Wednesday, December 1, 2010
♥ given up on the novelty aspect
for my eighteenth birthday my boyfriend wrote me 30 letters (one for everyday of a month), with over 30 000 words in total... he also made a me a photo album of the many photos we had taken (despite having dated for less than three months, we had quite a lot of photos together)
this afternoon i went to the city with allan who was trying to find a present for his girlfriend. such sweet and creative ideas he had (and they had been dating for nearly as long as josh and i have)... and it kinda made me feel bad for not even thinking of what i should buy josh for christmas...
so then i started stressing. and then thinking maybe i should do this. maybe i should do that. after an hour i decided on something that would allow me to be a little creative. i walked around looking for someone to serve me, so i could purchase it. but everyone was busy. so i gave up, i was tired and wanted to go home... so i put it back where i got it and left.
this guy came to fix my cupboards today (because it was water damaged from the leaking bathroom pipe) and i had to move everything out of my cupboard. and so when i came home today i started to put everything back.
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so i felt kinda bad for giving up on the creative aspect of things. because the things he wrote was really sweet. and he put so much time and effort into it. and it was really sweet.
but i think that at the start of our relationship, it was all the novelty kinda stuff. i remember spending hours making him a pinup board with pictures or letters for him to read on his plane ride to america.
and now... now, to be honest, i can't be bothered. ohh that sounds bad (i know) haha.
like i know it's sweet and it's nice. but really, i was going to get another photo album..... to end up sitting in the cupboard... or in a box filled with letters from over the years. we've been dating (nearly) two years and we don't really take as many photos together as we use to... i mean like in the end it's our relationship that counts, not the flowers he buys me (although it's kinda sweet receiving them.......) or the things i make him... but seriously, i think i rather invest in some more practical things... especially since we don't need to win each other's hearts over anymore...
okay, i'm just attempting to make excuses......... but but I LOVE YOU!
man i'm in a really unromantic mood at the moment. i think i'm going to regret posting this haha especially because i'm just rambling. i really should stop rambling. like right now. stop. now.
6:48 PM
