Friday, March 4, 2011
♥ journey
i emailed the faculty asking for my med application results, and it made me just think back to so many things.
i remember when i first got my umat score in year 12, and something in my heart just dropped - because i knew it wasn't enough to get an interview...
in first year, i was kinda happy with my umat score, but i didn't realize that it still wasn't enough for an interview.. and my heart kinda dropped.
last year, my third year of trying... i remember getting my score and being hopeful for an interview - but i remember I made sure I didn't expect anything - i didn't want to be dissappointed again... And I remember having this arguement with Josh, whom I kept getting annoyed at whenever he mentioned offers.
there were times where i was so worried... didn't think i'd hit the bar... times where i needed motivation...
i remember posting things like....
my gpa is pretty borderline, and will most likely fall into the bottom third. my umat score will definately fall into the bottom third... and what's left is just the interview!
it's weighted 1:2:2 being umat, gpa and interview respectively.
well can't change anything now about the umat score... and first i need to actually get an interview offer before i can try to do well in the interview
but in the mean time i really need to work hard to up that GPA of mine... and hopefully push it into the middle third at least!
- motivation, 03.10.2011
oh and the interview... the horrible interview...
It was hard. Really it was. I've had interviews before but these questions just seemed so different. So abstract almost. I felt i couldn't communicate what kind of person i am and the things i'm passionate about. I could tell my technique and confidence dropped a bit midway. But the worst was when it was over and i realized that i could not do anything to make myself perform better. Feeling rather disappointed in myself actually...
- =(, 29.10.2011
there were times where i doubted that med was where i was meant to be...
and i was feeling that exact same feeling a few days ago - the course was just so overwhelming. filled with so much content. i felt so behind... and so stupid... so unprepared and so caught off guard - my expecations thrown out the window...
and you know what? God is good.
he placed some amazing people in my life who are so supportive and so encouraging.
and ... after getting my results back ... i am just amazed at how God works.
i am reminded that through all those trials, obstacles and difficulties... God really carried me through it all - to beyond my expectations... and he can do it again.
7:11 PM
