Monday, July 25, 2011
♥ lazy
slept in til 1pm today.
felt so good.
been a busy few weeks! will update in more details soon-ish.
uni in a week! eek.
felt so good.
been a busy few weeks! will update in more details soon-ish.
uni in a week! eek.
4:42 PM
Sunday, August 29, 2010
♥ sunday afternoon naps
there is just something about sunday afternoons
that makes me sleepy
and just forces my body to take a sunday afternoon nap
ahhh it feels so good. except for the part when you wake up and realize you've been asleep for hours...
and you should have been studying instead =X
Labels: sleep
4:37 PM
Thursday, August 26, 2010
♥ #445 sleep catch up
well caught up on some sleep this morning.
i've decided not to go to uni's on thursdays anymore. just no point spending hours in transport just to go for two lectures then having to rush to work afterwards.
especially when i can well, ilecture them at home.
a stat assignment due next week, a debate and literature review due the week after. 5 more weeks until my research article annotated bibliography is due. and 6 weeks until my essay is due. and 8 weeks until my lab report is due. oh yeah and the stat assignments we'll be getting every 3 weeks or something.
this year, the assignments have been quite varied. it's not just the "two lab reports" and a few stats assignments inbetween. it's been like essays, literature reviews... and an annotated bibliography O__O. i've never written a lit review or bibliography so lets hope it turns out okay. i feel more prepared for my lab reports though, having done quite a few over the past year and a half. ahh psyc *hearts*
it's going to be quite a busy weekend with some events (including the birthing kit workshop) and yeah should really get started on that literature review or at least the research part of it
i am amazed at how quickly ilectures get put up! (it's like almost instant rght after the lecture's over!)
time to ilecture :)
p.s. 445th post! insane much? :)
Labels: assignments, sleep, uni
12:30 PM
Friday, August 13, 2010
♥ thoughts running through my head
x. i'm still trying to get my head around the fact that people are wired differently when it comes to mission. something i picked up when speaking to timmie about it. i guess because i'm just so "passionate" about it that i've never really seen why you wouldn't be. it's something that's starting to open my eyes to the many different perspectives of missions.
x. i think it's sad that very close friends can be that one day, and distant the next. i understand some people are scared of becoming too close... but then if you become so cautious about it, you end up distancing yourself so much that you kinda let go - and you end up losing on something that you once use to value so very much. i know it's not easy to find that happy medium, but i think its possible and i think you should have at least tried or maybe even not let go that easily.
x. the first kairos course session was pretty intro-ish. tbh i wasn't too sure about this course at first. but i guess this year is more about learning and growing for me, so it was really perfect timing. i'm hoping the book / content is really good, because so far the old school videos and odd humar are slightly off putting (just slightly)
x. i'm still behind in a lot of note taking and uni work. but i guess it's worked out really well because my hours at work have been superly cut down due to the new manager (i am pretty sure he doesn't like me) and i have more time to study / do uni work... it's not like i need the money anyways so it does bother me much
x. what kind of person do you want people to know you as? i ask you that because my mate is becoming increasingly known for his 'party-ish' behaviour. and i think that makes me slightly sad because i see him in a totally different way and i know (at least i think i do) the real him, not just that superficial party-goer. and to know that people are beginning to percieve him in this other way... i guess it just makes me think like, by giving him more attention and even 'fame' almost, it's almost like encouraging it? because i mean, who doesn't want attention? but to me, it just feels like attention for the wrong reasons :( but it's really hard to show that i care, without him pushing me away.
x. chris has been my study buddy for practically the whole year. which i guess is odd almost because we don't even do the same course. but i guess we kinda have the same work ethic, with the whole trying to get into medicine thing. most of my friends who do my course either don't rock up to lectures half the time, or don't really feel the need to study as hard? i don't know. but it's been good knowing i have someone that i can study with like everyday, and by that i mean like reallyyyy study and not get distracted easily and end up talking etc lol.
x. speaking of study, this year i seem a lot more focused and less cruisey about uni, assignments, exams etc. i think last year i was still kinda in the flukey stage of things, where i would rely on my natural ability or logic or even last minute cramming, where as this year i really am trying to be better and hopefully do the best that i can.
x. i'm finding it slightly difficult to get out of bed in the mornings lately. i think i'm overdoing it, physically. uni during the day, stuff on at night. i haven't been resting my body much. and i just can't seem to pull myself out of bed in the mornings despite 8 hours sleep. will need to make a valid point to rest a bit more. gonna be slightly difficult with the full on week i have upcoming though and not to mention upcoming assignments!
x. to finish, i guess what i'm starting to really notice is that what some people think as cool, i think is actually not cool. and vice versa. maybe it's because i never really gotten into the whole clubbing or partying thing. like for me, i just don't think getting trashed and hooking up etc is fun... and i just don't really get the point / benefit out of it... idk, kinda reminds me of back in year 8 and we use to think northbridge was kinda cool, go there and play some pool, drink some bubble tea and get photos at timezone and stuff like that..... and at the time that was pretty cool for us.. and after, we look at kids who do that and think to ourself "TB ALERT" etc. i guess as we get older our perspective on things change. and everyone's views on things, or ideas of having fun, or things that they care about... it's all different for each person.
so here i leave you with a pretty picture of some tulips. i was having a conversation to nathan about tulips the other day, because he was asking me what kind of flowers to get his gf and i was like TULIPS! bahaha. lovelove.
11:10 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
♥ exhausted
5:26 PM
Friday, February 12, 2010
♥ sleepless
it's now 6:15am... and i've been awake since 4:30am.
i'm usually a decent sleeper. at least i like to think so. not as good as josh though, he pretty much konks out (even when on the phone with me!)
i blame this time partly to the fact that i slept in til like noon yesterday... but josh seems to think i have sleeping issues and wants me to see a doctor..... zzzzzzzz this is what happens when you date a budding doctor, they make a big deal out of not so big things... haha
but anyways, i know i am stressed. when i told vodafone my 'availability' i was not expecting them to roster me EVERY SINGLE AVAILABLE DAY. so now i get no rest. not happy jan.
i'm hoping that my hours will ease up once we get a new assistant store manager. esp because my manager at reddot is going away for a month and need me to cover here and there.. i can see all my study time being chomped on at the moment.... zzzzz
i think i shall socially exclude myself for the next few days, to get some rest. and try to get my hours cut at vf. hopefully they dont even need me, but just stuck me there to give me more hours (but really, i don't want more hours zzz)
anyways. adding to the collection, in time for vallies day... haven't done so for a while!
her name is Adidas Kundo I, size 3 US.
cute huh?
yes, it was time for another girl shoe, the ratio between boy : girl was quite uneven. it was also time for a size other than a 2 US (which seems to also have an uneven ratio to all the other sizes put together)
anyways. now it's 7am. work in 1hr 45min. oh the joys of life.
Labels: baby shoes, boyfriend, busy, reddot, sleep, stress, vodafone, work
6:59 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
♥ zZz...
so i've been wearing myself out lately, and i got my period yest, so it's just like double zZZzzzzzzz........
todays been pretty cruisey though. woke up around 10ish, but got outta bed at 11...
tried to help dad with his garmin thing, ahh technology. i can't believe he bought it without asking me first, and now he doesn't know how to use it (and neither do i!)
followed him to the shops for a bit, didn't even buy anything... just walked around. figured i need to get some exercise.
came back home and tutored. and here i am lying in bed. feeling like a nap actually...
don't know whats happening tonight.
josh wants me to follow him to his cousin's farewell. the girls are still going for a late night picnic i think.
last night is a long storyyyyyy. and i'm too tired to explain. it was very up and down though.
anddd my stomach hurts and i just want to sleep.
gnite.
Labels: pain, pms, sleep, technology, worn out
4:26 PM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
♥ i am..
physically and mentally exhausted.
i just want to go to sleep and not have to wake up.
i have decided not to commit to anything anymore. and attempt to make more 'me' time. because right now, i really need it.
11:28 PM
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
♥ a seventy thirty start
well today i decided to get OUT of the house.
i woke up at 7:30pm... yes... SEVEN THIRTY... just to take the bus to go see my boyfriend. what dedication!
i don't even wake up that early for uni. haha. totally got my priorities straight *rolls eyes*
bumped into av chris and eileen in the city and joined them for lunch. haha, it was quite a carefree arvo randomly walking around city and harbor town... ahhh exam free-ness feels so awesome.
haha, chris at hi-mart, we went there after takas to look for icecream,
and saw this new energy drink "LOL"
eileen facinated by some of the crazy toys at dicksmith xD
11:08 PM
Saturday, November 7, 2009
♥ four down, one to go
statistics
four down, one to go...
well, chemistry was kinda painful.
i mean yes. i was on 6 hours sleep, half a sandwich, a can of V... but still, the actually paper got me stumped quite a few times =[
will need to see a doctor about this vomiting thing. today was actually quite bad. and before u all freak out and think i'm bohlemic, it's actually just stomach acid or something... so i'm thinking it's like... an acid reflux problem. but will find out after exams...
AND ZMGSH. my chemistry book (which i only used for one semester) and bought nice and new from the coop shop is RUINED. i dried my flower petals in it.... (using baking paper as a sheet) and that worked perfectly fine for my tulips.. but NOOO not for the orchips. it had to go all yuck and seep through the paper. GAHHHHHHHH *fustration*........... now the back pages are stained..... T__T...
oh another note. i donated money and got a poppy flower from this nice old man outside the bus station.
it reminded me very much of the poppies i took a photo of, while on YOTY tour... in canberra, at the memorial place...
i didn't know which name to look for. so i just looked for the ones closest to my last name.
pretty huh? the poppy i got today looks just like that one.
alternatively, if you don't end up passing by someone selling them... you can download one as paying your tribute. techy much?
old people are kinda cute hey :)
Labels: chemistry, elderly, exams, flowers, health, sleep, V, yoty tour
1:19 AM
Friday, November 6, 2009
♥ post #300
it's one of those nights. the ones where i don't feel like sleeping... or rather... can't fall asleep (and yes i've tried already).
weird, considering i got less than five hours last night, so i should be ready to konk... unfortunately this is not the case.
i wish i could escape reality for a while. the reality of... my exams. the expectations that my parents have for me, or rather, the expectations i have for myself. the numerous types of chemical reactions - gignard, williamson, fischer. the night time conversation with an indifferent boyfriend. the broken shoulder bag. the annoying flies during the day. the many unanswered questions for my future.
i want to sit on the beach. and watch the sunset. without stress, worry or concern. with freedom, peace and love.
maybe i'll go do that next week.
Labels: beach, boyfriend, chemistry, exams, future, life, sleep, stress, study
1:13 AM
Thursday, November 5, 2009
♥ 4 hrs til hbio
four hours until hbio exam.
currently surviving on less than 5 hours sleep.
could do with an energy drink right about now... ... ...
10:02 AM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
♥ sleeping patterns
i will admit i have sleeping problems lately.
but i don't have a sleeping disorder -.-" like my boyfriend thinks. he literally listed and described all these different types of insomnia......
[12:27:06 PM] bub : if you want to be a medical practitiioner, i think you shoud be ready to consider you as the patient too
hmfph. this is what you have to put up with when you're dating a to-be-doctor
so this is what's going on.
sometimes there are nights where i don't completely fall asleep. i feel like i am consciously awake the whole night. my mind is still working, like i'm thinking the whole night. rolling aroundin bed. and you know when you wake up from sleep? you know u've actually waken up. yeah that doesn't happen to me on those nights. i never actually wake up, because i never really actually fall asleep.
sometimes i don't fall asleep until really late. say 3:30am + . which was what happened again last night. but i'm trying to take into account that i woke up at 12noon the day before hence.. if i slept at 12 midnight i would have only been awake for 12 hours. and usually ur wake for 16 (asleep for 8). plus all i did was study, so it's not like my body was tired, probably why i couldn't sleep until after 3 i should think!
anyways whatever's going on. considering i spend 3 hours at night TRYING to fall asleep. instead of waking up 3 hours earlier and actually being able to study. i think i shall just stay up studying until i'm tired and it's late.
anyways. that is all. must STUDYYYYYY. exams over monday, so not long to go.. and it's all afternoon exams which is good :)
1:04 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
♥ tim tam white
i've got a throbbing headache. was bad today. took a 3/4hr nap. when i should have been studying. told myself i'd stay up to study.. but i am like zZz........ and this headache isn't helping.
been eating these too.
it's a tad weird i think. i much prefer mint slices. must get some for this exam period mmm.
i wish i took the time to learn all the reactions in chemistry. rather than "cramming". haha. i am like the complete opposite to josh. who's advice is to not cram........ dude :) i've been cramming since forever. and even though i tell myself that next time i won't..... it just happens... o_O must work on that.
wonder if vodaphone will call me tomorrow :)
prayed for his exam today :) i'm starting to see such a refreshed guy. reminds me of the reasons i fell in love with him.
Labels: boyfriend, exams, food, health, sleep, study, vodafone
12:19 AM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
♥ energy drink
i'm pretty sure i didn't hit REM sleep last night, it was one of those nights... well i don't even recall sleeping because i never actually fell asleep.
currently surviving on...
but actually not feeling bad. driving lesson at 330. i hope that mother drink kicks in soon.....................
Labels: sleep
1:43 PM
Monday, September 28, 2009
♥ results & random thoughts
chem mid sem: 85.3
human bio essay : 83.5
stats test 1: 85.7
psyc report: results out monday.
weeee, those results make me happy. but i know i've slacked off the past few weeks. NOT GOOD for my gpa, so will need to get back into it (very difficult while having a cold and feeling like all i want to do is sleep) anyways just some random thoughts.
human bio essay : 83.5
stats test 1: 85.7
psyc report: results out monday.
weeee, those results make me happy. but i know i've slacked off the past few weeks. NOT GOOD for my gpa, so will need to get back into it (very difficult while having a cold and feeling like all i want to do is sleep) anyways just some random thoughts.
- i don't understand how or why people get reallyyyyreallyyyyy drunk all the time. it's dangerous. and i dont' really see the fun in looking like a fool?
- chicken burgers at the tav aren't too bad.
- one day i shall have to go and try a lemon lime bitters from the tav, it's only 3 bucks.
- being cheated on a horrific thing. and i can't imagine what it would be like, dealing with that. and i hope i shall never have to.
- i bought my most expensive bottle of coke at the airport on the weekend. 600ml. $4.50
- sticking by someone when they've hurt you is really difficult. sometimes you feel like just letting go, but you know that you could never do so.
- sleep is awesome.
- codral is also awesome.
- no more chem labs for the rest of semester. YES!
- i've done my marks book for the semester, and i'm going to try to aim for 75+ for every subject in an attempt to up my gpa.
- doctors make mistakes. i hope someone doesn't die as a result of my mistakes. i could get sued.
- there was an uni email sent arnd abt some diabetic company looking for undergrad students to work in their labs at uni. 6 - 8 hrs a wk. nxt yr. i might apply. it sounds pretty cool.
- i lost my coin purse today. i walked back all the way to my psyc lab to look for it. found it with my soothers still inside. but no lipbalm. i thought someone stole it. but by the end of the day realized it was in my pencil case x)
- i hope i can pull off a hd for maths this sem
- i still haven't completely finished unpacking
- i want satin black heels =[
- i want a romantic candle light dinner =[ *COUGH*
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, drinking, exams, food, gpa, medicine, results, sick, sleep, uni
7:39 PM
Sunday, September 27, 2009
♥ ballarat
- ballarat is a really cold place. really cold. i don't think i've ever been anyone colder. i can't imagine what snow will be like.
- when eating at formal dinners, your bread is located on your left. the one of the right is for the person on your right, who happened to be the district governor for me.
- old ladies (i'm talking 50s-70s) know how to dance.
- older couples are cute. especially when they get up to slow dance to a live band.
- new york new york is a song that brought back many memories from tour, when the 17 piece seb big band played it live.
- i've been living on 5-6 hours sleep for the past three days.
- waking up at 6am to absolute FREEZING cold, makes it 10x harder to get outta bed. but i had a plane to catch.
- the zonta clubs are full of warm friendly women.
- if ur not prepared for speeches, just be yourself, like your having a conversation with someone. show them your personality. it works.
- i am still feeling groggy.
- lack of sleep + cold/flu + getting pms + long and busy weekend = a very sick me.
- still haven't completely finished packing. feel like going back to sleep in fact.
- i hardly took any pictures. it was way to awkward to actually get up and go around to take pics. so i didn't. regrettably.
- sigh, i feel like crap.
Labels: awards, holidays, sick, sleep, travel, worn out, zonta
4:26 PM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
♥ s e v e n
after a full day at uni, i was exhausted, because i didnt fall asleep til after 2am.
it's the last day today. i 'bumped' into him at the anhb lab place. i actually had a purpose of being there, and it had to be at that time too. but then again, i dont think i would have gone out of my way to "avoid" him anyways x)
we also talked on the phone for a bit about tomorrow. so yes. really, its just been getting slacker as the days progress, whoops >__>. but i'm feeling rather satisfied from this break. it's given me the space that i needed. and it's helped me make up my mind abt a few things. and i'll keep reminding myself that its a good option to go when things aren't going well.
i have a pretty cool surprise set for tomorrow. but i don't know how 'cool' it is anymore. hopefully it all works out. i'm quite excited.
i have realized i have no money. actually wait, i do have money. but not as much as i did a month or so ago. i shall have to spend wisely. esp since i'm not working so much anymoree due to weddings/holidays etc coming up...
i leave for ballarat in like ONE week. i didn't realize it was so soon. oh dear. should really begin speech writing.
human bio quiz nxt wk, it's on like SIX topics, compared to the usual two. arghhh!
marks all come out nxt wk (except psyc report) for the midsems/assignments... hopefully that will give an indication of how i'm going, and what subs i need to work on the most.
anywayssss, less than ten hours to go. i sound like a kid going to their first bday party :) excited much?
it's the last day today. i 'bumped' into him at the anhb lab place. i actually had a purpose of being there, and it had to be at that time too. but then again, i dont think i would have gone out of my way to "avoid" him anyways x)
we also talked on the phone for a bit about tomorrow. so yes. really, its just been getting slacker as the days progress, whoops >__>. but i'm feeling rather satisfied from this break. it's given me the space that i needed. and it's helped me make up my mind abt a few things. and i'll keep reminding myself that its a good option to go when things aren't going well.
i have a pretty cool surprise set for tomorrow. but i don't know how 'cool' it is anymore. hopefully it all works out. i'm quite excited.
i have realized i have no money. actually wait, i do have money. but not as much as i did a month or so ago. i shall have to spend wisely. esp since i'm not working so much anymoree due to weddings/holidays etc coming up...
i leave for ballarat in like ONE week. i didn't realize it was so soon. oh dear. should really begin speech writing.
human bio quiz nxt wk, it's on like SIX topics, compared to the usual two. arghhh!
marks all come out nxt wk (except psyc report) for the midsems/assignments... hopefully that will give an indication of how i'm going, and what subs i need to work on the most.
anywayssss, less than ten hours to go. i sound like a kid going to their first bday party :) excited much?
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, exams, hbio, money, psyc, sleep, zonta
11:59 PM
Monday, September 14, 2009
♥ midsems overRrRr!
chem mid sem - FINISHED. OVER. DONE.
psyc report - DONE. COMPLETED. HANDED IN.
IT FEELS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDD.
*note to self, another stat test in wk 11*
okay, so i did stay up to study yesterday. til like 2am until josh asked me why i was still up and made me go to bed. even though we're not meant to be talking? lol. glad to know he's still looking out for me.
slept at 230ish. woke up at 8... got up at 830ish. yes...
went to uni, handed in psyc report.
walked around the library looking for someone who does chem too. found allan and steven. and thankyou God that i saw them / went looking in the first place. because they had the most awesomest practice questions that helped SO MUCH, that i am so sure i did pretty well :) ahh God is so awsomeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
yes, i'm sleep deprived. but that hot chocolate in the morning lasted til my exam x)
anyways, i've got lots to catch up on now (since ive been focusing on chem and psyc so much!)
but i think i need a nap. so sleep deprived x)
P.S. asia cocktail on fridayyyyyyy and i actually know who's going now =] was kinda worried not many people were going. but yes. shall be a good night out with the girls! yay!
psyc report - DONE. COMPLETED. HANDED IN.
IT FEELS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDD.
*note to self, another stat test in wk 11*
okay, so i did stay up to study yesterday. til like 2am until josh asked me why i was still up and made me go to bed. even though we're not meant to be talking? lol. glad to know he's still looking out for me.
slept at 230ish. woke up at 8... got up at 830ish. yes...
went to uni, handed in psyc report.
walked around the library looking for someone who does chem too. found allan and steven. and thankyou God that i saw them / went looking in the first place. because they had the most awesomest practice questions that helped SO MUCH, that i am so sure i did pretty well :) ahh God is so awsomeeeeeeeee ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
yes, i'm sleep deprived. but that hot chocolate in the morning lasted til my exam x)
anyways, i've got lots to catch up on now (since ive been focusing on chem and psyc so much!)
but i think i need a nap. so sleep deprived x)
P.S. asia cocktail on fridayyyyyyy and i actually know who's going now =] was kinda worried not many people were going. but yes. shall be a good night out with the girls! yay!
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, chemistry, clubbing, exams, God, psyc, sleep, uni, worn out
6:07 PM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
♥ f o u r
firstly, i hate chemistry. remind me why i am doing it.
i feel like just crawling into bed and hoping to wake up in a weeks time, to find that i didn't even have to rock up to my mid sem exam.
geez, whats the end of the year going to be like.
sigh, pull me through this one God.
secondly i miss him. and should stop trying to find excuses to talk to him. sigh -.-" be stronger.
thirdly. curry laksa is tasty.
and that is all.
DIE CHEMISTRY! >=[
i feel like just crawling into bed and hoping to wake up in a weeks time, to find that i didn't even have to rock up to my mid sem exam.
geez, whats the end of the year going to be like.
sigh, pull me through this one God.
secondly i miss him. and should stop trying to find excuses to talk to him. sigh -.-" be stronger.
thirdly. curry laksa is tasty.
and that is all.
DIE CHEMISTRY! >=[
11:48 PM
