeeeee... i walked all the way back to the library lockers just to get this and a hair tie... or else your hair always falls in front of your eyes =(
the necklace. a constant remind that my future is in His hands... and that i have some wonderful people like my mum and my boyfriend praying for me.
. . . and that is what i wear to my exams.
it surprises me how people rock up to uni in super high heels and really fancy outfits... esp to exams O__O. man, i dont even think i'll wear THAT high of heels on my wedding day... even though i probably need them xD
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: completed
chem: monday
well today i nearly freaked out like crazy because i misplaced my student card. sigh, i really should be more organised >.<...
but i had few study sessions (one today, another yesterday) with a mate, and it reallyyyyyyy helped. i think when it comes to units that are kinda art related, its important to discuss ideas are stuff because its handy for the essays =)
i got my anth research essay and i got 78!!! i'm so happy with it. it's insanely higher than what i was expecting. so yeah i rekon i can pull of a credit for anth =) which is good cauz i was kinda worried i was borderlining fail.
anyways. something that ran through my mind today. is how people dress to uni. and not just uni in general. but in particular, exams.
you see, when i go to my exam, i want to be as comfortable as i can. jeans are not good (especially when u have pms and ur tummys really bloated)
soo. this is my exam gear / study gear / i feel like dressing like a hobo because its so comfy gear..
the trackpants. not the cotton type. but the swishswashy type (u know? the sound they make as u walk) these are extremely hard to find for girls. i have three pairs. one was for school... and is navy, and i dont wear them anymore. but the other two i have are actually guys ones. haha. the champion ones, i had to get it shortened from waist (hence, lowered the waistband... so it actually sits on my hips and its not too long)... and my nike ones, i haven't gotten shortened from the waist yet but i just roll it down at the waist.. they're so comfy!the tshirt. these are so good! u don't have to worry about straps or anything falling off your shoulder etc... but it can't be too tight or else it will restrict movement in your shoulder. so u know. the loose tshirt (but not too loose!) the hooded jacket. perfect for the colddd phyical recreation center or winthrop hall exam rooms (because they are so cold O_O!) the zip makes it easy to take off and on. and u know, the cotton is gooooddd for keeping you warm. again, i prefer it kinda loose compared to the jackets that stick to you (e.g. those cotton on ones)... and i like how i can just pull up the sleeve and it stays there as i can just keep writing.the pair of thongs. ahh, dude, thongs are so handy, comfy, easy to slip off... they're awesome. the only downside is ur feet get a bit cold during winter (argh and those stupid puddles). but i must wear thongs to my exam because i kinda like to sit cross legged on my seat... xD i know, its weird. but its so comfortable.........the bobby pin. oh this is an absolute necessity because of my fringeeeee... i walked all the way back to the library lockers just to get this and a hair tie... or else your hair always falls in front of your eyes =(
the necklace. a constant remind that my future is in His hands... and that i have some wonderful people like my mum and my boyfriend praying for me.. . . and that is what i wear to my exams.
it surprises me how people rock up to uni in super high heels and really fancy outfits... esp to exams O__O. man, i dont even think i'll wear THAT high of heels on my wedding day... even though i probably need them xD
Labels: anthropology, clothes, exams, fashion, study
6:20 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
♥ i heart maths!~
two down, two to go
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: friday
chem: monday
maths exam went great =)
and i'm super duperly happy with how it went.
but i'm starting to wonder if i spent too much time study for it, at the expense of my other units =(
so next up is anth on friday, then chem on monday.
i really need a high gpa if im going to bridge into med.....
arghh anth, i hope i can pull off at least a credit... ><
psyc: completed
maths: completed
anth: friday
chem: monday
maths exam went great =)
and i'm super duperly happy with how it went.
but i'm starting to wonder if i spent too much time study for it, at the expense of my other units =(
so next up is anth on friday, then chem on monday.
i really need a high gpa if im going to bridge into med.....
arghh anth, i hope i can pull off at least a credit... ><
Labels: anthropology, chemistry, exams, gpa, maths, medicine, uni
7:15 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ blog entry 101
it's post 101. and it's going to be a long one (be warned)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
Labels: anthropology, busy, friends, life, motivation, relationships, sleep, uni, work, worn out
4:05 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
♥ my feelings - in parts x]
i kinda of can't describe how i'm feeling right now. its sorta like a mixture. i'll try to break it up.
a part of me is relieved that my anthropology assignment is done. finished. handed in. and that i'm happy at the way it turned out (thanks again for the editing bub)
a part of me is feeling tired, maybe it's from the lack of sleep this week (or maybe just last night, ahh...) or maybe from playing badminton today (ahh so unfit...)
a part of me is in awe of God's unconditional love (despite how much we humans sin and how many times we fail... and how many times we sway away... and reject and walk away from God...)
a part of me is longing for my boyfriend's arms to be around me (even though i only saw him just over 3 hours ago)
a part of me is amazed at his obedience, his willingness and faith.
a part of me is happy because i got to eat kfc today. AND duck for dinner. <3...>
a part of me wishes i was on an island. and it was sunny (but not too hot). and i was lying down on a beach chair with sunnies and my bathers... and i actually had time to read a book. maybe twilight, or my sister's keeper. seems like i haven't had time to read either since uni started.
a part of me wishes i could be in melbourne to see that awesome speech ed's going to give.
a part of me wishes i could go to america with him.
a part of me wishes uni was over. that holidays were here. ahh holidays <3.
a part of me looks to the future. and can't wait. it's going to be great.
a part of me is still wondering whether i should go to the doctor. where would i find the time anyways? it hasn't happened lately. and i know when it happens. while im coughing when im sick. or when im brushing my teeth. mmm...
a part of me is feeling unacomplished. so far this year, i haven't got involved in the community like i wanted. i haven't ordered twloha shirts. i haven't donated blood. and with umat coming up - i guess that will be my next focus. it's time to start crossing out that to do list...
anyways. i need to shower! then it's either ilecture time. or maybe just reading a book. i dont really know. but i look foward to a relaxing night.
a part of me is relieved that my anthropology assignment is done. finished. handed in. and that i'm happy at the way it turned out (thanks again for the editing bub)
a part of me is feeling tired, maybe it's from the lack of sleep this week (or maybe just last night, ahh...) or maybe from playing badminton today (ahh so unfit...)
a part of me is in awe of God's unconditional love (despite how much we humans sin and how many times we fail... and how many times we sway away... and reject and walk away from God...)
a part of me is longing for my boyfriend's arms to be around me (even though i only saw him just over 3 hours ago)
a part of me is amazed at his obedience, his willingness and faith.
a part of me is happy because i got to eat kfc today. AND duck for dinner. <3...>
a part of me wishes i was on an island. and it was sunny (but not too hot). and i was lying down on a beach chair with sunnies and my bathers... and i actually had time to read a book. maybe twilight, or my sister's keeper. seems like i haven't had time to read either since uni started.
a part of me wishes i could be in melbourne to see that awesome speech ed's going to give.
a part of me wishes i could go to america with him.
a part of me wishes uni was over. that holidays were here. ahh holidays <3.
a part of me looks to the future. and can't wait. it's going to be great.
a part of me is still wondering whether i should go to the doctor. where would i find the time anyways? it hasn't happened lately. and i know when it happens. while im coughing when im sick. or when im brushing my teeth. mmm...
a part of me is feeling unacomplished. so far this year, i haven't got involved in the community like i wanted. i haven't ordered twloha shirts. i haven't donated blood. and with umat coming up - i guess that will be my next focus. it's time to start crossing out that to do list...
anyways. i need to shower! then it's either ilecture time. or maybe just reading a book. i dont really know. but i look foward to a relaxing night.
Labels: anthropology, baddy, boyfriend, busy, food, God, grace, holidays, life, love
7:50 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
♥ anth assignment & sex before marriage
So my anthropology assignment is due in less than 20 hours . . .
I'm currently eating rice (with sauce - man rice with that sauce thing - not soyasauce but the sauce u get when buying cooked meat from asian places) cucumber and duck (<3>
I just finished working 5:30 - 9pm. And i basically spent most of the day out of the house.
I guess u could say i was feeling pretty cruddy in the mid afternoon today.
My assignment wasn't close to being completed. My boyfriend was disappointed in me. The worry and stress was starting to build up. I started to realize that if it's med that I'm aiming for - I'm definately not acting like it.
I'm really blessed to have a boyfriend who looks out for me. Even though I get annoyed at him at times... maybe because he sometimes acts like my parents - on my back about this and that. But i know its because he cares. genuinely cares for me. He helps me. Worries for me. Looks out for me. Thinks for me. But most of all, he prays for me... especially because i dont like to ask to be prayed for... i dont like to trouble people i guess.
other than that.. this is whats on my mind. and i must blog abt it before i start my assignment.
a friend of mine... "friend"... more like class mate... she use to go to my school. she had her ultrasound pictures up on facebook. she was 3 months in! its a boy. yeah, she's 17yo, but i admire her for keeping the baby. it makes me happy to know she kept it. well she was happy in a relationship with her bf (father of the baby)... until today =/ she changed her relationship status to single and had this massive 'bitch' in her status =/.
It made me sad to know, that she may be bringing up this child without the father. But i guess u could say it made me think... think about relationships. kids. sex before marriage.
I find it really good how i can talk openly to my boyfriend about these things. How we share the same values, morals and beliefs. How we value and respect each other, and each other's bodies. How we seek deeper meaning in a relationship, rather than just the physical aspect.
I really hope that "friend" works things out. That she has a safe pregnancy. That the father of her son, will be there to support her - and not just financially, but physically, mentally and emotionally.
I thank God that I'm blessed with a boyfriend who supports me... looks out for me... cares for me... shares with me... worries for me... helps me... respects me... values me.
I couldn't ask for anything more!
I'm currently eating rice (with sauce - man rice with that sauce thing - not soyasauce but the sauce u get when buying cooked meat from asian places) cucumber and duck (<3>
I just finished working 5:30 - 9pm. And i basically spent most of the day out of the house.
I guess u could say i was feeling pretty cruddy in the mid afternoon today.
My assignment wasn't close to being completed. My boyfriend was disappointed in me. The worry and stress was starting to build up. I started to realize that if it's med that I'm aiming for - I'm definately not acting like it.
I'm really blessed to have a boyfriend who looks out for me. Even though I get annoyed at him at times... maybe because he sometimes acts like my parents - on my back about this and that. But i know its because he cares. genuinely cares for me. He helps me. Worries for me. Looks out for me. Thinks for me. But most of all, he prays for me... especially because i dont like to ask to be prayed for... i dont like to trouble people i guess.
other than that.. this is whats on my mind. and i must blog abt it before i start my assignment.
a friend of mine... "friend"... more like class mate... she use to go to my school. she had her ultrasound pictures up on facebook. she was 3 months in! its a boy. yeah, she's 17yo, but i admire her for keeping the baby. it makes me happy to know she kept it. well she was happy in a relationship with her bf (father of the baby)... until today =/ she changed her relationship status to single and had this massive 'bitch' in her status =/.
It made me sad to know, that she may be bringing up this child without the father. But i guess u could say it made me think... think about relationships. kids. sex before marriage.
I find it really good how i can talk openly to my boyfriend about these things. How we share the same values, morals and beliefs. How we value and respect each other, and each other's bodies. How we seek deeper meaning in a relationship, rather than just the physical aspect.
I really hope that "friend" works things out. That she has a safe pregnancy. That the father of her son, will be there to support her - and not just financially, but physically, mentally and emotionally.
I thank God that I'm blessed with a boyfriend who supports me... looks out for me... cares for me... shares with me... worries for me... helps me... respects me... values me.
I couldn't ask for anything more!
Labels: anthropology, boyfriend, food, God, marriage, reddot, relationships, sex
10:08 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
♥ After Life - the book
I've read some moving books before, i rarely cry though.
Maybe it's because i always knew they were fiction. not real stories. they didn't actually happen.
This book is different. Being somewhat forced to read it for my anthropology course... I'm currently on the 170th page out of the 178...
Today i was reading it in a lecture that i wasn't suppose to be in... i was taken back by the 'truth' i guess you could say. I closed my eyes and i start to pray. One day... i hope to make a difference in the lives of people like Beto.
We live our life, oblivious to how others... in another country live... to how they live.
I guess sometimes I'm so absorbed by my life. and what surrounds me. that i don't look further than that. I don't realize what goes on - that my eyes cannot see.
Belows an extract from the book ( a part of it that is "PG" friendly - as most of the book is not =/ )... it doesn't capture the whole book, but it affected me... in a way that i cannot describe.
Wednesday, 17 August
Construction workers and the police were beating some people who live in the Rua da Aurora. Two policemen were hitting a pregnant woman.
I went up to the policeman and told him that the woman was pregnant, but even so he didn't stop hitting her. I told him I was going to report him on the radio, but still he continued to hit her. He got angry at me and when he finally stopped, it was to strike me. He hit me twice in the face and told me to disappear from that place. I was afraid and I went away. The passersby were revolted by what they were seeing, but they couldn't do anything.
When the men were finished with what they were doing, they went away, but they threatened to come back at night, to settle scores with me and with the other girls who stay around there. That night the girl lost the baby she was expecting.
Maybe it's because i always knew they were fiction. not real stories. they didn't actually happen.
This book is different. Being somewhat forced to read it for my anthropology course... I'm currently on the 170th page out of the 178...
Today i was reading it in a lecture that i wasn't suppose to be in... i was taken back by the 'truth' i guess you could say. I closed my eyes and i start to pray. One day... i hope to make a difference in the lives of people like Beto.
We live our life, oblivious to how others... in another country live... to how they live.
I guess sometimes I'm so absorbed by my life. and what surrounds me. that i don't look further than that. I don't realize what goes on - that my eyes cannot see.
Belows an extract from the book ( a part of it that is "PG" friendly - as most of the book is not =/ )... it doesn't capture the whole book, but it affected me... in a way that i cannot describe.
Wednesday, 17 August
Construction workers and the police were beating some people who live in the Rua da Aurora. Two policemen were hitting a pregnant woman.
I went up to the policeman and told him that the woman was pregnant, but even so he didn't stop hitting her. I told him I was going to report him on the radio, but still he continued to hit her. He got angry at me and when he finally stopped, it was to strike me. He hit me twice in the face and told me to disappear from that place. I was afraid and I went away. The passersby were revolted by what they were seeing, but they couldn't do anything.
When the men were finished with what they were doing, they went away, but they threatened to come back at night, to settle scores with me and with the other girls who stay around there. That night the girl lost the baby she was expecting.
Labels: anthropology, book
7:38 PM
♥ things2do/reminders/note2self
Things To Do / Reminders / Note To Self
READ ANTH BOOK!!!!!!!
do ANTH ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!!!
ilecture anth lecture (tuesdays)
ilecture psyc lecture (wednesdays)
stop spending money
pay parents back (books money that i used, phone bill, camera - maybe)
visit a doctor abt the vomiting
convert excel file to older version and check out work timetable for looksmart
stop shopping =/
stop spending o_____O
exercise more
sleep more
oh btw. i got a felix the cat top today! from myer xD for $6.25 or something. gah! i miss myer sales <3...
oh oh. and smiggle sale is <33333... cept they ran outta the pens i was hoping to stock up on. all wellssss... i got some good bargains =D cute stuff too!
jewellery shops - usually im a big sucker when it comes to jewellery sales. but i attempted to resist walking into them today. i did end up walkin to goldmark though, after my dad called me and told me he was going to be late. wasnt really anything great tbh xD looks like im getting better at resisting 8)
my sister & sister in law's bday coming up ... this weekend.... =/ will need to figure out what im getting them... uhoh. $_$
mmm it's heating up over the next week. back to shorts xD cept i must admit, at 645am... its way too cold for shorts! sigh.
READ ANTH BOOK!!!!!!!
do ANTH ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!!!
ilecture anth lecture (tuesdays)
ilecture psyc lecture (wednesdays)
stop spending money
pay parents back (books money that i used, phone bill, camera - maybe)
visit a doctor abt the vomiting
convert excel file to older version and check out work timetable for looksmart
stop shopping =/
stop spending o_____O
exercise more
sleep more
oh btw. i got a felix the cat top today! from myer xD for $6.25 or something. gah! i miss myer sales <3...
oh oh. and smiggle sale is <33333... cept they ran outta the pens i was hoping to stock up on. all wellssss... i got some good bargains =D cute stuff too!
jewellery shops - usually im a big sucker when it comes to jewellery sales. but i attempted to resist walking into them today. i did end up walkin to goldmark though, after my dad called me and told me he was going to be late. wasnt really anything great tbh xD looks like im getting better at resisting 8)
my sister & sister in law's bday coming up ... this weekend.... =/ will need to figure out what im getting them... uhoh. $_$
mmm it's heating up over the next week. back to shorts xD cept i must admit, at 645am... its way too cold for shorts! sigh.
Forecast for Thursday
Fine. Moderate to fresh E'ly winds, easing late morning
and shifting S/SW in the afternoon.
Precis: Fine.
City: Min 16 Max 32
Friday Fine. Hot. Min 19 Max 35
Saturday Fine. Partly cloudy. Min 15 Max 29
Sunday Fine. Windy. Min 14 Max 28
Monday Fine. Min 15 Max 31
Tuesday Fine. Partly cloudy. Min 15 Max 27
Wednesday Fine. Min 12 Max 28
Labels: anthropology, money, sales, shopping, things2do, uni, weather
5:30 PM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
♥ chem test, gender & sexuality
70%
ouch!
its fustrating because it was silly mistakes. and i realized my mistakes after...
i thought i was okay. i checked my answers twice. i probably shouldnt have walked out earlier. and checked it a few more times. then maybe i would have picked up on my errors.
but i must admit, at least i knew the stuff. it wasn't like i was fluking anything or making stuff up. i knew the content. pretty good considering i usually leech of my graphics calculator (hehe @ chem in yr 12)
anyways. today in my anth tute we were talking about sex and gender. u know? babies born that are neither male or female... and they get operations (and the parents pick which gender)...
but another thing that came up was gender. and david was saying how when ur child ur very influenced by ur social context.... and i totally agree. u dress up ur kids. u give them the toys to play with. u make them learn their maths, or u let them play outside.
but a girl in our tute totally disagreed that ur gender (gender being ur sexuality in a non-biological way) is not influenced by ur social conditioning.
i guess it comes down to the debate of whether its "natural" or whether its "made" i guess. She was mentioning this experiment about 3 year olds who are "girls" but blatently refuse to wear girls clothing. and would only were boys clothes.
now seriously. u cant tell me a 3 year old can determine it's "gender" by refusing to wear clothes. geez. they were probably influenced by their environment and the people around them. maybe she saw boys wearing shorts and shirts. and she liked it. maybe she wanted to be like them. just because she refuses to wear the dress, does not mean she's determined her sexuality.
anyways. lots of people believe that its science and nature that determines whether ur more femine or masculine. and yeah i guess i could agree to an extent, ur hormones etc do play a role. but i guess they also brought up the point of "choice".. coming out of the closet.. etc.
but seriously? to think its purely based on biological reasons just seems absurd to me. a THREE YEAR OLD? there are so many flaws in that experiment, i dont know where to begin.
on another note. this 'after life' book im reading for anth... i just reached the part where he/she (biologically a he, but is a transvestite) is remembering his past.. and how he was raped by his stepfather etc....
argh. im only on page 88. and there's 178 pages altogether. and the stupid assignment is due friday. but im working thurs night. meaning i MUST finish the book 2moro.. and must at least get most of it done 2moro......
>_______________>
ouch!
its fustrating because it was silly mistakes. and i realized my mistakes after...
i thought i was okay. i checked my answers twice. i probably shouldnt have walked out earlier. and checked it a few more times. then maybe i would have picked up on my errors.
but i must admit, at least i knew the stuff. it wasn't like i was fluking anything or making stuff up. i knew the content. pretty good considering i usually leech of my graphics calculator (hehe @ chem in yr 12)
anyways. today in my anth tute we were talking about sex and gender. u know? babies born that are neither male or female... and they get operations (and the parents pick which gender)...
but another thing that came up was gender. and david was saying how when ur child ur very influenced by ur social context.... and i totally agree. u dress up ur kids. u give them the toys to play with. u make them learn their maths, or u let them play outside.
but a girl in our tute totally disagreed that ur gender (gender being ur sexuality in a non-biological way) is not influenced by ur social conditioning.
i guess it comes down to the debate of whether its "natural" or whether its "made" i guess. She was mentioning this experiment about 3 year olds who are "girls" but blatently refuse to wear girls clothing. and would only were boys clothes.
now seriously. u cant tell me a 3 year old can determine it's "gender" by refusing to wear clothes. geez. they were probably influenced by their environment and the people around them. maybe she saw boys wearing shorts and shirts. and she liked it. maybe she wanted to be like them. just because she refuses to wear the dress, does not mean she's determined her sexuality.
anyways. lots of people believe that its science and nature that determines whether ur more femine or masculine. and yeah i guess i could agree to an extent, ur hormones etc do play a role. but i guess they also brought up the point of "choice".. coming out of the closet.. etc.
but seriously? to think its purely based on biological reasons just seems absurd to me. a THREE YEAR OLD? there are so many flaws in that experiment, i dont know where to begin.
on another note. this 'after life' book im reading for anth... i just reached the part where he/she (biologically a he, but is a transvestite) is remembering his past.. and how he was raped by his stepfather etc....
argh. im only on page 88. and there's 178 pages altogether. and the stupid assignment is due friday. but im working thurs night. meaning i MUST finish the book 2moro.. and must at least get most of it done 2moro......
>_______________>
Labels: anthropology, chemistry, gender, uni, work
10:13 PM
