Saturday, August 28, 2010
♥ birthing kit workshop
well the birthing kit workshop turned out well :)
at the beginning it was kinda messed up because i accidently told everyone the wrong address *oopss*
and then i also guided them to park in the restricted parking bays T___T which was kinda josh's fault because i saw him park there so i just started guiding people to park there too
but yeah, there was a great turn out from the facebook event i put up - around 18 people! we finished before the two hours was up.
so we made 1000 birthing kids that will help provide the 7 cleans for a clean birth
The United Nations (WHO) estimated in 1996 that 585,000 women died annually in childbirth. Developing countries accounted for 99% of these deaths. For every woman who dies in childbirth, another 30 women incur injuries and infections - many of which are often painful, disabling, embarrassing and lifelong.
ZONTA BIRTHING KITS provide for a clean birth that may decrease the risk of death from infection and bleeding.
60 million women give birth each year with the assistance of a Traditional Birth Attendant or no assistance at all. These women need a birthing kit.
HOW DO BIRTHING KITS WORK?
A Birthing Kit works by providing the 7 cleans for a clean birth:
SEVEN CLEANS
1. Clean birth site - preventing delivery onto the floor
2. Clean hands - to prevent the birth attendant transmitting germs to mother and baby
3. Clean ties - to prevent bleeding from the umbilical cord for mother and baby.
4. Clean razor - to reduce infection caused by other implements
5. Clean gauze - to wipe away birth canal secretions from the eyes, which decreases future eye infections
6. Clean umbilical cord - washing and drying the stumps prevents infection
7. Clean perineum
60 million women give birth each year with the assistance of a Traditional Birth Attendant or no assistance at all. These women need a birthing kit.
HOW DO BIRTHING KITS WORK?
A Birthing Kit works by providing the 7 cleans for a clean birth:
SEVEN CLEANS
1. Clean birth site - preventing delivery onto the floor
2. Clean hands - to prevent the birth attendant transmitting germs to mother and baby
3. Clean ties - to prevent bleeding from the umbilical cord for mother and baby.
4. Clean razor - to reduce infection caused by other implements
5. Clean gauze - to wipe away birth canal secretions from the eyes, which decreases future eye infections
6. Clean umbilical cord - washing and drying the stumps prevents infection
7. Clean perineum
the kits will be going to ethiopia this year. which has a kinda a soft spot in my heart, being such a poor nation
so yeah really happy with that :)
because i think that alot of community service work is stuff like fundraising money.. where as this was more hands on stuff!
and i'm quite amazed at how much interested was generated with the event... definitely going to be asking maybe the lions and rotary clubs if they neeed a hand for some of their projects (especially if its a hands on project)
but yes, the zonta club is awesome. a great bunch of ladies doing some fantastic work for women around the world.
11:58 PM
Friday, November 13, 2009
♥ rage @ principal
there are several things about the following article that just pisses me off.
my high school principal wrote it august last year..
and seriously? IT'S ALL WRONG!
okay, first of all, it's zonta award. not ward...
secondly, my sister's name is dilys. not delys......
thirdly, it is the zonta club of the perth northern suburbs.
fourtly, it was not a speech competition. in fact the competition process involved a forty minute interview and an application form with lots of questions about advancing the status of women worldwide.
next, the speech was simply so the rest of the club could get to know us - it had no part in the competition process... so no, it did not 'clinch' my position as winner..
actually, at club level the prize was $500US. and it went on to district level where the prize was $1000US, not national level with $3000US.... -.-"
at least she got the date right. and she probably copied and pasted the first paragraph from their website.
anyways my point is. throughout my high school life, i got very annoyed at my principal for several things. she wouldn't let me organise fundraising events, she wouldn't let me do this and that... she would just be a butt sometimes. she cared highly about school reputation... but how about the students? like actually caring about how they are and stuff. not just claiming all the glory when one student achieves something (and even then, not even having a good understanding of it)
so anyways. thats my rage for the day. i think my principal cared too much about her reputation and the school's reputation... she refused to let go of her pride for the benefit of her students. and i believe that principals should do whats in the best interest of their students... not of their own reputation.
on an ending note... TWOLA day today.
Labels: high school, twloha, zonta
10:11 AM
Monday, November 2, 2009
♥ kay poustie
earlier today i discussed the topic of death with josh.
we talked about what it would be like losing someone we loved. how we would handle it.
we talked about how we don't fear death, but we do fear a painful death.
later, i checked my email and recieved the news of the passing away of kay poustie.
a zontian. a lady i had engaged in quite a bit of contact with, through my YWPAA journey.
she was a wonderful judge... she even called me to tell me i was one of the three international district 23 finalist, even though she was in queensland at the time...
and again she called me, after i found out i had won... telling me she had knew all along but couldn't tell me.
i knew she had been unwell, she was unable to make it to the night that i went back to the club to talk.
that time i went for coffee with alison, she was meant to join us, but her husband called saying that she was still asleep, and he didn't want to make her. dawn joined us instead.
sure, she wasn't a big part of my life. sure, i didn't know her favourite colour, the kinds of clothes she liked to wear...
but you know.. as little of a role she played in my life... it was still a part of my life.
and i feel really fortunate to have met such an amazing woman in my life...
and it makes me appreciate the people in my life. not just the one's who play a big role... but every single person, however small their role is.
7:39 PM
Saturday, October 10, 2009
♥ random
i love my mum.
she made me breakfast today. my favourite. bacon and eggs.
this is a 600mL bottle of coke.
that i bought on my flight to ballarat for zonta. it was $4.50 at the airport. i didn't know until i was already at the counter paying for it. and i never wanted to drink it. because it was so jippy so it's just been sitting in the fridge. but today i finished it.
note to self: claim that free coke zero i won at uni.
off i go to workkkkkk~
Jeremiah 29 vs 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29 vs 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
12:22 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
♥ ballarat
- ballarat is a really cold place. really cold. i don't think i've ever been anyone colder. i can't imagine what snow will be like.
- when eating at formal dinners, your bread is located on your left. the one of the right is for the person on your right, who happened to be the district governor for me.
- old ladies (i'm talking 50s-70s) know how to dance.
- older couples are cute. especially when they get up to slow dance to a live band.
- new york new york is a song that brought back many memories from tour, when the 17 piece seb big band played it live.
- i've been living on 5-6 hours sleep for the past three days.
- waking up at 6am to absolute FREEZING cold, makes it 10x harder to get outta bed. but i had a plane to catch.
- the zonta clubs are full of warm friendly women.
- if ur not prepared for speeches, just be yourself, like your having a conversation with someone. show them your personality. it works.
- i am still feeling groggy.
- lack of sleep + cold/flu + getting pms + long and busy weekend = a very sick me.
- still haven't completely finished packing. feel like going back to sleep in fact.
- i hardly took any pictures. it was way to awkward to actually get up and go around to take pics. so i didn't. regrettably.
- sigh, i feel like crap.
Labels: awards, holidays, sick, sleep, travel, worn out, zonta
4:26 PM
Friday, September 25, 2009
♥ busybusy, 12hrs til VIC.
i'll be flying to ballarat in less than twelve hours.
i've sorta packed. but it's not easy. 7kg. for 10degree weather, i mean yes, okay, i''ll be there for like 3 days. but still. i need to pack formal suit like gear for the conference during the day. as well as fancy dressy type stuff for the gala dinner at night. pjs with a jumper. and warm stuff for general wear.
gah, i'm struggling. i've never been a good packer.
i'm bringing my laptop too, for the 4hr+ flight. to do my speech and powerpoint presentation. hmm. i'm so last minute sigh!
finally got the courage to ask the girl at work about her pregnancy, only to get the sad news she terminated because the doctor said something about her small body size not being good enough or something =[ ouch it hurt hearing that.
i feel like i'm getting slightly sick, feverish almost. runny nose is A for Annoying.
today was fun. we ended up going for dimsum. gosh we ate a lot. lotsa oily stuff too. felt really sick after, but it took a while to kick in. tea really helped. tried that vanilla chai that ry loves. and went home and had some lipton. oil in body from food + nice yummy warm tea = feeling so much better.
oh, went to visit the admissions center. lady told me abt bonded and even gave me a brochure. it's not as bad as many make it sound ahaha. and like it doesnt effect ur chances of getting non bonded if u stick bonded as 2nd pref. so yeah she totally got me convinced, i've changed it on tisc already. but whether i'll accept or not, i've still got a few months to decide.
she also told me average for interviews was 90 for umat. and average gpa for entry was arnd 6.3
hmm. i'm sitting on a 86 and 6.125 (sem 1)
must avoid gpa from going down, even though this semester is so much harder.
must be strategic and try to get 75+ for each subject, then i can get that 6.3
will have to really hit the books when i get back from ballarat.
speaking of ballarat. the minimum goes down to 3 DEGREES. THREE?!
and maximum TEN!
i am going to freeze my butt off.
i've sorta packed. but it's not easy. 7kg. for 10degree weather, i mean yes, okay, i''ll be there for like 3 days. but still. i need to pack formal suit like gear for the conference during the day. as well as fancy dressy type stuff for the gala dinner at night. pjs with a jumper. and warm stuff for general wear.
gah, i'm struggling. i've never been a good packer.
i'm bringing my laptop too, for the 4hr+ flight. to do my speech and powerpoint presentation. hmm. i'm so last minute sigh!
finally got the courage to ask the girl at work about her pregnancy, only to get the sad news she terminated because the doctor said something about her small body size not being good enough or something =[ ouch it hurt hearing that.
i feel like i'm getting slightly sick, feverish almost. runny nose is A for Annoying.
today was fun. we ended up going for dimsum. gosh we ate a lot. lotsa oily stuff too. felt really sick after, but it took a while to kick in. tea really helped. tried that vanilla chai that ry loves. and went home and had some lipton. oil in body from food + nice yummy warm tea = feeling so much better.
oh, went to visit the admissions center. lady told me abt bonded and even gave me a brochure. it's not as bad as many make it sound ahaha. and like it doesnt effect ur chances of getting non bonded if u stick bonded as 2nd pref. so yeah she totally got me convinced, i've changed it on tisc already. but whether i'll accept or not, i've still got a few months to decide.
she also told me average for interviews was 90 for umat. and average gpa for entry was arnd 6.3
hmm. i'm sitting on a 86 and 6.125 (sem 1)
must avoid gpa from going down, even though this semester is so much harder.
must be strategic and try to get 75+ for each subject, then i can get that 6.3
will have to really hit the books when i get back from ballarat.
speaking of ballarat. the minimum goes down to 3 DEGREES. THREE?!
and maximum TEN!
i am going to freeze my butt off.
Labels: abortion, boyfriend, dimsum, eee pc, food, gpa, holidays, media, umat, uni, weather, work, zonta
1:18 AM
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
♥ study. slack. speech.
well what can i say.
i've been uber slacking. exams are going to bite me in the butt when they come around nxt month.
i should stop making excuses. use my time more wisely. stop watching so much tv.
flying to ballarat soon. still need to write my speech. still need to pack.
don't really know what to write to be honest.
still waiting for umat results. and my boyfriend's eagerness about it... is slightly disturbing.
i should stop procrastinating and go study.
i've been uber slacking. exams are going to bite me in the butt when they come around nxt month.
i should stop making excuses. use my time more wisely. stop watching so much tv.
flying to ballarat soon. still need to write my speech. still need to pack.
don't really know what to write to be honest.
still waiting for umat results. and my boyfriend's eagerness about it... is slightly disturbing.
i should stop procrastinating and go study.
Labels: boyfriend, procrastination, slack, study, umat, uni, zonta
11:12 PM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
♥ s e v e n
after a full day at uni, i was exhausted, because i didnt fall asleep til after 2am.
it's the last day today. i 'bumped' into him at the anhb lab place. i actually had a purpose of being there, and it had to be at that time too. but then again, i dont think i would have gone out of my way to "avoid" him anyways x)
we also talked on the phone for a bit about tomorrow. so yes. really, its just been getting slacker as the days progress, whoops >__>. but i'm feeling rather satisfied from this break. it's given me the space that i needed. and it's helped me make up my mind abt a few things. and i'll keep reminding myself that its a good option to go when things aren't going well.
i have a pretty cool surprise set for tomorrow. but i don't know how 'cool' it is anymore. hopefully it all works out. i'm quite excited.
i have realized i have no money. actually wait, i do have money. but not as much as i did a month or so ago. i shall have to spend wisely. esp since i'm not working so much anymoree due to weddings/holidays etc coming up...
i leave for ballarat in like ONE week. i didn't realize it was so soon. oh dear. should really begin speech writing.
human bio quiz nxt wk, it's on like SIX topics, compared to the usual two. arghhh!
marks all come out nxt wk (except psyc report) for the midsems/assignments... hopefully that will give an indication of how i'm going, and what subs i need to work on the most.
anywayssss, less than ten hours to go. i sound like a kid going to their first bday party :) excited much?
it's the last day today. i 'bumped' into him at the anhb lab place. i actually had a purpose of being there, and it had to be at that time too. but then again, i dont think i would have gone out of my way to "avoid" him anyways x)
we also talked on the phone for a bit about tomorrow. so yes. really, its just been getting slacker as the days progress, whoops >__>. but i'm feeling rather satisfied from this break. it's given me the space that i needed. and it's helped me make up my mind abt a few things. and i'll keep reminding myself that its a good option to go when things aren't going well.
i have a pretty cool surprise set for tomorrow. but i don't know how 'cool' it is anymore. hopefully it all works out. i'm quite excited.
i have realized i have no money. actually wait, i do have money. but not as much as i did a month or so ago. i shall have to spend wisely. esp since i'm not working so much anymoree due to weddings/holidays etc coming up...
i leave for ballarat in like ONE week. i didn't realize it was so soon. oh dear. should really begin speech writing.
human bio quiz nxt wk, it's on like SIX topics, compared to the usual two. arghhh!
marks all come out nxt wk (except psyc report) for the midsems/assignments... hopefully that will give an indication of how i'm going, and what subs i need to work on the most.
anywayssss, less than ten hours to go. i sound like a kid going to their first bday party :) excited much?
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, exams, hbio, money, psyc, sleep, zonta
11:59 PM
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
♥ uni kicks me up the butt
gahz0rs.
*destresses*
uni related :
hbio quiz tomorrow (4%) on the urinary and digestive systems.
hbio essay due next monday (15%) on familial hypercholesterolemia.
uh. remind me again why i'm taking human bio?!
stats test next thursday (10%)
psyc report (20%) due 14th sept - after mid sem break
chem mid semester exam (30%) also on the 14th of sept
another stat test in week 11 (10%)
non uni related:
ev & kelvins wedding = 29th aug - still not sure if im going...
tracy's hens = 5th sept
father's day = 6th sept - zmgsh?!
asia cocktail = 18th sept
tracy's wedding = 19th sept - WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR?!?!?! what for daytime AND what for nighttime???!
VIC = melb/ballarat for zonta on the 25th sept - 27th sept
note to self : APPLY FOR TISC by 30th sept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*destresses*
uni related :
hbio quiz tomorrow (4%) on the urinary and digestive systems.
hbio essay due next monday (15%) on familial hypercholesterolemia.
uh. remind me again why i'm taking human bio?!
stats test next thursday (10%)
psyc report (20%) due 14th sept - after mid sem break
chem mid semester exam (30%) also on the 14th of sept
another stat test in week 11 (10%)
non uni related:
ev & kelvins wedding = 29th aug - still not sure if im going...
tracy's hens = 5th sept
father's day = 6th sept - zmgsh?!
asia cocktail = 18th sept
tracy's wedding = 19th sept - WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR?!?!?! what for daytime AND what for nighttime???!
VIC = melb/ballarat for zonta on the 25th sept - 27th sept
note to self : APPLY FOR TISC by 30th sept!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: assignments, busy, family, outing, uni, weddings, zonta
8:32 PM
Sunday, August 9, 2009
♥ six months
you can do some pretty awesome stuff with toothpicks
but they can also be pretty dangerous
yesterday i was walking through my front tv room in the dark when i stepped on a toothpick which someone stabbed a hole into my foot. originally i thought i had stepped on a needle, but really it was a toothpick. and it hurt. and bled. and it still kinda hurts as i walked today.
it's been just over a week since my parents have been away, and another week to go. it's been a struggle. really. i was telling andy today that i'm going to live with my parents until im married. i rely on them immensely for food, washing and transport. things that are so time consuming and difficult to live without. really, i heart my parents. and appreciate them so much more.
yesterday was a pretty good day. except for the fact i missed my bus (because alison called with my flight details) and i ended up walking to the shops.. which took a good half an hr.. ahh gg. it reminded me of the days that me and nig use to walk to school because it thought i couldnt do it. like 45min walk! lol.
well today marks 6 months in. i think we're past the whole "winning each other over" stage and into the "putting up with each other" haha. i dont know if its a good thing, because now he's not afraid of farting in front of me -.-" and its kinda ... ... disgusting! lol.
i guess you could say i'm beginning to feel more comfortable around his family, we have good laughs sometimes, but its still awkward at other times. i still kinda feel like they dont think i'm good enough for him. i like talking to his brothers though, because now that my bro is off and married, putting up with a sister just isnt the same.
his household is very different to mine though, in terms of how they do things, chores, dinner at the table - altogether... i guess they're bit more traditionally asian than my family i rekon. even though my family is still asian. hopefully our parents will get along. i think our dads will. idk abt mums though. i can envision it now. how awkward if they both called each other by their names (because they're both named cynthia ahaha)
anyways, back to josh. i think i know most of his bad habits/flaws already. he cracks his knuckles - no matter how many times i tell him off for doing so... he yawns at church without putting his hand over his mouth! he bullies his little brother (oh gosh, reminds me of when my brother use to bully me). haha theres more. but i think we are both continously growing, continously learning. and we want to be better people. and we can help each other do that, but pointing out certain aspects of our personality or our lives that needs improvement. i think its great that we can be so honest with each other. and i think thats pretty important.
i must admit, i rekon we fight a lot. well not fight, but maybe "disagree". haha. we argue. we're both stubborn. maybe even too prideful to drop a point at times. But i think we're both learning to be more understanding, less argumentative, and more loving.
And for me, i have the difficult task of becoming more independent. which wouldn't have been difficult for me a year ago. but because he's such a integrated part of my life... i've been way too dependent on him. hopefully its just a stage. and i'll be out of it soon. geez, i never thought i'd be like i am now haha its so bad.
back to being two upright standing cans.
but they can also be pretty dangerousyesterday i was walking through my front tv room in the dark when i stepped on a toothpick which someone stabbed a hole into my foot. originally i thought i had stepped on a needle, but really it was a toothpick. and it hurt. and bled. and it still kinda hurts as i walked today.
it's been just over a week since my parents have been away, and another week to go. it's been a struggle. really. i was telling andy today that i'm going to live with my parents until im married. i rely on them immensely for food, washing and transport. things that are so time consuming and difficult to live without. really, i heart my parents. and appreciate them so much more.
yesterday was a pretty good day. except for the fact i missed my bus (because alison called with my flight details) and i ended up walking to the shops.. which took a good half an hr.. ahh gg. it reminded me of the days that me and nig use to walk to school because it thought i couldnt do it. like 45min walk! lol.
well today marks 6 months in. i think we're past the whole "winning each other over" stage and into the "putting up with each other" haha. i dont know if its a good thing, because now he's not afraid of farting in front of me -.-" and its kinda ... ... disgusting! lol.
i guess you could say i'm beginning to feel more comfortable around his family, we have good laughs sometimes, but its still awkward at other times. i still kinda feel like they dont think i'm good enough for him. i like talking to his brothers though, because now that my bro is off and married, putting up with a sister just isnt the same.
his household is very different to mine though, in terms of how they do things, chores, dinner at the table - altogether... i guess they're bit more traditionally asian than my family i rekon. even though my family is still asian. hopefully our parents will get along. i think our dads will. idk abt mums though. i can envision it now. how awkward if they both called each other by their names (because they're both named cynthia ahaha)
anyways, back to josh. i think i know most of his bad habits/flaws already. he cracks his knuckles - no matter how many times i tell him off for doing so... he yawns at church without putting his hand over his mouth! he bullies his little brother (oh gosh, reminds me of when my brother use to bully me). haha theres more. but i think we are both continously growing, continously learning. and we want to be better people. and we can help each other do that, but pointing out certain aspects of our personality or our lives that needs improvement. i think its great that we can be so honest with each other. and i think thats pretty important.
i must admit, i rekon we fight a lot. well not fight, but maybe "disagree". haha. we argue. we're both stubborn. maybe even too prideful to drop a point at times. But i think we're both learning to be more understanding, less argumentative, and more loving.And for me, i have the difficult task of becoming more independent. which wouldn't have been difficult for me a year ago. but because he's such a integrated part of my life... i've been way too dependent on him. hopefully its just a stage. and i'll be out of it soon. geez, i never thought i'd be like i am now haha its so bad.
back to being two upright standing cans.
Labels: boyfriend, family, pain, parents, relationships, walks, zonta
1:26 PM
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
♥ A Celebration of Young Women - Zonta Gala Dinner
Today I returned to the Zonta Club of the Perth Northern Suburbs, as last years club winner of the Young Women in Public Affairs Award for 2008, and this years International District 23 winner =)
You know, when I found out I had won International Districts, my heart slightly fell, as I felt that I didn't deserve it... that I wasn't good enough for it. I was scared of returning back to the club - I wasn't sure what I was going to say. It kinda felt like "Hey! Thanks for picking me as your winner and giving me great prizes and $1k... and yeah you know all that stuff i said about wanting to become a doctor, i still want to. I just sorta failed last year. So I guess you guys picked a failure for your winner...But hey! It's all good."
I could have wrote a speech, on simply what they asked - my experiences over the past year. I could have chosen not to go deeper. I could have even covered up by saying that I want to do post grad med. andd.. i want my degree in psyc first. But the truth is I missed the mark. I wasn't good enough.
I actually wrote this speech in the car... on the way home from uni... the day I had to present it. So excuse the bad english, grammer etc... But I feel it captures feelings that I don't often share, yet have felt in the past year.
Happy Reading
s2 ditz
Good Evening Ladies & Gentleman
A year ago I stood here and gave a talk on my role model, Doctor Fiona Woods. This amazing mother of six impacted the lives of many. She changed lives. She made a difference. She made her footprint on this world count. It is no wonder why she was named the most trusted person. She’s simple amazing.
As I stand here today, I think of the women who have stood before me, here, at this very podium. And probably shared stories of success, inspiration and accomplishment. Rarely do we hear the stories of failure, setbacks and complications.
When people think of Dr Fiona Woods, they see strong, trusted, highly recognised and inspirational woman. We rarely hear of the days where she might have woke up to a crying child at 1am in the morning, and wondered how she was going to wake up again at 5 to get to work in time. We rarely hear of those days where a careless mistake may have set her back weeks in medical research.
I think we all reach points of our lives, where things do not go the way we had originally planned. To be honest, I am at that point. But let me share with you my story. My story of perseverance, in hope that I can encourage every single one of you. And maybe even challenge you.
I have a heart for helping people. It is my passion. My dream is to become a doctor. To be able to travel to third world countries and make my footprint in this world. To then come back and stabilize my career as a paediatrician, while starting my own family.
September, last year I received my results for the UMAT, the undergraduate medicine admission test, and found out that I had fell short of the top fifteen percentile I needed to secure an interview. This meant that I was unable to get into undergraduate medicine for 2009.
When I received my TEE results, I had to make a choice. I couldn’t do medicine because of my UMAT score. But I had the marks to pursue a degree in Engineering or Law. This was a big hurdle for me. My dreams had not completely shattered, but it was certainly not going the way I had hoped or even planned. I had to ask myself if I could spend the rest of my life doing something that I may have had the brainability to, but didn’t have the heart for.
The answer to that was no. I couldn’t let go of my dreams. I had to change my perception, and I had to start seeing this situation not as a dead end but as an obstacle - a setback. And just simply that. My dreams on hold. But not shattered.
Six Months ago I began my first year of university, doing a Bachelor of Science at UWA. My first challenge was finding my first class, which was probably purposely placed on the other side of campus, just to confuse us first year students. My next challenge was too understand my lecturer despite his very strong accent... and the challenge after that? Probably staying awake in those lectures.
Okay, I’m only joking. I have some fantastic lecturers, some better than others, but I have realized how important my high school teachers were on my schooling life. Teachers, who would encourage you, support you and help you. This of course is slightly harder for lecturers in university, especially when you have eight hundred psychology students in one class.
The past six months have had its challenges. I’ve had to make some very important decisions. Like deciding to get up in the cold morning with no daylight savings to wait at the bus stop at 6:45am to get to uni in time for my 8am class. Or... sleeping in and listening to my lecture online in the comfort of my nice warm bed. Technology is amazing really. And you really learn to appreciate it once you hit Uni.
On a more serious note. Exactly one week ago, I retook the UMAT, in hope to secure an interview for one of the fifteen places UWA offers non high school leavers for its undergraduate medicine course.
For those who are not familiar with the UMAT, it is not a science or medical based test that you can study for. It contains Logical reasoning, Problem Solving, Non-Verbal reasoning... things that you can’t study for. I can happily say that this year I went into that exam room more prepared than I did last year, and I came out of that exam room a lot more confident than last year. I won’t know the results til another month or so down the track... nor will I find out if I got one of those fifteen spots til end of this year... but I do know that despite what happens, I will get there one day. However long it may take.
Every day is a new day. Everyday has its own challenges. Some are new challenges... Last Friday, I saw my first cadaver. At 2 o’clock this afternoon, I dissected a pig’s heart in my human biology lab. Some are not so new challenges.... like staying awake in class or deciphering the scribble your lecturer leaves on the board...
Today I challenge you to follow your dreams. To persevere. To not give up.
It sounds cliché... I know. But if Dr Fiona Woods decided to give up that day she had a setback in her medical research... what would have happened to the hundreds of people wounded in the Bali Bombings in 2002.
Everyone will have their setbacks in life. But I urge you not to let turn your setback into a dead end.
And who knows... in a few years time, maybe I’ll be able to return to this very podium, and share with you my story of success. Inspiration. And accomplishment.
Thankyou
You know, when I found out I had won International Districts, my heart slightly fell, as I felt that I didn't deserve it... that I wasn't good enough for it. I was scared of returning back to the club - I wasn't sure what I was going to say. It kinda felt like "Hey! Thanks for picking me as your winner and giving me great prizes and $1k... and yeah you know all that stuff i said about wanting to become a doctor, i still want to. I just sorta failed last year. So I guess you guys picked a failure for your winner...But hey! It's all good."
I could have wrote a speech, on simply what they asked - my experiences over the past year. I could have chosen not to go deeper. I could have even covered up by saying that I want to do post grad med. andd.. i want my degree in psyc first. But the truth is I missed the mark. I wasn't good enough.
I actually wrote this speech in the car... on the way home from uni... the day I had to present it. So excuse the bad english, grammer etc... But I feel it captures feelings that I don't often share, yet have felt in the past year.
Happy Reading
s2 ditz
Good Evening Ladies & Gentleman
A year ago I stood here and gave a talk on my role model, Doctor Fiona Woods. This amazing mother of six impacted the lives of many. She changed lives. She made a difference. She made her footprint on this world count. It is no wonder why she was named the most trusted person. She’s simple amazing.
As I stand here today, I think of the women who have stood before me, here, at this very podium. And probably shared stories of success, inspiration and accomplishment. Rarely do we hear the stories of failure, setbacks and complications.
When people think of Dr Fiona Woods, they see strong, trusted, highly recognised and inspirational woman. We rarely hear of the days where she might have woke up to a crying child at 1am in the morning, and wondered how she was going to wake up again at 5 to get to work in time. We rarely hear of those days where a careless mistake may have set her back weeks in medical research.
I think we all reach points of our lives, where things do not go the way we had originally planned. To be honest, I am at that point. But let me share with you my story. My story of perseverance, in hope that I can encourage every single one of you. And maybe even challenge you.
I have a heart for helping people. It is my passion. My dream is to become a doctor. To be able to travel to third world countries and make my footprint in this world. To then come back and stabilize my career as a paediatrician, while starting my own family.
September, last year I received my results for the UMAT, the undergraduate medicine admission test, and found out that I had fell short of the top fifteen percentile I needed to secure an interview. This meant that I was unable to get into undergraduate medicine for 2009.
When I received my TEE results, I had to make a choice. I couldn’t do medicine because of my UMAT score. But I had the marks to pursue a degree in Engineering or Law. This was a big hurdle for me. My dreams had not completely shattered, but it was certainly not going the way I had hoped or even planned. I had to ask myself if I could spend the rest of my life doing something that I may have had the brainability to, but didn’t have the heart for.
The answer to that was no. I couldn’t let go of my dreams. I had to change my perception, and I had to start seeing this situation not as a dead end but as an obstacle - a setback. And just simply that. My dreams on hold. But not shattered.
Six Months ago I began my first year of university, doing a Bachelor of Science at UWA. My first challenge was finding my first class, which was probably purposely placed on the other side of campus, just to confuse us first year students. My next challenge was too understand my lecturer despite his very strong accent... and the challenge after that? Probably staying awake in those lectures.
Okay, I’m only joking. I have some fantastic lecturers, some better than others, but I have realized how important my high school teachers were on my schooling life. Teachers, who would encourage you, support you and help you. This of course is slightly harder for lecturers in university, especially when you have eight hundred psychology students in one class.
The past six months have had its challenges. I’ve had to make some very important decisions. Like deciding to get up in the cold morning with no daylight savings to wait at the bus stop at 6:45am to get to uni in time for my 8am class. Or... sleeping in and listening to my lecture online in the comfort of my nice warm bed. Technology is amazing really. And you really learn to appreciate it once you hit Uni.
On a more serious note. Exactly one week ago, I retook the UMAT, in hope to secure an interview for one of the fifteen places UWA offers non high school leavers for its undergraduate medicine course.
For those who are not familiar with the UMAT, it is not a science or medical based test that you can study for. It contains Logical reasoning, Problem Solving, Non-Verbal reasoning... things that you can’t study for. I can happily say that this year I went into that exam room more prepared than I did last year, and I came out of that exam room a lot more confident than last year. I won’t know the results til another month or so down the track... nor will I find out if I got one of those fifteen spots til end of this year... but I do know that despite what happens, I will get there one day. However long it may take.
Every day is a new day. Everyday has its own challenges. Some are new challenges... Last Friday, I saw my first cadaver. At 2 o’clock this afternoon, I dissected a pig’s heart in my human biology lab. Some are not so new challenges.... like staying awake in class or deciphering the scribble your lecturer leaves on the board...
Today I challenge you to follow your dreams. To persevere. To not give up.
It sounds cliché... I know. But if Dr Fiona Woods decided to give up that day she had a setback in her medical research... what would have happened to the hundreds of people wounded in the Bali Bombings in 2002.
Everyone will have their setbacks in life. But I urge you not to let turn your setback into a dead end.
And who knows... in a few years time, maybe I’ll be able to return to this very podium, and share with you my story of success. Inspiration. And accomplishment.
Thankyou
Labels: expectations, high school, medicine, umat, uni, zonta
11:25 PM
Monday, August 3, 2009
♥ no news is good news
there's a common saying that is
So i was listening to the news today, and the firs thing to catch my ear was the kyle and jacky o incident. actually at first the news segment was just about kyle being sacked by aussie idol... but i searched up the radio incident on google news... and was shocked. appalled. disgusting. horrified. angry.
Now. i must hit myself back into reality sometimes and realize that the media can sometimes exaggerate things... and that everything that is said, is usually biased.
But a mother who would question their 14yo child's sex life on a popular radio station while having previous knowledge of the fact that her daughter was raped when she was 12... it horrifies me.
And really. The girl who's family claims got severely poisoned by a KFC twister and ended up quadriplegic... really puts me off KFC.
A few hours later...
Oh another note, I've been sick. PMS has tired me out. My body is exhausted. Having my Mum away does not help. I want chicken and sweet corn soup =(
I'm behind in uni work (from taking week of uni for umat prep), again having parents away does not help. Gotta feed the dog... wash clothes... cook / make meals... gotta take the bus everywhere. It's very time consuming. Wow i rely on my parents a lot... ...
I guess you could say i'm struggling at the moment.
Zonta dinner is on Wed. oh gosh, i haven't even wrote a speech yet. I'm also disecting a pigs heart for Wed's lab. Again... not prepared for that either.
About 10 minutes ago, i was quite frustrated because my student didn't know the area of a triangle was half of base times height..... >___> argh im going crazy.
"no news is good news"I don't actually remember where and when exactly i first heard it. But today i am reminded of it.
So i was listening to the news today, and the firs thing to catch my ear was the kyle and jacky o incident. actually at first the news segment was just about kyle being sacked by aussie idol... but i searched up the radio incident on google news... and was shocked. appalled. disgusting. horrified. angry.
Now. i must hit myself back into reality sometimes and realize that the media can sometimes exaggerate things... and that everything that is said, is usually biased.
But a mother who would question their 14yo child's sex life on a popular radio station while having previous knowledge of the fact that her daughter was raped when she was 12... it horrifies me.
And really. The girl who's family claims got severely poisoned by a KFC twister and ended up quadriplegic... really puts me off KFC.
A few hours later...
Oh another note, I've been sick. PMS has tired me out. My body is exhausted. Having my Mum away does not help. I want chicken and sweet corn soup =(
I'm behind in uni work (from taking week of uni for umat prep), again having parents away does not help. Gotta feed the dog... wash clothes... cook / make meals... gotta take the bus everywhere. It's very time consuming. Wow i rely on my parents a lot... ...
I guess you could say i'm struggling at the moment.
Zonta dinner is on Wed. oh gosh, i haven't even wrote a speech yet. I'm also disecting a pigs heart for Wed's lab. Again... not prepared for that either.
About 10 minutes ago, i was quite frustrated because my student didn't know the area of a triangle was half of base times height..... >___> argh im going crazy.
6:10 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009
♥ first wk of sem 2
tomorrow will complete the first week of uni for semester two.
and wow, getting use to waking up relatively early, is a pain.
i've been late to every lecture (except wednesday, when i started at 10pm, rather than 9pm)
but really.. what is with traffic in the morning?! today was especially bad... =____=" took me more than an hr to get to uni... gah. i miss sleeping in already.
well my units this semester are... stats (maths), organic chemistry, psychology II, human bio II.
now.. i didn't do human bio I, so im slightly struggling with the terminology... and where everything is. everyone says that i'll be fine, that i'll catch up and that i'll get use to it, but to be honest i'm worried and wondering if i should switch / drop. i mean in one way, i know i can't avoid it - eventually i'll have to do it for bed. but in another way... i dont know if i can get a distinction for it, and if i can't it means my gpa will drop, which will lower my chances of transfering. so i'm sorta torn in two i guess.
psychology II is good, the lecturer is pretty good. interesting at least. since i've done semester one, i now know to study off the book (since the exam is based on book and not lectures, because most of the lectures aren't always relevant, but interesting and fun all the same)
stats... i heart maths. but so far stats has been pretty =/.. its basically just words on a slide. no working out stuff or anything =( but hopefully it gets better. the lecturer has quite a strong accent, i think its german.
chem.. hmm supposingly this chem is harder than last sem which is a major worry cauz it was my weakest last sem. but so far it seems ok. i guess he starts with the basics though, so i gotta make sure i keep up and buy the book (and actually read it) and do all the problems and ask questions when i dont understand stuff.
anyways.. other random thoughts:
+ i've been quite bitchy/judgey lately, well josh points out anyways. bad habits creeping back on me. will have to be more careful and wary of the things i say...
+ sometimes what you want and what you don't mind are two very different things. but i guess its important to be content and satisfied.
+ i expect my boyfriend to not be selfish and be able to share me with my friends without getting edgey. as i should do the same back. but sharing isn't always easy, though i think i find it easier than he does.
+ i seemed to be getting a bit more annoyed easily lately, maybe i'm more edgey that i think
+ oh today i creeped into my bf's lecture. it was a 1 hr 45min lecture. and i walked in with 30min to go. and my attempt to be discreet (by going by the back down) failed. she stopped talking and looked at me and asked me if i was a med student. and if i was in the right class. and i just looked at her blankly. and then she explained how they have been getting lots of law students coming in and out. yes. everyone stared at me and some laughed because they knew i wasn't haha. about 5 minutes later another girl walked in and sat nxt to me in the back row. obviously not a med student, but the lecturer didn't stop to ask her questions. but she did throw some looks at her haha.
+ gosh, i must walk funny or something. i have a hole in the back of my boots. phew they were only 10 bucks. yeah the back of my boots kept scraping along the ground, maybe the bottom bit isn't high enough, or maybe i just walk funny that i lean my heel too far back. it lets water in if i step into puddles. so its kinda pointless considering i still have to avoid puddles while wearing boots. its warm though.
+ i am fat. my boyfriend has fun poking my fatty stomach. i know i've gained weight. it's winter. plus i often go into phases where i don't actually care so much. hahaa, it's good to know my boyfriend will still stick by me, despite being fat. i wonder if he'll still like poking my stomach when im super fat like when im pregnant, however, i dont think thats too good for the baby.
+ today i worked. mainly recovery. the store looks good. hehe, also my manager mentioned rotating thurs nights in a 1 to 3 rotating basis. hence one thurs my manager will do it, the the next thurs the senior will do it, and the next thurs after that will be me. i think i get alternate saturdays now. which is good, i think every sat might be too much. but at least i know i'm getting at least one shift a week =)
+ lighthouse launch tomorrow. nysf district selection sat (oh judging will be fun!). umat wed. 18th party on sat. night service on the sun. zonta dinner on wed.
+ josh is coming over tomorrow! for dinner. haha.
+ having friends in every class has its pros and cons. it's great. because you have company and u can study together and ask questions. but i guess i don't make as much of an effort to make more new friends. haha. but i think its ok, because most people in 2nd sem already have their lil friend groups. and my mum always complains i have too many friends already. once she told me to unfriend them because i spent too much money on bdays etc xD.
anyways thats all for now. i should sleep. otherwise i wont be able to get up in the morning againn. and i'm quite exhausted.
and wow, getting use to waking up relatively early, is a pain.
i've been late to every lecture (except wednesday, when i started at 10pm, rather than 9pm)
but really.. what is with traffic in the morning?! today was especially bad... =____=" took me more than an hr to get to uni... gah. i miss sleeping in already.
well my units this semester are... stats (maths), organic chemistry, psychology II, human bio II.
now.. i didn't do human bio I, so im slightly struggling with the terminology... and where everything is. everyone says that i'll be fine, that i'll catch up and that i'll get use to it, but to be honest i'm worried and wondering if i should switch / drop. i mean in one way, i know i can't avoid it - eventually i'll have to do it for bed. but in another way... i dont know if i can get a distinction for it, and if i can't it means my gpa will drop, which will lower my chances of transfering. so i'm sorta torn in two i guess.
psychology II is good, the lecturer is pretty good. interesting at least. since i've done semester one, i now know to study off the book (since the exam is based on book and not lectures, because most of the lectures aren't always relevant, but interesting and fun all the same)
stats... i heart maths. but so far stats has been pretty =/.. its basically just words on a slide. no working out stuff or anything =( but hopefully it gets better. the lecturer has quite a strong accent, i think its german.
chem.. hmm supposingly this chem is harder than last sem which is a major worry cauz it was my weakest last sem. but so far it seems ok. i guess he starts with the basics though, so i gotta make sure i keep up and buy the book (and actually read it) and do all the problems and ask questions when i dont understand stuff.
anyways.. other random thoughts:
+ i've been quite bitchy/judgey lately, well josh points out anyways. bad habits creeping back on me. will have to be more careful and wary of the things i say...
+ sometimes what you want and what you don't mind are two very different things. but i guess its important to be content and satisfied.
+ i expect my boyfriend to not be selfish and be able to share me with my friends without getting edgey. as i should do the same back. but sharing isn't always easy, though i think i find it easier than he does.
+ i seemed to be getting a bit more annoyed easily lately, maybe i'm more edgey that i think
+ oh today i creeped into my bf's lecture. it was a 1 hr 45min lecture. and i walked in with 30min to go. and my attempt to be discreet (by going by the back down) failed. she stopped talking and looked at me and asked me if i was a med student. and if i was in the right class. and i just looked at her blankly. and then she explained how they have been getting lots of law students coming in and out. yes. everyone stared at me and some laughed because they knew i wasn't haha. about 5 minutes later another girl walked in and sat nxt to me in the back row. obviously not a med student, but the lecturer didn't stop to ask her questions. but she did throw some looks at her haha.
+ gosh, i must walk funny or something. i have a hole in the back of my boots. phew they were only 10 bucks. yeah the back of my boots kept scraping along the ground, maybe the bottom bit isn't high enough, or maybe i just walk funny that i lean my heel too far back. it lets water in if i step into puddles. so its kinda pointless considering i still have to avoid puddles while wearing boots. its warm though.
+ i am fat. my boyfriend has fun poking my fatty stomach. i know i've gained weight. it's winter. plus i often go into phases where i don't actually care so much. hahaa, it's good to know my boyfriend will still stick by me, despite being fat. i wonder if he'll still like poking my stomach when im super fat like when im pregnant, however, i dont think thats too good for the baby.
+ today i worked. mainly recovery. the store looks good. hehe, also my manager mentioned rotating thurs nights in a 1 to 3 rotating basis. hence one thurs my manager will do it, the the next thurs the senior will do it, and the next thurs after that will be me. i think i get alternate saturdays now. which is good, i think every sat might be too much. but at least i know i'm getting at least one shift a week =)
+ lighthouse launch tomorrow. nysf district selection sat (oh judging will be fun!). umat wed. 18th party on sat. night service on the sun. zonta dinner on wed.
+ josh is coming over tomorrow! for dinner. haha.
+ having friends in every class has its pros and cons. it's great. because you have company and u can study together and ask questions. but i guess i don't make as much of an effort to make more new friends. haha. but i think its ok, because most people in 2nd sem already have their lil friend groups. and my mum always complains i have too many friends already. once she told me to unfriend them because i spent too much money on bdays etc xD.
anyways thats all for now. i should sleep. otherwise i wont be able to get up in the morning againn. and i'm quite exhausted.
Labels: boyfriend, busy, clothes, moody, nysf, reddot, sleep, uni, zonta
10:45 PM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
♥ i can't do anything about the past, but i can about the future!
woah, the beginning of this week went by so sloww but the rest of it is just flying by.
11 days without my boyfriend, and i've survived haha. i've had to stop myself from posting blogs where i'm like "ARGHHHHHH i miss hiim" because, that would just look... attachy and dependant. xD and don't worry, i AM independant =) even though i do miss him.
its just different i guess, usually i'm the busy one who has to cancel on outings or conversations because i've got things to do or other commitments. now i'm sorta getting a taste of how it feels to be on the other side. and it's a great lesson really. makes me appreciate him more for always understanding and sticking by me, despite the many times where i didn't have much time for him.
i got good news yesterday, i opened a zonta letter saying that i won districts for the young women in public affairs award =) last year i won at club level (had to fill our an application with questions on the world & about advancing the status of women worldwide, went for a 45 minute interview, and did a 5 minute speech on my role model) and then my application got forwarded to district level (there's 31 international districts) and yeah i didnt have to do a thing (but wait!)
it's fantastic =) i get US$1k and possibly get to go to melbourne to speak at district 23's conference! so yes, i'm very blessed. praise God. I'm heading back to my club in august to speak to them about what i've done for the past 12 months.
i was extremely happy when receiving this news (as u can imagine) but shortly after sharing it with my mum, it didn't take her long to throw me a line about winning all these things, but failing at what was important, which was my TER.
sigh, i'll be honest and it really cut me at first, to the point where i could have gotten really angry at it. but i let it go. it really makes me teary just thinking about it.
you know, the kinda feeling where you'll never live this down. and like my parents will never be able to let go of it. and it doesnt help me. it doesnt encourage me. in fact it does quite the opposite.
if only they understood how they affect me....... but the thing is, even if they didn't say it, i'd know they think it anyways. because thats how my parents are, and i think most asian parents.
today, on the way home from work, in the car dad asked me how i won the one thousand. and even though he didnt say it, at least i felt like he was proud of me. i kinda realized my dad's like that, he doesn't really say things heartfelt haha. in the car to the bus station (this morning) while i ate my poptarts in the car, my dad was like "where's your water". i told him it was in my bag. and then i started thinking, i dont know why, but it made me think about how my dad says things sometimes... i guess he's just not very good at expressing things haha.
this past week has been a kinda big week for me. i've learnt to let go of a few things. things that i wasn't sure i would ever be able to let go. but i've learnt that i need to let go, that i need to forgive and that i need to move on.
the past is the past. it's not something u can change. ahh, but the present, the future... thats a different story.
you know. i would try to forget some things, i would try to let it go. but it never worked because, when some things happened, it would just evoke emotion in me about past events. sometimes i would hold someone's past against them. but who i am to do that? you know, when we sin, and we ask and accept forgiveness from God, and we realize that Jesus took all our sins on the cross, God doesn't use our past against us. when He looks at us, He doesn't see our sins, because Jesus already paid the price for them.
So, to those people out there. Who, if you asked me a week ago, i would have told you that i hated absolutely. I forgive you. Even if your not sorry, and even if you don't care, or even if you don't know how much i hate(d) you for the things you did to me / people who are close to me. I'm not going to all of a suddent try to befriend you, because then my motives would not be right. But i'll stop avoiding you. And i'll stop giving you evils. and I'll stop bitching about you. And I'll try to smile at you when i see you. because when i look at you, i'm not going to hold you past against you.
But yes im human, so forgive me if i make mistakes =)
it's time to be a better person!
11 days without my boyfriend, and i've survived haha. i've had to stop myself from posting blogs where i'm like "ARGHHHHHH i miss hiim" because, that would just look... attachy and dependant. xD and don't worry, i AM independant =) even though i do miss him.
its just different i guess, usually i'm the busy one who has to cancel on outings or conversations because i've got things to do or other commitments. now i'm sorta getting a taste of how it feels to be on the other side. and it's a great lesson really. makes me appreciate him more for always understanding and sticking by me, despite the many times where i didn't have much time for him.
i got good news yesterday, i opened a zonta letter saying that i won districts for the young women in public affairs award =) last year i won at club level (had to fill our an application with questions on the world & about advancing the status of women worldwide, went for a 45 minute interview, and did a 5 minute speech on my role model) and then my application got forwarded to district level (there's 31 international districts) and yeah i didnt have to do a thing (but wait!)
it's fantastic =) i get US$1k and possibly get to go to melbourne to speak at district 23's conference! so yes, i'm very blessed. praise God. I'm heading back to my club in august to speak to them about what i've done for the past 12 months.
i was extremely happy when receiving this news (as u can imagine) but shortly after sharing it with my mum, it didn't take her long to throw me a line about winning all these things, but failing at what was important, which was my TER.
sigh, i'll be honest and it really cut me at first, to the point where i could have gotten really angry at it. but i let it go. it really makes me teary just thinking about it.
you know, the kinda feeling where you'll never live this down. and like my parents will never be able to let go of it. and it doesnt help me. it doesnt encourage me. in fact it does quite the opposite.
if only they understood how they affect me....... but the thing is, even if they didn't say it, i'd know they think it anyways. because thats how my parents are, and i think most asian parents.
today, on the way home from work, in the car dad asked me how i won the one thousand. and even though he didnt say it, at least i felt like he was proud of me. i kinda realized my dad's like that, he doesn't really say things heartfelt haha. in the car to the bus station (this morning) while i ate my poptarts in the car, my dad was like "where's your water". i told him it was in my bag. and then i started thinking, i dont know why, but it made me think about how my dad says things sometimes... i guess he's just not very good at expressing things haha.
this past week has been a kinda big week for me. i've learnt to let go of a few things. things that i wasn't sure i would ever be able to let go. but i've learnt that i need to let go, that i need to forgive and that i need to move on.
the past is the past. it's not something u can change. ahh, but the present, the future... thats a different story.
you know. i would try to forget some things, i would try to let it go. but it never worked because, when some things happened, it would just evoke emotion in me about past events. sometimes i would hold someone's past against them. but who i am to do that? you know, when we sin, and we ask and accept forgiveness from God, and we realize that Jesus took all our sins on the cross, God doesn't use our past against us. when He looks at us, He doesn't see our sins, because Jesus already paid the price for them.
So, to those people out there. Who, if you asked me a week ago, i would have told you that i hated absolutely. I forgive you. Even if your not sorry, and even if you don't care, or even if you don't know how much i hate(d) you for the things you did to me / people who are close to me. I'm not going to all of a suddent try to befriend you, because then my motives would not be right. But i'll stop avoiding you. And i'll stop giving you evils. and I'll stop bitching about you. And I'll try to smile at you when i see you. because when i look at you, i'm not going to hold you past against you.
But yes im human, so forgive me if i make mistakes =)
it's time to be a better person!
Labels: boyfriend, busy, forgiveness, friends, God, hate, parents, sin, TEE, zonta
11:15 PM
