Sunday, August 9, 2009
♥ six months
you can do some pretty awesome stuff with toothpicks
but they can also be pretty dangerous
yesterday i was walking through my front tv room in the dark when i stepped on a toothpick which someone stabbed a hole into my foot. originally i thought i had stepped on a needle, but really it was a toothpick. and it hurt. and bled. and it still kinda hurts as i walked today.
it's been just over a week since my parents have been away, and another week to go. it's been a struggle. really. i was telling andy today that i'm going to live with my parents until im married. i rely on them immensely for food, washing and transport. things that are so time consuming and difficult to live without. really, i heart my parents. and appreciate them so much more.
yesterday was a pretty good day. except for the fact i missed my bus (because alison called with my flight details) and i ended up walking to the shops.. which took a good half an hr.. ahh gg. it reminded me of the days that me and nig use to walk to school because it thought i couldnt do it. like 45min walk! lol.
well today marks 6 months in. i think we're past the whole "winning each other over" stage and into the "putting up with each other" haha. i dont know if its a good thing, because now he's not afraid of farting in front of me -.-" and its kinda ... ... disgusting! lol.
i guess you could say i'm beginning to feel more comfortable around his family, we have good laughs sometimes, but its still awkward at other times. i still kinda feel like they dont think i'm good enough for him. i like talking to his brothers though, because now that my bro is off and married, putting up with a sister just isnt the same.
his household is very different to mine though, in terms of how they do things, chores, dinner at the table - altogether... i guess they're bit more traditionally asian than my family i rekon. even though my family is still asian. hopefully our parents will get along. i think our dads will. idk abt mums though. i can envision it now. how awkward if they both called each other by their names (because they're both named cynthia ahaha)
anyways, back to josh. i think i know most of his bad habits/flaws already. he cracks his knuckles - no matter how many times i tell him off for doing so... he yawns at church without putting his hand over his mouth! he bullies his little brother (oh gosh, reminds me of when my brother use to bully me). haha theres more. but i think we are both continously growing, continously learning. and we want to be better people. and we can help each other do that, but pointing out certain aspects of our personality or our lives that needs improvement. i think its great that we can be so honest with each other. and i think thats pretty important.
i must admit, i rekon we fight a lot. well not fight, but maybe "disagree". haha. we argue. we're both stubborn. maybe even too prideful to drop a point at times. But i think we're both learning to be more understanding, less argumentative, and more loving.
And for me, i have the difficult task of becoming more independent. which wouldn't have been difficult for me a year ago. but because he's such a integrated part of my life... i've been way too dependent on him. hopefully its just a stage. and i'll be out of it soon. geez, i never thought i'd be like i am now haha its so bad.
back to being two upright standing cans.
but they can also be pretty dangerousyesterday i was walking through my front tv room in the dark when i stepped on a toothpick which someone stabbed a hole into my foot. originally i thought i had stepped on a needle, but really it was a toothpick. and it hurt. and bled. and it still kinda hurts as i walked today.
it's been just over a week since my parents have been away, and another week to go. it's been a struggle. really. i was telling andy today that i'm going to live with my parents until im married. i rely on them immensely for food, washing and transport. things that are so time consuming and difficult to live without. really, i heart my parents. and appreciate them so much more.
yesterday was a pretty good day. except for the fact i missed my bus (because alison called with my flight details) and i ended up walking to the shops.. which took a good half an hr.. ahh gg. it reminded me of the days that me and nig use to walk to school because it thought i couldnt do it. like 45min walk! lol.
well today marks 6 months in. i think we're past the whole "winning each other over" stage and into the "putting up with each other" haha. i dont know if its a good thing, because now he's not afraid of farting in front of me -.-" and its kinda ... ... disgusting! lol.
i guess you could say i'm beginning to feel more comfortable around his family, we have good laughs sometimes, but its still awkward at other times. i still kinda feel like they dont think i'm good enough for him. i like talking to his brothers though, because now that my bro is off and married, putting up with a sister just isnt the same.
his household is very different to mine though, in terms of how they do things, chores, dinner at the table - altogether... i guess they're bit more traditionally asian than my family i rekon. even though my family is still asian. hopefully our parents will get along. i think our dads will. idk abt mums though. i can envision it now. how awkward if they both called each other by their names (because they're both named cynthia ahaha)
anyways, back to josh. i think i know most of his bad habits/flaws already. he cracks his knuckles - no matter how many times i tell him off for doing so... he yawns at church without putting his hand over his mouth! he bullies his little brother (oh gosh, reminds me of when my brother use to bully me). haha theres more. but i think we are both continously growing, continously learning. and we want to be better people. and we can help each other do that, but pointing out certain aspects of our personality or our lives that needs improvement. i think its great that we can be so honest with each other. and i think thats pretty important.
i must admit, i rekon we fight a lot. well not fight, but maybe "disagree". haha. we argue. we're both stubborn. maybe even too prideful to drop a point at times. But i think we're both learning to be more understanding, less argumentative, and more loving.And for me, i have the difficult task of becoming more independent. which wouldn't have been difficult for me a year ago. but because he's such a integrated part of my life... i've been way too dependent on him. hopefully its just a stage. and i'll be out of it soon. geez, i never thought i'd be like i am now haha its so bad.
back to being two upright standing cans.
Labels: boyfriend, family, pain, parents, relationships, walks, zonta
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