Sunday, April 11, 2010
♥ study breakk
so today i went to church.. the went to hjs for lunch with chris
when i was ordering 2 bacon deluxes however, i forgot to ask for one without cheese.. and chris hates such cheese... so as you can see, he resorted to scrapiing it all off with a spoon. two layers of it haha.
got some pretty decent study done in teaching room 2 (after getting kicked out of a study room we didn't book...) ahhh the world of stats..
by the time we took a break, kongs and even the japanese place was closed... so ended up getting my green tea icecream from the university asian restaurant. it actually wasn't too bad... pretty pricey though, $4.50! but for two scoops.. i guess it is more than the lil tubs... it was just kinda icey.
so far the one from kongs is the best :)
here is a list of places i've gone in the past week while my parents were away
- alan's housewarming
- lifegroup @ aarons
- easter dinner @ josh fu's
- lil caeser & san churros with timmie
- easter dinner at bf's hse
- the movies - Greenzone
- 2 fat indians with louis, nick, etc... on their fooding day
- epic espresso with zin and ange
- korean bbq with ry varn linda & cat
- the maze in bullsbrook for av's 19th
- yoty state finals in melville
oh and chuck in a few treks to uni to attempt to study.
so yes, a very jam packed busy and tiring study break. with i must admit, too much going out, too much spending and too much eating
and definately not enough studying.
i'm screwed...
Labels: friends, holidays, outing, study, study break, uni, worn out
10:48 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
♥ exhausted
5:26 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
♥ zZz...
so i've been wearing myself out lately, and i got my period yest, so it's just like double zZZzzzzzzz........
todays been pretty cruisey though. woke up around 10ish, but got outta bed at 11...
tried to help dad with his garmin thing, ahh technology. i can't believe he bought it without asking me first, and now he doesn't know how to use it (and neither do i!)
followed him to the shops for a bit, didn't even buy anything... just walked around. figured i need to get some exercise.
came back home and tutored. and here i am lying in bed. feeling like a nap actually...
don't know whats happening tonight.
josh wants me to follow him to his cousin's farewell. the girls are still going for a late night picnic i think.
last night is a long storyyyyyy. and i'm too tired to explain. it was very up and down though.
anddd my stomach hurts and i just want to sleep.
gnite.
Labels: pain, pms, sleep, technology, worn out
4:26 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
♥ ballarat
- ballarat is a really cold place. really cold. i don't think i've ever been anyone colder. i can't imagine what snow will be like.
- when eating at formal dinners, your bread is located on your left. the one of the right is for the person on your right, who happened to be the district governor for me.
- old ladies (i'm talking 50s-70s) know how to dance.
- older couples are cute. especially when they get up to slow dance to a live band.
- new york new york is a song that brought back many memories from tour, when the 17 piece seb big band played it live.
- i've been living on 5-6 hours sleep for the past three days.
- waking up at 6am to absolute FREEZING cold, makes it 10x harder to get outta bed. but i had a plane to catch.
- the zonta clubs are full of warm friendly women.
- if ur not prepared for speeches, just be yourself, like your having a conversation with someone. show them your personality. it works.
- i am still feeling groggy.
- lack of sleep + cold/flu + getting pms + long and busy weekend = a very sick me.
- still haven't completely finished packing. feel like going back to sleep in fact.
- i hardly took any pictures. it was way to awkward to actually get up and go around to take pics. so i didn't. regrettably.
- sigh, i feel like crap.
Labels: awards, holidays, sick, sleep, travel, worn out, zonta
4:26 PM
Monday, September 14, 2009
♥ midsems overRrRr!
chem mid sem - FINISHED. OVER. DONE.
psyc report - DONE. COMPLETED. HANDED IN.
IT FEELS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDD.
*note to self, another stat test in wk 11*
okay, so i did stay up to study yesterday. til like 2am until josh asked me why i was still up and made me go to bed. even though we're not meant to be talking? lol. glad to know he's still looking out for me.
slept at 230ish. woke up at 8... got up at 830ish. yes...
went to uni, handed in psyc report.
walked around the library looking for someone who does chem too. found allan and steven. and thankyou God that i saw them / went looking in the first place. because they had the most awesomest practice questions that helped SO MUCH, that i am so sure i did pretty well :) ahh God is so awsomeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
yes, i'm sleep deprived. but that hot chocolate in the morning lasted til my exam x)
anyways, i've got lots to catch up on now (since ive been focusing on chem and psyc so much!)
but i think i need a nap. so sleep deprived x)
P.S. asia cocktail on fridayyyyyyy and i actually know who's going now =] was kinda worried not many people were going. but yes. shall be a good night out with the girls! yay!
psyc report - DONE. COMPLETED. HANDED IN.
IT FEELS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDD.
*note to self, another stat test in wk 11*
okay, so i did stay up to study yesterday. til like 2am until josh asked me why i was still up and made me go to bed. even though we're not meant to be talking? lol. glad to know he's still looking out for me.
slept at 230ish. woke up at 8... got up at 830ish. yes...
went to uni, handed in psyc report.
walked around the library looking for someone who does chem too. found allan and steven. and thankyou God that i saw them / went looking in the first place. because they had the most awesomest practice questions that helped SO MUCH, that i am so sure i did pretty well :) ahh God is so awsomeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
yes, i'm sleep deprived. but that hot chocolate in the morning lasted til my exam x)
anyways, i've got lots to catch up on now (since ive been focusing on chem and psyc so much!)
but i think i need a nap. so sleep deprived x)
P.S. asia cocktail on fridayyyyyyy and i actually know who's going now =] was kinda worried not many people were going. but yes. shall be a good night out with the girls! yay!
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, chemistry, clubbing, exams, God, psyc, sleep, uni, worn out
6:07 PM
Sunday, August 30, 2009
♥ medmedmed
last year i applied for medicine, through standard entry.
as a high school leaver, there was 1450 students who applied, with 120 places, and two or three interviews for each of those places.
that's around 25% of the total number of students who applied who get an interview...
and 8% of the total number of students applied who get a place...
this year, as a undergraduate student at uwa.
i am now a non standard entrant, with around 300 people also applying for undergraduate medicine.
and only 15 medical places, again - two or three interviews per place.
thats a max of 45 interviews. for 300 applicants. which is 15%.
only 15 places and 300 people applying, thats 5%.
moral of story: my boyfriend was right. the 'easiest' way to get into med is as a highschool leaver. so if u want it, work ur butt off for TEE...
anyways. thats just some random facts. as i was filling out all my tisc and gpa things today.
my fgpa is 6.125, which is greater than the minimum of 5.5 *thumbs up*. will need to boost it higher this semester though, to help with the ranking system. which im starting to wonder if is possible. hm.
been pretty sick. lack of sleep and pms is taking it's toll.
comes at the best times, really... right when i haven't finished my hbio assignment which is due monday. great.
upcoming events:
mon 31st: hbio essay due
thurs 3rd: stats midsem
fri 4th: lh @ ecu
sat 5th: tracy's hens, tinhs 18th
mon 7th: beginning of midsemester break (1wk)
mon 14th: chem midsem, psyc report due
fri 18th: asia cocktail
sat 19th: tracy & lap's wedding
fri 25th - sun 27th: ballarat / melb for zonta conf
Labels: assignments, exams, gpa, medicine, pms, sleep, uni, work, worn out
12:14 AM
Friday, August 7, 2009
♥ i am blessed
the past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me.
+ the stress of the lead up to the umat
+ the many trials and difficulties that put a strain on my relationship with josh
+ the feeling of seeing my first cadaver
+ the stress of beginning uni again, and picking up a subject that i have no background knowledge of
+ the fear of disappointment from my zonta club, once they hear of my setbacks
+ my parents going away, and the dog not eating, or having to spend much of my night doing things like washing or feeding the dog or preparing my lunch for the next day - instead of studying
+ the sickness and exhaustiveness that comes when you get ur period
there has been nights where i have just cried myself to sleep. nights were i have questioned God about His plans for my life. nights where i could hardly sleep. nights where i would just konk out due to pure exhaustiveness.
Chris Tomlin's music, has provided me with so much comfort these past few weeks. I listen to the album, Arriving, on shuffle and loop and repeat on my phone, josh's ipod and my laptop. I can't even pick one song to stick up on here, because i rekon they are all just awesome. Oh, here's one, i like how they put the words and images on this one..
as i reflect on the past year, and more so the past six months, i've realized some things. some things good. some things bad.
i believe i've become too emotionally dependant on my boyfriend. i believe i haven't been managing my time wisely. i believe i have been to quick to judge people.
but on a better note... i believe i've reached financial freedom. six months ago i was maybe $700 in debt. today, i am now a source for borrowing money from my family. i also believe i've been eating healthier. well slightly. im getting there, but i dont think i've had kfc for a while. hehe. and when it comes to regular exercise... i still haven't reached there yet. but i will! haha.
Late september, I will be flying to VIC to speak at the Zonta International District 23 Conference. Actually at the beginning of the dinner on Wed night, Alison had told me that the district couldn't jusitfy flying me over there for a 10 minute speech. But yesterday i recieved the good news, that after i left, the club decided that they would cover my expenses to fly me over there. I will probably leave on a Friday, and get back in time for uni on the Monday. so praise God =)
Well today i was meant to be working, but they took me off because a lady came in for the whole of the week to cover my manager who went for training. This will give me a good opportunity to get some things done.. e.g. clean my room... xD and catch up on the lectures i missed yest - oh dear, when buses go on strike... it sucks =(...
oh i bought some pretty boxes from work too (to put my shoes in) i bought the second and last one. the first one i've got a smaller version (well actually its joshs but for some reason its sitting in my room) and the third one i've got a big white version already from my birthday from lauf.
i think i have a gift box fetish. or it might just be because i work at reddot. xD but they're pretttyyy awesome.
oh oh i got my lab coat for chem xD its got the uwa logo on it ahahaha. i will take a picture of how nerdy i look in it and post it one day.
meantime... off to clean my room i go... but first i will get something to eat... mmm
+ the stress of the lead up to the umat
+ the many trials and difficulties that put a strain on my relationship with josh
+ the feeling of seeing my first cadaver
+ the stress of beginning uni again, and picking up a subject that i have no background knowledge of
+ the fear of disappointment from my zonta club, once they hear of my setbacks
+ my parents going away, and the dog not eating, or having to spend much of my night doing things like washing or feeding the dog or preparing my lunch for the next day - instead of studying
+ the sickness and exhaustiveness that comes when you get ur period
there has been nights where i have just cried myself to sleep. nights were i have questioned God about His plans for my life. nights where i could hardly sleep. nights where i would just konk out due to pure exhaustiveness.
Chris Tomlin's music, has provided me with so much comfort these past few weeks. I listen to the album, Arriving, on shuffle and loop and repeat on my phone, josh's ipod and my laptop. I can't even pick one song to stick up on here, because i rekon they are all just awesome. Oh, here's one, i like how they put the words and images on this one..
as i reflect on the past year, and more so the past six months, i've realized some things. some things good. some things bad.
i believe i've become too emotionally dependant on my boyfriend. i believe i haven't been managing my time wisely. i believe i have been to quick to judge people.
but on a better note... i believe i've reached financial freedom. six months ago i was maybe $700 in debt. today, i am now a source for borrowing money from my family. i also believe i've been eating healthier. well slightly. im getting there, but i dont think i've had kfc for a while. hehe. and when it comes to regular exercise... i still haven't reached there yet. but i will! haha.
Late september, I will be flying to VIC to speak at the Zonta International District 23 Conference. Actually at the beginning of the dinner on Wed night, Alison had told me that the district couldn't jusitfy flying me over there for a 10 minute speech. But yesterday i recieved the good news, that after i left, the club decided that they would cover my expenses to fly me over there. I will probably leave on a Friday, and get back in time for uni on the Monday. so praise God =)
Well today i was meant to be working, but they took me off because a lady came in for the whole of the week to cover my manager who went for training. This will give me a good opportunity to get some things done.. e.g. clean my room... xD and catch up on the lectures i missed yest - oh dear, when buses go on strike... it sucks =(...
oh i bought some pretty boxes from work too (to put my shoes in) i bought the second and last one. the first one i've got a smaller version (well actually its joshs but for some reason its sitting in my room) and the third one i've got a big white version already from my birthday from lauf.
i think i have a gift box fetish. or it might just be because i work at reddot. xD but they're pretttyyy awesome.oh oh i got my lab coat for chem xD its got the uwa logo on it ahahaha. i will take a picture of how nerdy i look in it and post it one day.
meantime... off to clean my room i go... but first i will get something to eat... mmm
Labels: boyfriend, chemistry, God, hbio, life, overload, parents, reddot, relationships, umat, uni, work, worn out
9:04 AM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ blog entry 101
it's post 101. and it's going to be a long one (be warned)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
Labels: anthropology, busy, friends, life, motivation, relationships, sleep, uni, work, worn out
4:05 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
♥ its christmas.. already?
wow time sure flies
it's already 16 minutes into christmas
but it doesnt feel like it.
in fact i feel exhausted. tired. sleepy. worn out.
i think i need sleep.
badly.
it's already 16 minutes into christmas
but it doesnt feel like it.
in fact i feel exhausted. tired. sleepy. worn out.
i think i need sleep.
badly.
12:16 AM
