Saturday, June 6, 2009
♥ 1 down, 3 to go
exam progress
psyc exam: completed today (sat)
maths exam: wed
anth exam: fri
chem exam: nxt mon
well well, one down, only another three to go.
it was such a pain this morning to realize i had gotten my period. it made me super sleepy for my study / exam and not to mention i just had to bump into a particular someone while waiting for a toilet.
i wasn't going to blog about it, but i think i will because i need to get it off my chest.
i consider myself quite a friendly person. i can talk to and befriend strangers really easily, while most struggle to socialize with unfamiliar people.
and generally a really nice person, even if i find you really annoying, i will still be nice to you.
but there are just particular people... who i find it very difficult to get along with.
and yes, i will agree, that most of the time i've never tried, but i also know that if i did try, it would be on a totally fake level.
so, who would these particular people be?
well. i must admit... there are a few, but most of the time it's my friend's exboyfriend or my mate's exgirlfriend... and even more so, my boyfriend's exgirlfriend (she was the toilet encounter i was mentioning earlier).
now now, don't get me wrong, i don't hate them all. because hate is such a strong word. but i just avoid them, knowing that i would probably say or do something bad if i did come across them... (and that girl is prettyyyyyyy lucky i was tired and actually needed to use the toilet, or tbh, i might have accidently let something slip from my mouth)
and and. again, i think there are "good" ex's. and "bad ex's. i mean, some relationships end - and sometimes (even though it make take a while) things actually end up good, for example, i am like best mates with one of my ex's now. but, on the flip slide... things could go sour. and it's the kinda "ex" you avoid at all costs, or attempt to anyways.
and when it comes to those "sour" kinda endings to relationshpis, many of my friends share with me their heartache or problems... and sometimes its hard not to judge. sometimes i have to consistently remind myself that i actually don't really know their ex personally, but i'm simply judging based on what my friends are telling me, which is obviously totally bias, but still very influential.
but sometimes it isn't easy. to help your friend, and not be as angry as your friend is at them. or not to hate them.
because maybe they hurt someone close to you. or maybe they even hurt you indirectly.
anyways. i think i'm doing pretty well =) considering no one has actually had to hold me back before. i am reservedddddddd and control my anger well.
. . .
and i know this is something i'm going to have to get over. a hurdle i will need to overcome.
. . .
but in the meantime, until i do overcome it...
. . .
can you make sure you hold me back when i'm about to do something stupid?
psyc exam: completed today (sat)
maths exam: wed
anth exam: fri
chem exam: nxt mon
well well, one down, only another three to go.
it was such a pain this morning to realize i had gotten my period. it made me super sleepy for my study / exam and not to mention i just had to bump into a particular someone while waiting for a toilet.
i wasn't going to blog about it, but i think i will because i need to get it off my chest.
i consider myself quite a friendly person. i can talk to and befriend strangers really easily, while most struggle to socialize with unfamiliar people.
and generally a really nice person, even if i find you really annoying, i will still be nice to you.
but there are just particular people... who i find it very difficult to get along with.
and yes, i will agree, that most of the time i've never tried, but i also know that if i did try, it would be on a totally fake level.
so, who would these particular people be?
well. i must admit... there are a few, but most of the time it's my friend's exboyfriend or my mate's exgirlfriend... and even more so, my boyfriend's exgirlfriend (she was the toilet encounter i was mentioning earlier).
now now, don't get me wrong, i don't hate them all. because hate is such a strong word. but i just avoid them, knowing that i would probably say or do something bad if i did come across them... (and that girl is prettyyyyyyy lucky i was tired and actually needed to use the toilet, or tbh, i might have accidently let something slip from my mouth)
and and. again, i think there are "good" ex's. and "bad ex's. i mean, some relationships end - and sometimes (even though it make take a while) things actually end up good, for example, i am like best mates with one of my ex's now. but, on the flip slide... things could go sour. and it's the kinda "ex" you avoid at all costs, or attempt to anyways.
and when it comes to those "sour" kinda endings to relationshpis, many of my friends share with me their heartache or problems... and sometimes its hard not to judge. sometimes i have to consistently remind myself that i actually don't really know their ex personally, but i'm simply judging based on what my friends are telling me, which is obviously totally bias, but still very influential.
but sometimes it isn't easy. to help your friend, and not be as angry as your friend is at them. or not to hate them.
because maybe they hurt someone close to you. or maybe they even hurt you indirectly.
anyways. i think i'm doing pretty well =) considering no one has actually had to hold me back before. i am reservedddddddd and control my anger well.
. . .
and i know this is something i'm going to have to get over. a hurdle i will need to overcome.
. . .
but in the meantime, until i do overcome it...
. . .
can you make sure you hold me back when i'm about to do something stupid?
Labels: anger, boyfriend, exams, exbf/exgf, friends, pms, relationships, study, uni
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