Saturday, August 22, 2009
♥ broken through the hate
last week i had a bit of a prompting to start talking to someone.
it was bothering me a bit this week.
and i didnt really know how to go along about it.
how to make it happen. if it would work out. it they would even want to talk to me. if it would cause tension in my other relationships.
but today, after cell group, i realized it's something i shouldn't hold back on.
she was someone i epically raged about a few months ago. i probably even blogged about it, and probably bitched about. haha, theres my inner bad girl.
but over the past month, more so the past few weeks. much has changed.
i thought it might still be too soon, to begin talking, even though we've never talked before. yet there was still so much tension between us...
but i remember in a blog, more recently than the rage one, i wrote about letting go. about not judging someone for their past.
and i told myself i did. and i did. at times it would slip, im human.
but i never put that to action until today. i never tried to fix something that was always broken, in my eyes anyways.
but it turned out well. i'm quite pleased.
you know, i could have just spent the rest of my life ignoring her. but i chose to listen. and i think sometimes we percieve things as just impossible. never did i think i would be able to befriend her.
but now it's a possibility. now the vase is fixed. no longer broken. it's just whether we start using it, like putting flowers in it.
hehe, im pretty happy i listened.
thanks God =)
it was bothering me a bit this week.
and i didnt really know how to go along about it.
how to make it happen. if it would work out. it they would even want to talk to me. if it would cause tension in my other relationships.
but today, after cell group, i realized it's something i shouldn't hold back on.
she was someone i epically raged about a few months ago. i probably even blogged about it, and probably bitched about. haha, theres my inner bad girl.
but over the past month, more so the past few weeks. much has changed.
i thought it might still be too soon, to begin talking, even though we've never talked before. yet there was still so much tension between us...
but i remember in a blog, more recently than the rage one, i wrote about letting go. about not judging someone for their past.
and i told myself i did. and i did. at times it would slip, im human.
but i never put that to action until today. i never tried to fix something that was always broken, in my eyes anyways.
but it turned out well. i'm quite pleased.
you know, i could have just spent the rest of my life ignoring her. but i chose to listen. and i think sometimes we percieve things as just impossible. never did i think i would be able to befriend her.
but now it's a possibility. now the vase is fixed. no longer broken. it's just whether we start using it, like putting flowers in it.
hehe, im pretty happy i listened.
thanks God =)
Labels: exbf/exgf, friends, God, hate, relationships
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