Sunday, October 3, 2010
♥ motivation
i sorta lost motivation to do my assignments today.
it's so BORRRRRRRRRRRRINGGGGGGG.
then i just had a convo with hsern ern about umat, interviews and gpa scores... and i've realized that... i'm not in a particularly great spot at the moment. and hence i shouldn't be slacking!
talking to him really helped put things into perspective, especially when we started to compare his results from last year to mine, this year.
my gpa is pretty borderline, and will most likely fall into the bottom third. my umat score will definately fall into the bottom third... and what's left is just the interview!
it's weighted 1:2:2 being umat, gpa and interview respectively.
well can't change anything now about the umat score... and first i need to actually get an interview offer before i can try to do well in the interview
but in the mean time i really need to work hard to up that GPA of mine... and hopefully push it into the middle third at least! And that means my final marks in all my units MUST be over 75... but i really need to push all for 80+ to bump to something decent. it's really difficult because it doesn't bump up that much! like i got 3HDs, 1D last sem, and it only bumped up my gpa but like 0.15 =___= sighhhhhhh.
hmmm i just worked it out, and even if i got straight HDs, it would only put me into like the middle third... NOT looking good. but i guess thats better than bottom third!
i hope i can pull it off, especially with this lameo atypical development unit i've got..... uber difficult.
NO TIME FOR SLACKING.
gotta work hard!
Labels: gpa, medicine, motivation, umat
1:12 AM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
♥ getcha head in the game!
alright
so this is what me and a mate from church have decided.. hmm pacts are good for motivation.
fb. only between the times of 7pm - 7:30pm. and lets say i wasn't home during that time - then no fb that night for meeee! that also means no fb durin uni........... hmmm
msn. no more msn after 7:30pm!
study more during uni breaks, rather than socialize.
sleep before 11:30pm everynight, try to get to bed by 11... waking up early for uni is a pain.
skype. max half an hr. around 10:30 - 11pm.
umat. 10 - 10:30pm if i haven't already done so during uni breaks (usually 9am). or i could do double in a day, if im in a good mood.
all until end of exams!
it's a deal
1/4πε₀ says:
*ok
**handshake*
- ♡ dT. [ j & d <3>
**handshake back*
so this is what me and a mate from church have decided.. hmm pacts are good for motivation.
fb. only between the times of 7pm - 7:30pm. and lets say i wasn't home during that time - then no fb that night for meeee! that also means no fb durin uni........... hmmm
msn. no more msn after 7:30pm!
study more during uni breaks, rather than socialize.
sleep before 11:30pm everynight, try to get to bed by 11... waking up early for uni is a pain.
skype. max half an hr. around 10:30 - 11pm.
umat. 10 - 10:30pm if i haven't already done so during uni breaks (usually 9am). or i could do double in a day, if im in a good mood.
all until end of exams!
it's a deal
1/4πε₀ says:
*ok
**handshake*
- ♡ dT. [ j & d <3>
**handshake back*
4:28 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
♥ sticking to the diet
the other day i was sitting down in the food court at work
and these three women sat down. they already had a baby and i think they were trying to lose the fat that you gain when you pregnant (you know?)
anyways i overheard them talk about salads and food...
and after a while, one of them sat down with a salad from sumo salad - very healthy, good job right? but then she opens a 600mL bottle of coke.
and i started thinking to myself... "uhh, dude, if tryin to lose weight, whats the point of gettin a salad if ur just gonna drink coke?"
it just seemed, so... stupid at the time.
but when i draw parallels to my own life.
i have a dream, i have a goal... i have a way of getting there. a plan maybe.
but do i really stick to my plan... you see, at least that lady GOT a salad... where as in my situation, its like i walk straight past that sumo salad place...
maybe i looked through the window - but i don't bother stopping to buy anything, because those red rooster chips smell so much better... because they're cheaper... easier to eat on the go...
sometimes i don't even realize i walk past that salad place, because my eyes are so set on red rooster. i say i "want" to reach my goal (in this situation - losing weight) but, i dont.
is it because i can't find the time? because i don't have the money. or its just not that appealing.
all these lame excuses...
does it really just come down to how much i "want" it.
is it really as simple as - if you want it, you'll work for it. don't people get distracted? too busy? things don't go according to plan... it doesn't mean that i don't want it.
anyways, this blog entry will sound really stupid if you don't know what i'm talking about - don't worry, i'm not actually on a diet, and i will never pay $10 for a salad... but as i said, its drawing parallels... i dont even know if i make sense.. zzz
and these three women sat down. they already had a baby and i think they were trying to lose the fat that you gain when you pregnant (you know?)
anyways i overheard them talk about salads and food...
and after a while, one of them sat down with a salad from sumo salad - very healthy, good job right? but then she opens a 600mL bottle of coke.
and i started thinking to myself... "uhh, dude, if tryin to lose weight, whats the point of gettin a salad if ur just gonna drink coke?"
it just seemed, so... stupid at the time.
but when i draw parallels to my own life.
i have a dream, i have a goal... i have a way of getting there. a plan maybe.
but do i really stick to my plan... you see, at least that lady GOT a salad... where as in my situation, its like i walk straight past that sumo salad place...
maybe i looked through the window - but i don't bother stopping to buy anything, because those red rooster chips smell so much better... because they're cheaper... easier to eat on the go...
sometimes i don't even realize i walk past that salad place, because my eyes are so set on red rooster. i say i "want" to reach my goal (in this situation - losing weight) but, i dont.
is it because i can't find the time? because i don't have the money. or its just not that appealing.
all these lame excuses...
does it really just come down to how much i "want" it.
is it really as simple as - if you want it, you'll work for it. don't people get distracted? too busy? things don't go according to plan... it doesn't mean that i don't want it.
anyways, this blog entry will sound really stupid if you don't know what i'm talking about - don't worry, i'm not actually on a diet, and i will never pay $10 for a salad... but as i said, its drawing parallels... i dont even know if i make sense.. zzz
Labels: busy, food, money, motivation, overload, relationships, umat
11:46 AM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
♥ blog entry 101
it's post 101. and it's going to be a long one (be warned)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
i have so much on my mind. i just need to let it all out.
i don't like to get emotionally involved in other people's problems. really, i tell people to ensure that they are there for their friends, but not the point where they are becoming drained and exhausted and stressed.
so u know. i'm trying not to let what my friends are going through, effect me. but i'm still concerned. still worried. and i sometimes feel like i come to the point where i can do nothing.
so a mate of mine, has been living a crazy life. 3/4 hours sleep max a night. his life revolved around sleep (3/4hrs).. uni (8am - 4 maybe?).. work (4pm - 3/4am!)
which is totally INSANE. and he see's the problem. but believes he's doing it for the 'right' reasons. he believes he just needs to put up with it for half a yr or so, before it gets 'easier'. in my mind im thinking 'what exactly is easier?'
his health is obviously detoriating. not to mention his relationship with his parents, sister, friends.
i wish he could see his life, through the eyes of his parents. or even through my eyes. i wish he could see how he's revolving his life around work so much, that if you took work out of his life, he'd be left with nothing. i wish he could see that if he continues like this, his body wont be able to handle it. i wish he could see that really, it's not going to get any easier, and there are other ways to handle work (rather than what he thinks he has to do - "the hard times").
it's hard to do things over the phone. i wish i could just fly there and knock some sense into him. literally... i want to make not only SEE.. but CHANGE. to turn things around... and get his life back. sigh!
another friend. he's been such a big part of my life for agesss. i've known him for over a decade. i guess i know his weaknesses... he's not good with peer pressure. i've kinda realized he doesn't really stick with what he says either. u know... when a friend says they're going to stop doing something because of this life changing experience they had... and they begun to realize all these things. u really begin to believe it u know? like to really believe they're going to follow through on their word. that really, they see their mistakes, and they want to change, and they're going to... then time passes, and u realize not much has really changed. they fall back into their old habits. they don't really keep their word. and well, i'm left sorta hurt actually, because i realize that things haven't changed, and i was silly to believe it would.
ugh. that sounds so pessimistic. but i feel like its a cycle. u do something thats not good. u get caught. u stop for a while. but u fall back into old habits. i guess u could call it human. really, i should be more understanding, and less judging. i should be a better friend. do i point out these things to him? how he says things but doesn't really follow through? but then wouldn't i sound naggy... maybe even mother-ish. maybe over-concerned. maybe i'm just over-exaggerating. really? am i? i dont think so. so what do i do? let him continue the way he is. and just hope he learns, again, hopefully permanently.....
then, i see another mate. he's happy and fine. but we have a talk about relationships. and i see his view on dating, and i get worried. i understand that in today's culture... dating is just for fun and stuff... i just feel that lots of people don't realize that relationships aren't painfree. and getting into a relationship for the wrong reasons, and believing ur strong enough to deal with any hurt that may come later - isn't just enough... because ur not the only one who will get hurt.
okay. away from the friends. and now to me.
im currently dealing with a massive wake up call.
i had an online quiz for anthropology that i was meant to do, but i missed the deadline. thats 4% gone, from my final grade. and it hurts. a lot.
thats what happens, when u make up excuses. first it was my midsem. had to focus on that... then i just lost track of what i needed to do. really, i had it on my to-do-list, i had it in my diary - im organised! but not really.
i need to be more organised. i need to manage my time more wisely. i need to have a better memory. and i need to be more focused, motivated and determined.
really. i can say these things. but its about time i started following my own words. just like i expect my friend to, i should also expect myself to.
its time to catch up on uni work, to write notes for certain subjects, and finish all those assignments and study for all those tests i have once study break ends. it's time to up the umat practice, and start working like a student who needs a gpa > 6.
i've been going out too much i think. maybe even close to overloading. i need to make time to study. even if that means less work. being in debt with my parents isn't a problem, because im sure they'd prefer i spent more time studying than working.
God i need you so badly right now.
it's time to wake up ditza!
(let me just catch up on sleep first.... zZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz)
Labels: anthropology, busy, friends, life, motivation, relationships, sleep, uni, work, worn out
4:05 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
♥ chem test in a few hrs!
chem test at 2pm today.
it's currently 9:39am and i'm feeling pretty...
unprepared u could say.
even though i'm sitting in the library...
i guess it's because jason is next to me and he never studies -.-"
thank goodness i have such a motivated and smart boyfriend to help me study in my 3hr break!
it's currently 9:39am and i'm feeling pretty...
unprepared u could say.
even though i'm sitting in the library...
i guess it's because jason is next to me and he never studies -.-"
thank goodness i have such a motivated and smart boyfriend to help me study in my 3hr break!
9:33 AM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
♥ get ur head in the game!
so realization has hit...
but has the motivation followed?
kinda =/ but not superly.
my maths assignment is due this fri.
nxt wk i have a chem test on monday. anth assignment due friday.
umat is... 29 July.
i'm in my 4th week of uni, but i guess i haven't being putting in my all as i should be!
still need to catch up with maths (since i joined the class a few weeks late)... chemistry = G_G... anth = so much readingggggggggggggggggggg (haven't done any xD)... psyc = mmm i should probably read the book and answer the quiz questions properly, rather than just googling the answers.
yes! slack! horrible i know!
i need to pick up the pace.
so with anth - those stupid textbooks aren't coming in til april! G_G.. i learnt u can reserve books for certain times in teh library (so i think i'll do that for either monday nights or at my 9am breaks - which i have everyday) so i dont need to buy the two txt books for only half a semester.
chem... i really need to start memorizing stuff - no graphic calcs = no notes = G_G
maths... zmgsh xD noOOoo !!! =( why dont unis let us use graphicssssssssss <333...
psyc = pretty cruisey. i should probably do some work for it though. haha.
anyways.
time to pick up the pace.
it starts now.
--
okay, it starts in an hour (after home&away........ and a shower.........)
but has the motivation followed?
kinda =/ but not superly.
my maths assignment is due this fri.
nxt wk i have a chem test on monday. anth assignment due friday.
umat is... 29 July.
i'm in my 4th week of uni, but i guess i haven't being putting in my all as i should be!
still need to catch up with maths (since i joined the class a few weeks late)... chemistry = G_G... anth = so much readingggggggggggggggggggg (haven't done any xD)... psyc = mmm i should probably read the book and answer the quiz questions properly, rather than just googling the answers.
yes! slack! horrible i know!
i need to pick up the pace.
so with anth - those stupid textbooks aren't coming in til april! G_G.. i learnt u can reserve books for certain times in teh library (so i think i'll do that for either monday nights or at my 9am breaks - which i have everyday) so i dont need to buy the two txt books for only half a semester.
chem... i really need to start memorizing stuff - no graphic calcs = no notes = G_G
maths... zmgsh xD noOOoo !!! =( why dont unis let us use graphicssssssssss <333...
psyc = pretty cruisey. i should probably do some work for it though. haha.
anyways.
time to pick up the pace.
it starts now.
--
okay, it starts in an hour (after home&away........ and a shower.........)
6:54 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009
♥ hot chocolates for getting into med
jason tan. one day, u will owe me a years worth of hot chocolate...
beccause im going to get there!
one dayy...
you just wait...
beccause im going to get there!
one dayy...
you just wait...
Labels: friends, hot chocolate, medicine, motivation, uni
9:02 PM
