Sunday, January 31, 2010
♥ #347
after about 15 months of blogging, and #346 posts, two blog addresses...
i am amazed i've kept up with it. i'm usually not that great with maintaining things like this.
came up in a conversation today. blogging that is.
kinda got me questioning why i blog in the first place.
here's some dot points ;)
- to vent, rant, complain etc
- to express how i feel about certain things / issues / topics
- to say things out in the open (so i don't have to tell every single person one by one)
- for keeping a record of memories
- to let people know (who want to know) what i've been up to
- to reflect on how much i've changed / am changing
i think for me, it's mainly keeping track of events, thoughts, opinions, feelings... just then i was flicking through some old posts, and it brings back memories. it also makes me think of then, and now, and to reflect on that.
i must say though. i am amazed at how many people read my blog. most of the time i think i'm only writing to two or three people... but then every so often i find out one other person is reading it too. it's kinda cool :)
i must say though. i am amazed at how many people read my blog. most of the time i think i'm only writing to two or three people... but then every so often i find out one other person is reading it too. it's kinda cool :)
so... now i question you... why do you READ my blog? haha.
Labels: blog, memories, reflections
12:19 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009
♥ lauf memory lane
it's time for a trip down memory lane.
how sad, some of the audio has been cut off due to copyright stuff!
peer support camp memories :)
okay for this one, you should first watch this: DBSK Balloons
because this was what we were trying to imitate for a friend's birthday.
More memories :)
More memories =']
LAUF LEAVERS
LEAVERS '08
that's it for now. i can't believe there is actually SO MANY! there's still the love / domestic spy series xD
oh gosh, i loved highschoooooooooooooooool. these videos are awes!
Labels: high school, lauf, leavers, memories, youtube
11:24 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
♥ michael jackson
today, michael jackson passed away...it's been all over the media. plastered everywhere. tv. news. facebook. blogs.
and people are quick to get sick of it... which is kinda sad i rekon, considering that it affects so many lives...
the movie that your going to watch on sunday, or the hairdressers place you are at now, how bored you are on this friday night... are all such little things that will be easily forgotten in the next week.
the death of this pop star? will remain in the history books for years to come.
i remember when i was a kid i use to like to watch those tv shows that tried to answer so many questions when it came to mj. how did his skin turn white. are the allegations true. did he get nose surgery. what happened to the marriage with his wife. why did he hold his child over the balcony. why does he live in a massive mansion with a massive backyard playground with supercool rides. why does he do that. why does he do this.
it was always a neverending line of questions. and i hated how the media would portray such things at times. its sad that the minds of many are so easily influenced by the media. that they rely on the accuracy of the media.
the molestation charges were dropped. doesn't out justice system base it on "innocent until proven guilty"...? oh but of course, many decided to make up their own minds about him... without knowing him, but judging anyways.
anyways. i'm slightly annoyed at some people today. the people (and/or) media who focused on his "accusations" rather than his talent. the people (and/or) media who aren't being very sensitive to his family, friends or fans (just because they dont know him personally... doesnt mean he didn't mean something significant in one's life)
a life was lost today. a life that influenced decades of music. a life that inspired many. a life that left so many memories. a life that played a role (however small) in many lives...
and the least you could do, is respect that life.
sighsigh i'm so dissapointed in you......
10:43 PM
Friday, March 13, 2009
♥ little things remind me of you
warning: very cheesey post O____O and probably hard to understand if ur not joshho XD
purple snow
i took you to this special place, before going to watch highschoolmusical3...
we sat on a seat while i read ur letters that u wrote for me while u were in adelaide
highschoolmusical3
u awkwardly put ur head on my shoulder xD
the foreshore
the times we spent there talking, listening to music and eating lunch my mum made for us / lunch we bought from mr samurai 8)
terriyaki chicken udon noodles
when u first told me u loved me... =) at supreme court gardens
blue hair / blue hair dye
reminds me of the movie bride wars. u know? the girl switched the hair dye so she had blue hair xD... we 'watched' on valentines day off my lappy at home xD ahaha
turtles
ur 'turtle' backpack lololol!=)
taylor swift 'love story'
whenever i hear this song on teh radio.. i can hear u singing it to mee.. hehe
purple snow
i took you to this special place, before going to watch highschoolmusical3...
we sat on a seat while i read ur letters that u wrote for me while u were in adelaide
highschoolmusical3
u awkwardly put ur head on my shoulder xD
the foreshore
the times we spent there talking, listening to music and eating lunch my mum made for us / lunch we bought from mr samurai 8)
terriyaki chicken udon noodles
when u first told me u loved me... =) at supreme court gardens
blue hair / blue hair dye
reminds me of the movie bride wars. u know? the girl switched the hair dye so she had blue hair xD... we 'watched' on valentines day off my lappy at home xD ahaha
turtles
ur 'turtle' backpack lololol!=)
taylor swift 'love story'
whenever i hear this song on teh radio.. i can hear u singing it to mee.. hehe
Labels: boyfriend, love, memories, relationships
7:22 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
♥ then and now
today was the curriculum council awards night...
and i sat in this non airconditioned room... where it was hot and sticky...
and i watched my mate and my boyfriend get some well deserved awards on stage.
i was so happy for them! so proud of them. i was smiling so much.
i know they deserved it. they both worked so hard for it.
soo a guy today was giving a speech on 3 types of men. englishman. irishman. scottishman ( is that right? i forgot already.. haha! )
and i liked his story.
the englishman represented students brought up in a good environment.. posh school maybe. good teachers. they are pretty much pampered xP
the irishman came from the slums. he had to work his way up... to get a good education. he worked very hard.
the scottishman had a natural ability. he didn't really have to work, yet still did well.
so i started to think about me. the speaker said that we're not just one, but a mix. and i agree.
englishman: good home. good parents. good upbringing. good teachers. good support.
irishman: public school. asian background (esp from the public speaking aspect). female.
scottishman: maths. it would just click for me sometimes... where it took ages for others to pick it up. economics. i never really studied hard for the tests... but still scored really well. english. i never read the books, i never really tried like i should have... but i still did "okay".
so i look at myself as a child.
and i look at myself now.
i mean yeah. if i read the books in lit, i guess i could have done better...
if i went to a private school, maybe i wouldn't have gotten scaled down in physics and calculus.
maybe if i didn't do all those extra curriculum activities... i would have focused more on work.
but to be honest? i'm happy with how it turned out. reading those lit notes was just as good, i never was a fan of literature anyways. i loved being at my public school - the people i met, and the environment built me up to be a stronger person. i loved doing those extra curriculum activities - its made me who i am, socially and personality wise.
i've changed a lot. i may have regretted things i've done (or didn't do)...
but i've learnt a lot of things too... and i'm a better person for it. and i'm happy it turned out this way. i'm happy that God was carrying me the whole way through. That despite the days i felt like giving up... that i felt like it was too much... that i hung onto the hope that there would be a better day. And there always was.
P.S. WHYYY am i an inset for the big GROUPIE school shot.. G_G why did i have to be in sydney during photo day!
and i sat in this non airconditioned room... where it was hot and sticky...
and i watched my mate and my boyfriend get some well deserved awards on stage.
i was so happy for them! so proud of them. i was smiling so much.
i know they deserved it. they both worked so hard for it.
soo a guy today was giving a speech on 3 types of men. englishman. irishman. scottishman ( is that right? i forgot already.. haha! )
and i liked his story.
the englishman represented students brought up in a good environment.. posh school maybe. good teachers. they are pretty much pampered xP
the irishman came from the slums. he had to work his way up... to get a good education. he worked very hard.
the scottishman had a natural ability. he didn't really have to work, yet still did well.
so i started to think about me. the speaker said that we're not just one, but a mix. and i agree.
englishman: good home. good parents. good upbringing. good teachers. good support.
irishman: public school. asian background (esp from the public speaking aspect). female.
scottishman: maths. it would just click for me sometimes... where it took ages for others to pick it up. economics. i never really studied hard for the tests... but still scored really well. english. i never read the books, i never really tried like i should have... but i still did "okay".
so i look at myself as a child.
and i look at myself now.
i mean yeah. if i read the books in lit, i guess i could have done better...
if i went to a private school, maybe i wouldn't have gotten scaled down in physics and calculus.
maybe if i didn't do all those extra curriculum activities... i would have focused more on work.
but to be honest? i'm happy with how it turned out. reading those lit notes was just as good, i never was a fan of literature anyways. i loved being at my public school - the people i met, and the environment built me up to be a stronger person. i loved doing those extra curriculum activities - its made me who i am, socially and personality wise.
i've changed a lot. i may have regretted things i've done (or didn't do)...
but i've learnt a lot of things too... and i'm a better person for it. and i'm happy it turned out this way. i'm happy that God was carrying me the whole way through. That despite the days i felt like giving up... that i felt like it was too much... that i hung onto the hope that there would be a better day. And there always was.
P.S. WHYYY am i an inset for the big GROUPIE school shot.. G_G why did i have to be in sydney during photo day!Labels: awards, boyfriend, curriculum council, friends, high school, life, memories, regrets, TEE
11:07 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
♥ tbc retreat 2oo8
so yes! i am back from the yr 12 tbc retreat...
and it was great fun...
there was a few things and bits that i was unhappy with.. or maybe even annoyed with.
but i think i'll let that go. and just focus on the good things - for this blog entry anyways. haha.
it was a great trip. great beach. great fun. great people.
i think, being from church, we get to see each other once a week, and sometimes we dont get to talk or spend time with each other, as we might do with school friends.
i think the retreat was a good as i was able to spend time with some really good friends. some that i am already very close to.. and also some that i use to be very close to - but where time and busyness seemed to take its toll over the past year.
this retreat gave me the opportunity to be able to strengthen friendships and to also know everyone a bit more than i did...
and i think thats what i love most about these camps and stuff... u grow so much closer to ur friends. and u also learn a lot more each other... sometimes good things. sometimes badthings.
sometimes u realize the not so good qualities in particular people... and when u notice these kinda things, u become concerned. maybe even judge them. which is bad. because u may have this perspective of someone.. and by spending time with them - u may get to know them even more... and u find out aspects of their personality u dont like. but then again - everyone will have bits about themselves that others won't like. it's called being human.
anyways on a more positive aspect. i actually went into the water! and for quite a long time. and for those who dont really know me to well.. i dont really like being in water for too long.. esp when it gets pretty deep haha. its like im scared of drowning - because i nearly have before.
at first, i didnt really want to go in the water. but then i ended up goin in for a while. and it was just so much fun. i even tried bodyboarding and surfing. haha. things that i think i wouldnt do with other people. but i think i was with people i really trusted and i knew they would save me if i was in trouble haha. and the water was pretty shallow and REALLY nice... like not too crashy waves style. so i felt more reassured when going in.
yeah it was a great experience.... and i really enjoyed it. and it helped me overcome some fears i guess xP that i may have had beforehand. like the second time we went to the beach - i just went straight in... and i wasnt as freaked out about drowning as i was before...
ive also realized how very stubborn i can be. how much of a leader i am use to being... and how much i am not use to being lead. but we'll keep that for another blog entry.
soo... the end of the year draws in...
and we're leaving TBC. oh the memories. we share so much as a group... all the camps and youth nights... the outings and socials... the cookie bakes and moviess...
it's something that has been a big part of my life. these people - have been a big part of my life.
they've help me grow... yet we've grown together. and we've been through so much.
but now comes the time to move on. and i guess its not really too daunting for me.. because the year 12's are moving on together! to a different stage of life. to uni life. and to lighthouse.
it will be a tad weird being the youngest again. the youngest in the group... but im the kinda person who gets along with older people... just as well - or if not better, than as i get along with people in my age group.
so we've had awesome memories as a group... but i know we're just going to be having so much more =) just as good! and if not better... im lookin forward to it.
Yr 12 TBC retreat <3.......>
and it was great fun...
there was a few things and bits that i was unhappy with.. or maybe even annoyed with.
but i think i'll let that go. and just focus on the good things - for this blog entry anyways. haha.
it was a great trip. great beach. great fun. great people.
i think, being from church, we get to see each other once a week, and sometimes we dont get to talk or spend time with each other, as we might do with school friends.
i think the retreat was a good as i was able to spend time with some really good friends. some that i am already very close to.. and also some that i use to be very close to - but where time and busyness seemed to take its toll over the past year.
this retreat gave me the opportunity to be able to strengthen friendships and to also know everyone a bit more than i did...
and i think thats what i love most about these camps and stuff... u grow so much closer to ur friends. and u also learn a lot more each other... sometimes good things. sometimes badthings.
sometimes u realize the not so good qualities in particular people... and when u notice these kinda things, u become concerned. maybe even judge them. which is bad. because u may have this perspective of someone.. and by spending time with them - u may get to know them even more... and u find out aspects of their personality u dont like. but then again - everyone will have bits about themselves that others won't like. it's called being human.
anyways on a more positive aspect. i actually went into the water! and for quite a long time. and for those who dont really know me to well.. i dont really like being in water for too long.. esp when it gets pretty deep haha. its like im scared of drowning - because i nearly have before.
at first, i didnt really want to go in the water. but then i ended up goin in for a while. and it was just so much fun. i even tried bodyboarding and surfing. haha. things that i think i wouldnt do with other people. but i think i was with people i really trusted and i knew they would save me if i was in trouble haha. and the water was pretty shallow and REALLY nice... like not too crashy waves style. so i felt more reassured when going in.
yeah it was a great experience.... and i really enjoyed it. and it helped me overcome some fears i guess xP that i may have had beforehand. like the second time we went to the beach - i just went straight in... and i wasnt as freaked out about drowning as i was before...
ive also realized how very stubborn i can be. how much of a leader i am use to being... and how much i am not use to being lead. but we'll keep that for another blog entry.
soo... the end of the year draws in...
and we're leaving TBC. oh the memories. we share so much as a group... all the camps and youth nights... the outings and socials... the cookie bakes and moviess...
it's something that has been a big part of my life. these people - have been a big part of my life.
they've help me grow... yet we've grown together. and we've been through so much.
but now comes the time to move on. and i guess its not really too daunting for me.. because the year 12's are moving on together! to a different stage of life. to uni life. and to lighthouse.
it will be a tad weird being the youngest again. the youngest in the group... but im the kinda person who gets along with older people... just as well - or if not better, than as i get along with people in my age group.
so we've had awesome memories as a group... but i know we're just going to be having so much more =) just as good! and if not better... im lookin forward to it.
Yr 12 TBC retreat <3.......>
4:19 PM
