Friday, March 4, 2011
♥ journey
i emailed the faculty asking for my med application results, and it made me just think back to so many things.
i remember when i first got my umat score in year 12, and something in my heart just dropped - because i knew it wasn't enough to get an interview...
in first year, i was kinda happy with my umat score, but i didn't realize that it still wasn't enough for an interview.. and my heart kinda dropped.
last year, my third year of trying... i remember getting my score and being hopeful for an interview - but i remember I made sure I didn't expect anything - i didn't want to be dissappointed again... And I remember having this arguement with Josh, whom I kept getting annoyed at whenever he mentioned offers.
there were times where i was so worried... didn't think i'd hit the bar... times where i needed motivation...
i remember posting things like....
my gpa is pretty borderline, and will most likely fall into the bottom third. my umat score will definately fall into the bottom third... and what's left is just the interview!
it's weighted 1:2:2 being umat, gpa and interview respectively.
well can't change anything now about the umat score... and first i need to actually get an interview offer before i can try to do well in the interview
but in the mean time i really need to work hard to up that GPA of mine... and hopefully push it into the middle third at least!
- motivation, 03.10.2011
oh and the interview... the horrible interview...
It was hard. Really it was. I've had interviews before but these questions just seemed so different. So abstract almost. I felt i couldn't communicate what kind of person i am and the things i'm passionate about. I could tell my technique and confidence dropped a bit midway. But the worst was when it was over and i realized that i could not do anything to make myself perform better. Feeling rather disappointed in myself actually...
- =(, 29.10.2011
there were times where i doubted that med was where i was meant to be...
and i was feeling that exact same feeling a few days ago - the course was just so overwhelming. filled with so much content. i felt so behind... and so stupid... so unprepared and so caught off guard - my expecations thrown out the window...
and you know what? God is good.
he placed some amazing people in my life who are so supportive and so encouraging.
and ... after getting my results back ... i am just amazed at how God works.
i am reminded that through all those trials, obstacles and difficulties... God really carried me through it all - to beyond my expectations... and he can do it again.
7:11 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
♥ update in dot points
#1. I have these disgusting burns/scabs/blisters on my face. and they are absolutely horrific that I am very self conscious about them and don't really want to go out in public like this. even when nig came over yesterday i was like hiding my face with a pillow (and usually i don't care how crap i look like when i see him)
#2. Uni results... I got 3HDs and 1D ... =D! really happy about my HDs, but a little dissappointed about my D.. it was JUST on 70 (phew it wasn't one mark less). So I fell short my goal of getting everything above 75, and fell short of my goal of getting straight HDs. but it still turned out pretty good :) man scaling must have whoop-ed me bad for maths. really happy about my psyc unit results though, FINALLY a HD for a psychology unit!!! i've fallen short of it so many times (and oh so close too). But yes, my GPA has gone up! YAY! Hopefully it's enough to get into medicine :)
#3. I'm still recovering from a cold (zzz) that i caught in my final days in Sydney. I think I've finally gotten over the jet lag issue / lack of sleep from last week. For the past few days all I've been doing is sleeping!!!!!!!
#4. Uni Timetable is looking pretty good so far. If everything works to plan it will be half day Monday, one lecture on Tues (if i decide to go), one lecture on Wed (HMMMMMMM), half day (morning) Thurs, full day Fri. So finding time to fit in work shall be easy :)
#5. my UMAT is at 8AM.. like ZMGSH T__T dislikeDISLIKEdislike! I am not a morning person *sigh* can't believe it's in two weeks... *freaks out* nearly broke down about it yesterday too! gahgah, one step at a time!
#6. Still haven't blogged about BYM........... Ooopss... when I have time I will :)
Labels: results, self image, sick, umat, uni
9:21 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
♥ hot weather is coming
i can't believe its forecasted to be 32 degrees this saturday...
and i will be stuck at reddot working from 10 - 4pm.
=[ instead of hanging out at the beach.
thinking of canceling looksmart on sunday. was going to work 10.30 - 3.30, but might need to study instead. even though double pay is so appealing, i don't particularly NEED the money... esp since i'm working heaps this wk at reddot :) still not in debt, so yay for financial freedom. will open one of those online saving account thingys soon so i can start getting interest!
exams are looming close. closer than i thought. sixteen days in fact. will try to average a fgpa of 6.5 this semester. but really, i'm happy with anything above 6.2. i hope my hbio mark is better than my anth mark last sem, or else i will be disappointed.
will try to keep everything over a 70 this sem (if anything, chem and hbio will be close)
neeeeeeeed to scrape a 80 for statsss (it's maths! I MUST maintain my love for it!) and hopefully for psyc too! because i didn't really try so much last sem for psyc. and it's not a bad unit, i quite like it.. even though i rarely go to lectures... it is interesting.
i still haven't figured what i'm doing next year. but yeah, it's not the time to lose motivation! must focus on exams... and not let it be a repeat of yr12.
attempting to use my uni breaks more constructively, and it's working. it's difficult when i only have one hr breaks most of the time... so it's not much time but at least we get through some stuff :)
waking up for 9am lectures is becoming increasingly difficult. i'm almost to the point of giving up and just ilecturing. but NO. MUST AT LEAST TRYYYYYYYYYYYY. gahgaghaghah.
that's it for now, i'm exhausted... was falling asleep in my chem lect today.
Labels: beach, chemistry, exams, hbio, maths, money, psyc, reddot, results, summer, uni, weather, work
10:27 PM
Monday, September 28, 2009
♥ results & random thoughts
chem mid sem: 85.3
human bio essay : 83.5
stats test 1: 85.7
psyc report: results out monday.
weeee, those results make me happy. but i know i've slacked off the past few weeks. NOT GOOD for my gpa, so will need to get back into it (very difficult while having a cold and feeling like all i want to do is sleep) anyways just some random thoughts.
human bio essay : 83.5
stats test 1: 85.7
psyc report: results out monday.
weeee, those results make me happy. but i know i've slacked off the past few weeks. NOT GOOD for my gpa, so will need to get back into it (very difficult while having a cold and feeling like all i want to do is sleep) anyways just some random thoughts.
- i don't understand how or why people get reallyyyyreallyyyyy drunk all the time. it's dangerous. and i dont' really see the fun in looking like a fool?
- chicken burgers at the tav aren't too bad.
- one day i shall have to go and try a lemon lime bitters from the tav, it's only 3 bucks.
- being cheated on a horrific thing. and i can't imagine what it would be like, dealing with that. and i hope i shall never have to.
- i bought my most expensive bottle of coke at the airport on the weekend. 600ml. $4.50
- sticking by someone when they've hurt you is really difficult. sometimes you feel like just letting go, but you know that you could never do so.
- sleep is awesome.
- codral is also awesome.
- no more chem labs for the rest of semester. YES!
- i've done my marks book for the semester, and i'm going to try to aim for 75+ for every subject in an attempt to up my gpa.
- doctors make mistakes. i hope someone doesn't die as a result of my mistakes. i could get sued.
- there was an uni email sent arnd abt some diabetic company looking for undergrad students to work in their labs at uni. 6 - 8 hrs a wk. nxt yr. i might apply. it sounds pretty cool.
- i lost my coin purse today. i walked back all the way to my psyc lab to look for it. found it with my soothers still inside. but no lipbalm. i thought someone stole it. but by the end of the day realized it was in my pencil case x)
- i hope i can pull off a hd for maths this sem
- i still haven't completely finished unpacking
- i want satin black heels =[
- i want a romantic candle light dinner =[ *COUGH*
Labels: assignments, boyfriend, drinking, exams, food, gpa, medicine, results, sick, sleep, uni
7:39 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
♥ umat results
eighty six percentile.
compared to my fifty seven from last year, it's a much better score, ahaha.
but is it good enough? i dont know.
people say 90% guarantees you a med interview. and 80+ is still possible too.
they say there's 15 places for non standard entry.
but some for the rural people... some are for the bonded places.
i have decisions i need to make. i thought i already decided. wasn't going to consider dentistry or bonded.
but josh is making me rethinkk.
but i don't know.. i know what i want. but can i get it?
hbio test next.
six hours later...
i'm feeling more happy about my score now.
thanks God :)
i'm still undecided about bonded. i changed it on tisc anyways. and think i'll go visit the admissions center one day to talk to someone about it.
and spend some time praying about it too.
i also haven't had an interview since like.. zonta mid last year. so i really need to brush up on some interview technique if i do get one.
and i really need to study too..... exams soon. and need to keep that gpa rising. gahs. this semester is much harder than last =[
compared to my fifty seven from last year, it's a much better score, ahaha.
but is it good enough? i dont know.
people say 90% guarantees you a med interview. and 80+ is still possible too.
they say there's 15 places for non standard entry.
but some for the rural people... some are for the bonded places.
i have decisions i need to make. i thought i already decided. wasn't going to consider dentistry or bonded.
but josh is making me rethinkk.
but i don't know.. i know what i want. but can i get it?
hbio test next.
---------------------------------------------------
six hours later...
i'm feeling more happy about my score now.
thanks God :)
i'm still undecided about bonded. i changed it on tisc anyways. and think i'll go visit the admissions center one day to talk to someone about it.
and spend some time praying about it too.
i also haven't had an interview since like.. zonta mid last year. so i really need to brush up on some interview technique if i do get one.
and i really need to study too..... exams soon. and need to keep that gpa rising. gahs. this semester is much harder than last =[
6:17 PM
♥ they're out
the results are out. but.....
i still haven't checked! >__>
waiting for chris x) to hurry up and get his laptop working.
i still haven't checked! >__>
waiting for chris x) to hurry up and get his laptop working.
10:22 AM
Monday, July 6, 2009
♥ iHATEit.
im tired. grumpy. moody
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
haha, so forgive me if this blog isn't very pleasant.
pms is taking its toll. and it sucks xD
tomorrow i begin the prep courses for umat. the $695 courses, my parents paid for, in order to help me do better for the big umat on the 29th.
i am so sick of the umat. seriously. i raged on my bfs fb the other day about how frustrating and annoying it is. doing the online practice exams are killing me. they take so long. they mess up my mind. they frustrate and annoy me. i just want to tear the paper up. luckily its all online. and i wouldn't dare throw my laptop around. haha.
but, as much as i may hate it, i need to learn to put up with it. i need to own it. do well. so i never have to see it again! haha.
but right now, more than anything i need God. i have God. It's all good.
despite knowing that i NEED to do umat. i HAVE to do umat. i WANT to own umat...
im in such a mood that im so angry at it i wish i could just burn the stupid thing. gaH. i HATE it.
anyways. on a different note. results are out. hd, d, d, c.
argh c for chem. and d for anth - what the! and im droppin anth nxt sem.. picking up human bio.
i dont kno how thats going to help my gpa. a totally new unit (havent done it in yr 11/12 either) and then still doing the next sem of chem... =/ but droppin the arts sub that i got a distinction in..... uhh...
i was hoping i could scrap a hd for psyc too, but guess i didnt make it. i really want to know my exam mark, so i know what i got... but they only give u ur final unit results. and working it out myself doesn't really work because i still dont know if scaling occured.
anyways, moral of story.. i heart maths. i hope i got a 100 for that exam >__>. i was like one of the few who actually didn't leave within the first hour and a half of the three hour exam. jsut so i could check my answers and redo the whole exam haha. im so sadd........
anyways.. i should sleep so im wide awake for those prep coures -.-"
Labels: anthropology, chemistry, fb, God, maths, medentry, pms, psyc, results, umat, uni
12:22 AM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
♥ ouch...
sigh.
it hurts.
but it doesnt matter right?
it hurts.
but it doesnt matter right?
Labels: high school, results, TEE
1:01 AM
Monday, December 22, 2008
♥ results soon...
ahh... TEE results are out soon...
it's only down to a matter of hours...
it's quite daunting....
i mean, to be honest... i dont really need much. i dont neeeeeed superduper high.
so in that sense, i dont really mind what i get.
and yes, its true. my parents... are being parents. and they want me to get superduperhigh T.T
but u know... i guess it all comes down to the futureee...
and i know that i didnt get into medicine already, so i'm going to have to go the long way
but i'll get there in the end right? it's perservance. persistance....
just never giving up...
i think thats what matters.
i think with the results coming out soon.. it's not about getting into the course that i'm worried about...
it's whether i can get a scholarship or not.
and the scholarship isnt necessary or anything. but it's handy. it'd be good to get it. but i dont absolutely need it. u know?
but yeah. im not expecting anything - to be honest. just hopeful.
but either way. i'll be happy. happy that i've finished highschool... and moving onto the next stage of life...
ahh the pieces of my life are surely falling into place... =)
it's only down to a matter of hours...
it's quite daunting....
i mean, to be honest... i dont really need much. i dont neeeeeed superduper high.
so in that sense, i dont really mind what i get.
and yes, its true. my parents... are being parents. and they want me to get superduperhigh T.T
but u know... i guess it all comes down to the futureee...
and i know that i didnt get into medicine already, so i'm going to have to go the long way
but i'll get there in the end right? it's perservance. persistance....
just never giving up...
i think thats what matters.
i think with the results coming out soon.. it's not about getting into the course that i'm worried about...
it's whether i can get a scholarship or not.
and the scholarship isnt necessary or anything. but it's handy. it'd be good to get it. but i dont absolutely need it. u know?
but yeah. im not expecting anything - to be honest. just hopeful.
but either way. i'll be happy. happy that i've finished highschool... and moving onto the next stage of life...
ahh the pieces of my life are surely falling into place... =)
Labels: high school, life, results, TEE
6:49 PM
