Tuesday, September 22, 2009
♥ merging circles
i'm a pretty friendly person, and i don't find it all too difficult to strike a conversation with a friend of a friend, or even a total stranger.
this ability has allowed me to throw myself in a room of people i have never met before, and come out with some new friends.
it's a blessing and definitely something that works well being on the welcome team.
we all have circles of friends.
sometimes it tears me in two when there are fall outs within friendship circles. it is difficult, obviously, when your friends don't get along.
it becomes even more increasingly difficult when you begin to mix different groups.
sure, some are very comfortable where they are, and don't want to move out of their own circle. and that's cool. neutral is okay, as long as there's no tension between groups i reckon.
my boyfriend is a big part of my life. but so are my family and friends.
i'm glad he gets along with my family. he still needs to work on the hugging my mum thing though, he's really awkward about it...... anddd he thinks my dad's jokes are lame, but hey, doesn't everyone?! and yes, he doesn't really talk to my sister, and lets keep it that way.
i get along with most of his friends. and i guess its pretty easy to strike a conversation with them.
but i find that he's not so good with my friends. i agree that they don't really know him. but i guess he's just not very good with first impressions. hah, even i didn't have very nice first impressions of him either.
i've realized though, that just because i'm like this, that i should not expect him to be like that too.
but one day, sigh, maybe i won't have to live such a double life. and merging those two circles won't be such an issue anymore.
but in the meantime, it's just baby steps. very. slow. baby steps.
hopefully forward ones too.
anyways on another note. i find it very difficult to say sorry =[ it isn't easy. esp when i think i'm right abt the issue, it still doesn't justify my actions a lot of the time. i'm learning to say it. i'm learning to realize. but i'm still never the first one to do so ^^"
this ability has allowed me to throw myself in a room of people i have never met before, and come out with some new friends.
it's a blessing and definitely something that works well being on the welcome team.
we all have circles of friends.
sometimes it tears me in two when there are fall outs within friendship circles. it is difficult, obviously, when your friends don't get along.
it becomes even more increasingly difficult when you begin to mix different groups.
sure, some are very comfortable where they are, and don't want to move out of their own circle. and that's cool. neutral is okay, as long as there's no tension between groups i reckon.
my boyfriend is a big part of my life. but so are my family and friends.
i'm glad he gets along with my family. he still needs to work on the hugging my mum thing though, he's really awkward about it...... anddd he thinks my dad's jokes are lame, but hey, doesn't everyone?! and yes, he doesn't really talk to my sister, and lets keep it that way.
i get along with most of his friends. and i guess its pretty easy to strike a conversation with them.
but i find that he's not so good with my friends. i agree that they don't really know him. but i guess he's just not very good with first impressions. hah, even i didn't have very nice first impressions of him either.
i've realized though, that just because i'm like this, that i should not expect him to be like that too.
but one day, sigh, maybe i won't have to live such a double life. and merging those two circles won't be such an issue anymore.
but in the meantime, it's just baby steps. very. slow. baby steps.
hopefully forward ones too.
anyways on another note. i find it very difficult to say sorry =[ it isn't easy. esp when i think i'm right abt the issue, it still doesn't justify my actions a lot of the time. i'm learning to say it. i'm learning to realize. but i'm still never the first one to do so ^^"5:54 PM
