Friday, August 7, 2009
♥ i am blessed
the past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me.
+ the stress of the lead up to the umat
+ the many trials and difficulties that put a strain on my relationship with josh
+ the feeling of seeing my first cadaver
+ the stress of beginning uni again, and picking up a subject that i have no background knowledge of
+ the fear of disappointment from my zonta club, once they hear of my setbacks
+ my parents going away, and the dog not eating, or having to spend much of my night doing things like washing or feeding the dog or preparing my lunch for the next day - instead of studying
+ the sickness and exhaustiveness that comes when you get ur period
there has been nights where i have just cried myself to sleep. nights were i have questioned God about His plans for my life. nights where i could hardly sleep. nights where i would just konk out due to pure exhaustiveness.
Chris Tomlin's music, has provided me with so much comfort these past few weeks. I listen to the album, Arriving, on shuffle and loop and repeat on my phone, josh's ipod and my laptop. I can't even pick one song to stick up on here, because i rekon they are all just awesome. Oh, here's one, i like how they put the words and images on this one..
as i reflect on the past year, and more so the past six months, i've realized some things. some things good. some things bad.
i believe i've become too emotionally dependant on my boyfriend. i believe i haven't been managing my time wisely. i believe i have been to quick to judge people.
but on a better note... i believe i've reached financial freedom. six months ago i was maybe $700 in debt. today, i am now a source for borrowing money from my family. i also believe i've been eating healthier. well slightly. im getting there, but i dont think i've had kfc for a while. hehe. and when it comes to regular exercise... i still haven't reached there yet. but i will! haha.
Late september, I will be flying to VIC to speak at the Zonta International District 23 Conference. Actually at the beginning of the dinner on Wed night, Alison had told me that the district couldn't jusitfy flying me over there for a 10 minute speech. But yesterday i recieved the good news, that after i left, the club decided that they would cover my expenses to fly me over there. I will probably leave on a Friday, and get back in time for uni on the Monday. so praise God =)
Well today i was meant to be working, but they took me off because a lady came in for the whole of the week to cover my manager who went for training. This will give me a good opportunity to get some things done.. e.g. clean my room... xD and catch up on the lectures i missed yest - oh dear, when buses go on strike... it sucks =(...
oh i bought some pretty boxes from work too (to put my shoes in) i bought the second and last one. the first one i've got a smaller version (well actually its joshs but for some reason its sitting in my room) and the third one i've got a big white version already from my birthday from lauf.
i think i have a gift box fetish. or it might just be because i work at reddot. xD but they're pretttyyy awesome.
oh oh i got my lab coat for chem xD its got the uwa logo on it ahahaha. i will take a picture of how nerdy i look in it and post it one day.
meantime... off to clean my room i go... but first i will get something to eat... mmm
+ the stress of the lead up to the umat
+ the many trials and difficulties that put a strain on my relationship with josh
+ the feeling of seeing my first cadaver
+ the stress of beginning uni again, and picking up a subject that i have no background knowledge of
+ the fear of disappointment from my zonta club, once they hear of my setbacks
+ my parents going away, and the dog not eating, or having to spend much of my night doing things like washing or feeding the dog or preparing my lunch for the next day - instead of studying
+ the sickness and exhaustiveness that comes when you get ur period
there has been nights where i have just cried myself to sleep. nights were i have questioned God about His plans for my life. nights where i could hardly sleep. nights where i would just konk out due to pure exhaustiveness.
Chris Tomlin's music, has provided me with so much comfort these past few weeks. I listen to the album, Arriving, on shuffle and loop and repeat on my phone, josh's ipod and my laptop. I can't even pick one song to stick up on here, because i rekon they are all just awesome. Oh, here's one, i like how they put the words and images on this one..
as i reflect on the past year, and more so the past six months, i've realized some things. some things good. some things bad.
i believe i've become too emotionally dependant on my boyfriend. i believe i haven't been managing my time wisely. i believe i have been to quick to judge people.
but on a better note... i believe i've reached financial freedom. six months ago i was maybe $700 in debt. today, i am now a source for borrowing money from my family. i also believe i've been eating healthier. well slightly. im getting there, but i dont think i've had kfc for a while. hehe. and when it comes to regular exercise... i still haven't reached there yet. but i will! haha.
Late september, I will be flying to VIC to speak at the Zonta International District 23 Conference. Actually at the beginning of the dinner on Wed night, Alison had told me that the district couldn't jusitfy flying me over there for a 10 minute speech. But yesterday i recieved the good news, that after i left, the club decided that they would cover my expenses to fly me over there. I will probably leave on a Friday, and get back in time for uni on the Monday. so praise God =)
Well today i was meant to be working, but they took me off because a lady came in for the whole of the week to cover my manager who went for training. This will give me a good opportunity to get some things done.. e.g. clean my room... xD and catch up on the lectures i missed yest - oh dear, when buses go on strike... it sucks =(...
oh i bought some pretty boxes from work too (to put my shoes in) i bought the second and last one. the first one i've got a smaller version (well actually its joshs but for some reason its sitting in my room) and the third one i've got a big white version already from my birthday from lauf.
i think i have a gift box fetish. or it might just be because i work at reddot. xD but they're pretttyyy awesome.oh oh i got my lab coat for chem xD its got the uwa logo on it ahahaha. i will take a picture of how nerdy i look in it and post it one day.
meantime... off to clean my room i go... but first i will get something to eat... mmm
Labels: boyfriend, chemistry, God, hbio, life, overload, parents, reddot, relationships, umat, uni, work, worn out
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